Volume eleven

"I'm not going to lie, you did good." I told Kee looking around as Ice and them finished moving everything. "I do love this apartment."

"Sanaa gon paint Kreed room and fix that all up for us so we don't have to worry about shit when it comes to his room, we gon get some more when I get some more money up."

"You really did a whole 180, I'm really proud of you baby." I hugged him.

"I been like this but I'm just now realizing I was taking advantage of the life I was given."

"Are we going to prom?"

"Hell yeah." He looked at me like I was stupid. "I was going to give you the money to go dress shopping on your day off."

"You don't have to." I chuckled. "I want our color to be grey."

"You really so dark." He chuckled. "But I didn't expect anything else."

"As you shouldn't."

"Where is my fucking food?" Benji asked.

"Who the fuck is you talking to?" I asked looking at him.

"Tell em they forgot who the fuck you is." Face instagated making me laugh.

"Motherfucker, y'all said if we helped Spencer was going to cook for us." Ice said making me look at Kee and Face as they turned away. "Y'all lied? Aight bet."

Ice, Benji, and Mickey started lifting stuff back up taking it out the apartment making me laugh as I stopped them.

"I'll cook, what y'all want?" I asked getting multiple things, I looked at them wondering did they have this money. "So y'all want allat, right?"

"Yeah."

"Gimme the money for it." I held my hand out knowing their cheap asses wasn't going to but they proved me wrong, they all handed me money making me groan.

"You not getting out of this." Kee laughed.

"Obviously not, let me see ya car." I said holding out my hand as he gave me the car keys.

"If you was my woman-"

"She not." Kee cut off Ice making me laugh.

Ice play too fucking much.

I was going to take Kree with me but decided against it because he loves to run around and cry over things, I walked out wanting somebody to come with me but decided against it.

When I got to the supermarket I waved to the manager as she waved back, I smiled at some old people then went to get what I needed to.

I made a mistake and bumped into someone making me instantly start to apologize cause he dropped everything out his hand.

"I'm so sorry." I apologized helping him pick his stuff up.

"You good baby girl." He smirked. I looked over him seeing he was fine as hell, he sent chills down my body saying that.

I stepped back because I felt as if I was too close to him, he chuckled a little I guess from my face. He licked his lips then pulled his pants up a little.

"You having a party?"

"What?" I questioned furrowing my eyebrows.

"Allat food." He nodded towards the cart.

"Oh, I cook and all this stuff was requested."

"You could cook for me?" He asked.

"I have this business, you can support." I told him.

"Word? What you on so I could see wassup."

"You could follow me on Instagram." I told him giving him the Instagram name.

"I'll see what you about baby girl, don't disappoint me." He smirked walking away as I stood there then shook my head.

I'm losing it.

I needed to hurry up and go back to my man and child, I hurried up and finished everything so I can go. As I was putting the bags in the car, I seen him again. I turned my head real quick wanting to make sure he didn't see me.

As soon as I was finished I made eye contact with him, he sent a smirk my way then pulled off in his Dodge Charger.

~

"I'm really stab you between ya legs and let that shit drag up while you separate into two." Mickey said.

"God Mickey." Jala said as we all looked at him.

"He did it before." Face said.

"He most definitely did." Kee cosigned.

"I really ask myself why I be with y'all." Sanaa said making me agree.

"You don't got no choice." Terror kissed her on her cheek.

"Don't kiss on my fucking sister after you smoke bitch." Face glared at him. "Gon have her fucking face stink."

"Shut the fuck up."

"Fight me, fight me."

"Y'all niggas annoying." Q said.

"Fight me." Face told him.

"I'll smoke you." Q waved him off.

"Can we go one day without fighting? Talking about stabbing and shit? Damn." I spoke to them.

"You wanna get stabbed?" Mickey asked.

"You not stabbing me." I looked at him across the room.

"You wanna see? I could throw knives too."

"Ya aim not that damn good." I scoffed.

"Spencer!" Kee pulled me hard as fuck.

I was confused why he did that until I looked up to see Mickey threw the damn knife, it was stuck into the cabinet. If Kee wouldn't have pulled me, the knife would have been in my head.

"I'm bout to fuck you up." Kee told Mickey looking at the knife.

"You had to aim for my head?" I asked looking at him. "Even if you was proving a point, you had to aim at my head?"

"Don't doubt me." He shrugged coming towards me making me move quick as hell, I was officially scared of Mickey.

"That's my muhfucking fave." Jaelyn laughed making me look at her.

"Imma nip ya heart if you touch me." Mickey told Kee as he walked up to him.

"Why the fuck would you throw a knife at her?" He smacked the knife out his hand smacking him in his face.

"Bitch stop playing with me." Mickey said punching Kee. "Don't let these knives fool y'all, I still could fight my nigga."

"Talk to ya shit MickeyMo." Ice chuckled as they laughed.

"I hate y'all." I rolled my eyes.

I sat down going to my Instagram, I looked through my notifications stopping at a name. It was him. The boy from the supermarket, I looked through his page seeing he looked even better on social media. My dumb ass made a mistake and liked the picture from 63 weeks ago making my eyes widen in shock.

"Oh fuck." I sighed, this what I get for even looking at another nigga.

"What happened?" Sanaa asked as I looked at her.

"I was lurking on this boy page and liked a picture from mad long ago."

"Oh he must be fine fine." She said taking my phone. "He got a friend?"

"Girl." I looked at her as we both laughed.

"Where you know him from?"

"I don't, I saw him at the supermarket and I gave him my food page but I guess he found my real one."

"Bitch he DM'd you." She said making me grow shocked.

"What he say?" I asked.

"If you liked what you see all you had to do was tell me baby girl." Sanaa read then looked at me. "Bitch, uh uh."

"Keohn is all over my page, niggas be bold."

"Niggas just don't care until the last thing they see is Mickey." She spoke making me laugh. "You gon respond?"

"Would you?"

"No."

"Exactly. I have a whole boyfriend, I'm practically married. I ain't never looked at another nigga and I'm not going to start now."

"As you shouldn't, faithful gang."

"Head ass." I looked at her making me laugh.

~

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you." We all sung as Kreed smiled looking around.

"Now blow out ya candles baby." I smiled.

As he was blowing it out, Face pushed his whole face in the cake making me gasp as everybody started laughing. I didn't find that shit funny not one bit, that shit pissed me off.

"Why the fuck would you do that?" I asked picking Kreed head up so he can stop crying.

"Spence, I-"

"Why you tripping?" Kee asked as I started cleaning him up. "It's not that serious, he ain't even mad."

"Of course he not mad, he eating his self."

"So what are you mad for?" He asked slow as if I was dumb.

"You sat here and watched me spend hours making that cake, I worked so fucking hard to make it perfect and you sat there watching my frustrations. Don't ask me why I'm fucking mad when you didn't do shit but hang up one lousy ass poster."

"You tripping." He waved me off.

"Yeah, I bet I am. Just get away from me before you piss me off even more."

"You saying that as if I suppose to just-"

"Aye Kee, ya mother here." Face said making him walk out as I was grateful cause I was going to curse him the fuck out.

I changed Kree clothes then wiped him down making sure he not sticky no more, I sent him on his way as I took my time going back out there. Once I felt like I was fine enough to go out there, all of that went out the window as soon as I walked out.

"Spinny!" My little sister yelled running to me as I stood there.

"Damn Spinny, you still short." My little brother followed after her hugging me.

"What y'all doing here?" I smiled hugging them real tight. "Man y'all got big as hell, how old is y'all now? 13? 14?"

"We 14, we about to graduate." Paisley smiled. "We going to high school."

"I really ain't see you in almost 5 years brah." Carter said looking me over.

"Why didn't you tell us you were back from down south?" Peyton asked making me confused.

"What you talking bout?"

"When we came back from our dad house, mommy said you decided to move down south with yours. We didn't even know you were back."

"Your mother is a fucking bitch and a liar." I spoke making them both scrunch up their face. "Do y'all even know why you here?"

"Because you moved into a new house, this is a house warming party, right?"

I chuckled walking away, I grabbed a soda then walked outside the hallway. This whole day have already been aggravating but this, this was beyooond me.

I looked up to see this bitch staring in my face looking like she was shocked, she started smiling. She walked towards me as I held my hand out, I know this bitch wasn't expecting a damn hug out of me?

"Spinny, you okay?" Paisley asked as her and Carter walked outside.

"I see y'all got reunited." This bitch smiled. "They missed you so much."

"Yeah, I bet they did not knowing I was always in the same city as them."

"What you talm bout?" Carter asked.

"Y'all mother kicked me out because I was pregnant and the reason y'all are here because it's my son birthday party, not no damn house warming party."

"Mommy?" PaiPai questioned confused.

"I did what I had to do as a mother, I-"

"Bitch, you ain't my damn mother." I spoke out making it go quiet.

"Spencer, watch yourself."

"I wanted you to be there for me, I needed you to be there for me."I said feeling myself about to cry but I wasn't giving her the satisfaction of her seeing me cry. "I had to sleep at bus stops, gas stations, anywhere I could find for months while being pregnant. My son was born early because I couldn't feed myself, he had to stay in ICU for two months because I didn't see a doctor the whole 7 months and 3 weeks. I lost myself because you had to do what as a mother?"

"Spencer don't blame anything that you been through on me, I gave you a choice!"

"You asked me to pick between someone I created or you, of course I was going to pick my fucking child! I just wished you would've picked me."

At this point I was crying and I didn't even care, I could act like this didn't bother me all day but it did. I wanted a mother, I needed a mother.

"You told me when I got a child and had to make decisions for him I would understand what you had to do but I don't. Everyday I see Kreed it makes me go harder, I will never tell my child he's a disappointment, I would never tell him I should've aborted him when I had the chance."

"You did all this for real?" Carter asked as I looked at both of them. His eyes were watery as Paisley was crying.

"Why did you lie?" Paisley asked.

"You told us she decided to move because she hated us, she didn't feel like we were her responsibility." Carter looked at her furrowing his eyebrows. "You didn't need her but we did."

"She a selfish narcissist bitch." I told him wiping my face.

She slapped the shit out of me making me stumble back a little, I had to calm myself down to not hit her back. I blew my breath, calming myself down.

"I promise you, that's the last time you'll ever put your hands on me." I told her. "Y'all know she also tried to stomp my baby out when I told her I wasn't choosing her over my son?"

"Spencer all of these lies, you left!"

"You a lying ass bitch! What the fuck are you here for? What did you come here for?"

"Keohn invited me, he-"

"I'm uninviting you, get the fuck off my property before I remove you! My brother and sister can stay, you get the fuck away from me."

"Watch your fucking mouth!"

She tried to slap me again but I moved making her hit my shoulder again and that was enough for me to snap. It's like I turned into another person.

I grabbed her shirt to bring her closer to me as I punched her directly in her face, as I was hitting her all I could remember was her kicking me in my stomach while hitting me with a belt repeatedly as I tried to block all the hits, as I tried to protect my baby.

"Spencer stop!" Paisley yelled before I heard loud music then the door close.

"Spence, stop stop!" Kee said as I couldn't, even if I wanted to I couldn't.

Keohn pulled the fuck out of me by my waist but it made that worst for her cause I was dragging her and as soon as she came by my foot I kicked her directly in her face making her fall straight on her back.

"Now you getting locked up bitch!" She yelled as Paisley and Carter helped her up. "I'm taking pictures of my face and you will be going to jail."

"Bitch it's cameras in this fucking hallway, sue me bitch! I dare you!"

"Spencer shut up!" Kee said holding onto me.

"What the fuck did you invite her for? Just because you decided to forgive your mother don't mean push shit on to me! Your mother just kicked you out, this bitch did so much more, you knew how I feel about her!"

"Stop yelling at me Spencer, we could talk-"

"I don't wanna talk about shit!"

I was pissed, beyond pissed, I was fuming.

"Bitch leave! What are you still here for?!" I yelled bout to walk to her. "Everybody get the fuck out."

"Ain't nobody bout to leave cause you mad, this ain't about you right now. This about Kreed, it's his day not yours. You been in a bad mood all day and keep tryna ruin his shit, take ya ass somewhere then since you want people to leave so fucking bad."

"I will." I pushed passed him going into the apartment going into the room to put on some different shoes.

"You really bout to leave? Spencer-"

"Stop touching me and leave me alone, you get to walk out on Kreed whenever the fuck you want because you make shit happen for us, right? Leave me the fuck alone."

"Wow." He furrowed his eyebrows. "So I just don't give a fuck about my family? So this shit not for you and Kreed? Every fucking thing I don't do is for y'all?"

"You decided to sell drugs for fucking you! You wanted to get into this street shit for you! You could have worked at your father company, don't ever try to justify the shit you did because of me!"

"Bi- Spencer I-"

"You was bout to call me out my name?" I asked dropping everything out my hand.

"Yeah, I was cause you just had me fucked up."

"Say it if you like that."

"Spencer ain't nobody scared of ya ass, you think if you hit me you doing something? That shit ain't gon do nothing but make you mad cause you can't beat me no matter how much you think you can."

"Boy, suck my dick." I put my shoes on grabbing my wallet.

"Watch your mouth."

"Fuck out my face, you heard what I said. Suck my dick."

He gripped my shirt about to say something but I took that as a sign he wanna fight and I started swinging on him making sure they were strong. For him to brag about my punches not doing anything, his eye was bleeding.

"Are y'all fucking dumb?" Face asked walking in the room. "Kee let her the fuck go!"

"Kee this ya girl, you bugging." Ice told him.

"Spence, let go of him." Terror said.

"I'm out, fuck this shit!" Kee said once they finally go us separate.

"Duh nigga, that's all you do is be out. I expected you to say that shit, I been knew you was finna leave." I chuckled.

"You wouldn't be shit without me bitch, you think you got us this apartment? I got this shit, I do everything for your ass!"

"You don't do shit for me that I don't deserve. You ain't shit but a muhfucking babysitter, how you gotta babysit ya own son nigga?"

"Shut the fuck up!" Face yelled. "Both of y'all."

"Fuck that bitch."

"You ain't making me mad baby." I laughed as he tried to push through Ice and Mickey. "If it's fuck me, why you so mad baby boy?"

"Spencer, stop picking." Face said.

"Fuck that bitch!" He yelled this time.

"Yeah, whatever. Enjoy yourself princess." I grabbed my jacket.

"Where you going? Don't take my fucking keys!"

"Boy you could have these shits!" I threw them, I didn't mean for them to hit him in his face and I felt real bad but I was still mad so I held my strong demeanor.

"You really a dumb ass bitch." He said. "I hope you go out there and find another nigga so I could beat him the fuck up."

"If I find another nigga, he will be nothing like you."

"That's cool cause my bitch gon be everything you not."

"She ain't gon be shit cause it gets no better than me." I smiled.

"You ain't shit with ya dumb ass, I only stayed with you for so long cause you my baby mother and you already been put out so I ain't wanna make shit worst on you. I been wanted this to be over, I-"

"You tweaking, shut up son." Ice told him.

"You ain't so hard now? Truth hurt, right?"

"It's cool." I chuckled gathering my stuff and Kreed stuff.

"You ain't taking my son no where."

"Your son? Boy the fuck bye." I chuckled.

"You can't provide for him! You can't even have a place of ya own."

"You want your son to yourself Keohn?" I chuckled. "I wanna see you take care of him by yourself, this will be comedy and when you call me tomorrow, I will take my son and get the fuck out ya life."

I grabbed my bag filled with stuff I needed then walked out, Kreed was on the couch sleep. I kissed him multiple times then walked out the door, I didn't even know where I was going but I refused to stay with his weird ass.

"Get in." Sanaa spoke making me hop in. "I don't even know what happened, I just came in the end."

"Well I took his weed so let's park somewhere and talk." I shrugged.

She laughed as she turned the radio up, we went to some complex as we both started rolling up. We started smoking as I told her everything, she told me I could come stay with her until I have everything settled which I thanked God for.

"You need to stop hitting people, you just been fiesty girl." Sanaa said making me laugh.

"Tell them to leave me alone."

"Ain't that's that boy who DM'd you?" She asked making me look at the boy who was staring directly in the car as I signaled for him to come here. "Bitch what you doing?"

"I'm single now." I shrugged smirking.

"You know Keohn ain't mean allat shit."

"Who that?"

"Girl- oh my God he coming."

"What you doing round my side of town?" He asked leaning down in the window.

"Just cooling, what you doing here?"

"I'm from round here, these my parts." He smirked. "Ain't it ya son birthday?"

"You be watching me like that?"

Chuckling, he swiped the sides of his mouth. "I could say the same, you liking pictures from years ago and shit."

"You feeling yaself too much." I playfully rolled my eyes.

"And who this? Wassup mama? I'm Baby."

"Baby?" Sanaa asked looking up from her phone.

"Yeah, my grandmother made it up cause I'm the baby of all my cousins and that shit stuck."

"That's cute, I'm Nana."

"Oh aight, had to introduce myself since I'm all at ya shit."

"I respect it." She nodded.

"So wassup? Why you not at ya son party?"

"Some shit went down, had to get a smoke break."

"Y'all come smoke with me and bro."

"I would but she in a whole relationship and I ain't bout to disrespect her relationship by having her around niggas."

"And I ain't bout to leave her around niggas." Sanaa added.

"I respect it, y'all true to y'allselves. How about you get my number and you decide when you hit me up and I'll take both of y'all to get something to eat so she not around no niggas and you not by yaself?"

"Gimme ya number and I'll see."

I handed him my phone as he entered it, he went to say something else but some lady out the window called him. He told me it was his mother then he said his byes then went back in the house, Sanaa pulled away as I chuckled.

"You gon text em?" Sanaa asked.

"Why not?" I shrugged leaning back.
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