Volume eleven

"If your friends a ho then you's a ho, wherever you go I know they go. Don't follow your dreams, you follow bankrolls. Your ass so fake, I thought you was ten toes." I rapped along in the camera as Reem recorded me while I drove.

"You felt that shit." He laughed changing the song making me flick him off.

"I don't have friends, I have family."

"Okurrr." He said making me laugh.

We were spending the day together, we got our nails and feet done together then I sat while he got his haircut. Now we were on our way to the mall because they had the best food court, I'll probably do a little shopping too.

"You don't want nothing out this mall?" He asked.

"You saying it like we're going to one store." I chuckled. "I do need some new summer clothes."

"Aight well take this." He handed me a card. "Go to whatever store you want while I go sneaker shopping."

"Why I can't come with you? What you got a little bitch you wanna go see?"

"Ain't no bitches mamas." He chuckled.

"You really not cute." I scrunched up my face to hide the smile that desperately wanted to come out.

Using Reem sister handicap sticker, I parked as we got out. I walked away from him going to the NIKE factory. I needed to buy me and Jala some matching sweat suits and more.

Around a hour later, I guess I was taking too long cause Reem called me almost three times. I knew he was finna be mad at me, I chuckled knowing where he was at. I walked into Finish Line seeing him talking to some girl making me raise a eyebrow.

"You funny as hell." She overly laughed throwing her head back and allat, while grabbing his muscles. "What's your name?"

"Re-"

"Jaelyn man." I stepped in looking at both of them.

"I've been talking to him for almost ten minutes, you ain't-"

"I don't care what you bout to say." I smacked her hand down.

"Don't put ya hands on me unless you wanna-"

"Girl, I'll snatch my lashes off so fast. What you wanna do?"

"Bitch, I'll have ya man tongue all in my ass."

"That don't get me mad." I chuckled. "What you wanna do? I want all smoke over my dick goofy."

"Jae." Reem laughed shaking his head. "What I tell you? Ain't no bitches mamas."

"Okay but so what? What you letting her touch you for?"

"I ain't een feel her touching me Jae."

"Imma get my brother to stab both of y'all and see if y'all both feel it." I spoke pulling out my phone to FaceTime Mickey.

"Hold on." He spoke to whoever. "Wassup?"

"Fave?" I pouted whining.

"What's wrong?"

"Reem flirting with some ugly girl and she threatened me and he letting her touch him and shit."

"Where y'all at?"

"We at the mall, I want you to stab both of em."

"Send me a picture of that bitch, I'll be the last thing she see before she die. And I can't kill Reem but I'll make em be in pain."

"Thank you favorite."

"I'll smack the shit out of you as soon as I see you coming towards me with a knife." Reem told him.

"We'll see." Mickey said before hanging up.

I took a picture of the girl like Mickey said and sent it to him then walked away, I knew Reem was walking behind me cause I heard his big ass feet along with all the bags he was carrying.

"What you wanna eat?"

"Loyalty."

"Jae." He busted out laughing. "You want some chipotle?"

"Yeah." I rolled my eyes.

"Aight, I'll get it."

I waved him off calling Esme, she didn't answer which I didn't expect her to so I called my best friend and this bitch had the audacity to decline my call. I nodded going on Instagram to record myself.

"Everybody just doing JaeBlood wrong today but that's cool, best friend applications are being posted tonight. If you feel you qualify please apply and this position comes with free matching outfits."

I ended the video putting my phone on the table, I looked for Reem to see him laughing with the Chipotle employee. I rolled my eyes extra hard, he was always smiling in some bitch face no matter where we went.

"I hate niggas." I mumbled watching him walk towards me.

"I ever gave you a reason to distrust me?" He asked as soon as he sat down.

"No?" I questioned wondering where that came from.

"So why every time you see me talking or smiling with some girl you just assume I want the bitch or vice versa?"

"Because what you smiling in her face for? You be showing all your 32s as if these bitches really that funny."

"You know what that sound like?"

"What?"

"You jealous."

"You tried it." I scoffed.

"Jae pb&jealous."

"Reem gon get stabbed and D I E."

"Nah, seriously JaeBae I ain't never look at a female the same since you came in my sight of vision." He smirked.

"So why you not my boyfriend?" I asked making him stop smiling knowing I caught him off guard cause I caught my own damn self off guard.

"I was giving you time."

"I'm over Sterling."

"You could say that cause you haven't seen him, it's easy to say your over someone you don't see on a daily basis."

"I follow him on IG, I see him with his girlfriend and don't feel no type of way anyway. I'm over him."

"I just want you to have more time Jae, you know how I feel about you and you know what you mean to me. You ain't got a title but that ain't forever."

"You right." I nodded kind of disappointed.

"What you tell the girl in there? My name Jaelyn man?" He smiled. "Keep that energy cause you know wassup."

"You right."

"Jae."

"I'm just kind of disappointed but I know you right."

"You wanna go to Beyonce concert in two weeks?"

"You think you gon buy my happiness?" I asked raising a eyebrow.

"I ain't trying-"

"Cause it's gon work bitch!" I yelled getting happy.

"Jaelyn." He laughed. "I was going to take Stink for her birthday but all three of us could go."

"I'll buy my own ticket, can you buy backstage passes?"

"You tryna dent my pockets." He shook his head. "Both y'all."

"Cause you love me you can't say no." I smiled innocently.

"Yes the hell I can."

"Okay." I smiled knowing he can't, he know he can't.

"You ready to go?" He asked closing his food.

"Yeah cause I'm in need of a nap." I yawned.

"Word." He nodded grabbing all the bags. "Gimme the keys, I'm driving back."

"Perfect." I smiled handing them to him as we walked out the mall heading to the car.

I got in the car as he put the bags in the trunk, I leaned back going on Instagram checking my notifications. I instantly remembered Reem birthday was the day after Stinks, I didn't even know what I was going to do for him.

"You got ya prom dress together?"

"Yes, I can't wait for you to see it." I smirked.

"You gon tell me what our colors are so we can go?" He said reminding me.

"Maroon and black."

"You my seed." He chuckled making me laugh, he was the reason I choose those colors so I didn't say anything.

My phone got connected back to the Bluetooth as I went to Pandora singing along to the songs while recording myself and a few shots of Reem.

"And I just wanna know would you catch me if I fall? If you tell me yeah, boy I might just risk it all. If you tell me no it's okay then I will leave. I hope you feel the same, you're the only one I see I see." I grabbed his face singing to him as he mumbled the lyrics making me smile as I posted the video.

I looked at him having the urge to kiss him so I did just that.

I connected our lips and I knew he was shocked cause he was just sitting there, I smiled making him chuckle as he grabbed my neck deepening the kiss.

The only reason why we stopped kissing was because cars started beeping behind us.

"You pushing ya luck." He pointed in my face making me smile.

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"You happy?" Reem asked as we walked out the concert.

"Over the moon." I smiled leaning into him.

"Glad somebody is." I heard Stink mumble.

"What you say?" Reem asked.

"Nothing." She rolled her eyes grabbing the passenger door.

"Stink, you know you was in the back when we got here so why you tryna be in the front?"

"Yeah, I'm in the back a lot." She mumbled again brushing past me.

"Say excuse me Stink."

"She's fine." I spoke up as she slammed the car door.

"I don't know what the fuck is ya problem but you better cut this shit the fuck out."

"When you ready to be a brother than you can speak to me."

"If I'm not ya brother then what the fuck I spend almost 2 thousand on?" She yelled something in their language making him turn back real fast. "Watch your fucking mouth!"

They started arguing back and forth in their language as I was sitting there, it wasn't my place to intervene so I sat there on my phone not saying anything. Reem yelled something then the conversation stopped making me look up.

"Jae, where you wanna go?" He asked making me furrow my eyebrows.

"What you mean?"

"Who house do you want to go to for the night?"

"I thought I was spending a night?"

"Nah, so where do you wanna go?"

"But why can't I spend the-"

"Jaelyn!" He cut me off raising his voice. "Where do you wanna go?"

"You could drop me off home." I spoke taking my airpods out the case putting them in my ear.

I don't care what was going on with anybody else, don't take your frustration out on me especially when I haven't done anything to add onto that frustration.

When we was nearing my mother house, I took my air pods out to gather my stuff. He looked over at me but I didn't say anything to him, I didn't care to. When he pulled up, I opened the door before he could even stop the car.

"Happy birthday." I told him as I got out the car not giving him a chance to say anything.

My feelings were definitely hurt when he just pulled off not even making sure I was in the house. That's cool.

As I was walking I felt a presence behind me, I didn't look back until I had my key in the door. I turned seeing some unknown ass boy, I grabbed my taser in one hand and the mace in the other.

"Can I help you with something?"

"I'm looking for Janet." He spoke making me furrow my eyebrows.

"What you need with my mother?"

"She's my mother too."

"What? I'm her only child."

"She's my mom and Drew is my dad."

"Hold the hell up." I put my hand out. "How is Drew your dad when he's not even mine? So you telling me, my mother had a son and I supposed to believe you?"

"I'm 20 years old, this is my birth certificate signed by both of them and this is the adoption papers along with my ID and social, just so you know I'm not lying."

I grabbed everything looking over it and it was official, everything was official. I handed him back everything calling Jala.

"Girl, it's 12." She spoke sounding like she was sleep.

"We have a brother."

"Bye Jaelyn." She hung up on me making me smack my teeth and call her on FaceTime this time. "Bitch what? Who the hell is that?"

"Bitch we have a fucking brother."

"What?" She sat up turning on the light.

"He's my mother and your father son."

"Back the fuck up." She said making me sigh. "Daddy!"

"This bitch." I sighed louder.

"What's wrong?" I heard Drew say.

"Why you ain't tell me I have a brother?"

"Bye Jala."

"Daddy, I'm obviously not talking about JJ." She rolled her eyes. "Why didn't you tell me I had an older brother?"

"You don't."

"So who the hell is this?" I saw his face pop up in the camera as I flipped it to put him back in.

"Jashon?" Drew furrowed his eyebrows in surprise. (Jay-Shine)

"So it's true?" Jala asked.

"Where you at?" Drew ignored her.

"Jaelyn house."

"Get dress we bout to go over there."

"I'll see you in a minute." Jala said as I heard three beeps.

"They aren't together anymore?"

"When we find out if you our brother, I'll tell you all about it." I rolled my eyes.

"Is she here?" He nodded towards the house.

"Yeah, we bout to go in but let me tell you now the second you on some fake murdering shit you gon be the only one getting murdered and I put that on my baby, okay?"

"You got kids?"

"No but so what?" I chuckled making him laugh.

I opened the door seeing Laurie standing in the hallway as if she was on the phone, she smiled at both of us and then went on to continue her conversation. I heard talking in the kitchen making me go in there.

"Daddy!" I ran to him jumping on him as he hugged me tight. "What you doing here? Why didn't you tell me you were coming to town?"

"It was a surprise." He pinched my cheek letting me go. "Why you coming in the house so late?"

"I just came from Beyonce concert, I wasn't even supposed to be here tonight but I came anyway."

"This Reem?"

"No." I shook my head. "I think mom know him."

"How would I know him?"

"I mean this is your son." I shrugged making everybody look at me.

"Hello everybody." My step father said as everybody was still looking at Jashon. "Who's this?"

"What do you mean Jae?" My mother ignored him. "I never had-"

"How you gon try to disclaim the boy in front of his face? Don't you think he hurt enough?" I mugged her.

"You had me 21 years ago."

"We weren't together then." My dad furrowed his eyebrows. "You had a son by Drew?"'

"She was really gon deny this man in his damn face." I mumbled shaking my head.

"Yeah, we had a child but-"

"Should I have mentioned that Drew on his way?" I asked as she glared at me. "They here."

Going towards the door, I opened the door for Jala, Drew and Kayla. I smiled and hugged all them leading them to the kitchen where everybody was still just staring at him making me laugh.

"Get out his face." I laughed.

I sat down and waited for somebody to explain because honestly I was curious and wanted to know when the hell did this double life come from.

"Well since nobody talking, can you swab ya mouth with this?" Jala asked pulling a Q tip out her bag.

"Girl." I laughed.

"I'll explain." My mom started off. "Drew and I was having problems so we got drunk and had sex, few months later we broke up and months after that I found out I was pregnant but I was already about to start my relationship with Von so we both agreed we couldn't take that chance plus we weren't ready to be parents especially since I hated him with all my heart."

"So y'all put him up because y'all was too childish to raise a child?" I questioned.

"Even after that, once y'all settled y'all differences and y'all was stable enough, why didn't y'all find him?" Jala asked.

"I don't know." Drew shrugged.

"I just feel like his life was alright, he had stable parents, he had friends, he has a life. Why come in and ruin that?" My mom asked.

"Was your life alright?" I asked.

"More than alright, my parents made everything happen for me, I couldn't be more happier."

"Then why you here?" Laurie asked making both me and Jala look at her scrunching our faces up.

"Because I was always the only child and I discovered I have two little sisters and a brother so I came to meet them."

"So you here for us?" I asked.

"Yeah, no offense to y'all but y'all didn't want me in y'all lives and this is my siblings choice to have me in their life." He spoke looking at Drew and my mother. "So I came to meet my siblings."

"You still need to put this in your mouth." Jala tried to hand him the Q tip again.

"Girl please stop." I pushed her hand down. "We can go take a DNA test tomorrow and if you as true as you say then I always wanted a older sibling."

"You have a older sibling." My mother said.

"I mean Laurie is cool and all but that's not my sister." I spoke. "We spent time together one time and that was it, we barely talk. If anything Jala is more of my sister."

"Jaelyn."

"You can't be mad at me for telling the truth." I looked at her and shrugged then looked at Laurie. "You understand what I'm saying, right? Like it's no hard feelings, you are mad cool and funny but we aren't close."

"Because of you!" She yelled making me and Jala look at each other. "You was always acting like you so much better than me!"

"Why sis yelling?" Jala asked as Kayla hit her so she could shut up.

"Okay, lower your tone." I told her. "Once again, you only made one attempt for us to hang out and yeah I could've made a attempt but I didn't because I never felt like you could be my sister, you run your mouth too much."

"I run my mouth?"

"Duh bitch." I grew aggravated with her acting stupid.

"Watch ya mouth." My father corrected me.

"I'm sorry but she too old to be acting like she don't know what I'm talking about, she followed me on Instagram and all of a sudden I'm starting to get in trouble more."

"Jaelyn you're a terrible liar." My mom said.

"That's a lie because if that's the case I would be in trouble for a whole lot." I looked at her.

"She is a liar." Jala said making me glare at her. "Best, you want me to back you up or not?"

"Anyways, one day I purposely told you I was going to Six flags with Jala but I went to be on the block with Reem and them. I get home and you start cursing me out talking bout you knew where I was at, the only one in this house that could've known was Laurie."

"Even if she did tell me, not saying she did, what's the problem with her caring about you?"

"Siblings supposed to be friends, best friends, if she snitching on me then obviously she not my damn best friend meaning she not my damn sister."

"Enough Jaelyn." My father said making me roll my eyes, people hate hearing the truth.

"Can I get y'all number?" Jashon asked me and Jala. "If we going to get DNA test, Imma need to know where to meet y'all."

"Yeah, lemme see ya phone." I spoke as he handed me it while I put me, him and Jala in a chat. "I'll text you tomorrow to tell you where and what time to come."

"Alright bet, talk to y'all tomorrow." He said as Drew walked him out.

"All he had to do was let me swab him and we woulda known in ten minutes." Jala spoke.

"Girl that don't work."

"So how Kirk swab Carter then?" Her dumbass looked at me like she made sense.

"That wasn't real, what the hell?"

"Y'all just so dumb." My dad said making us laugh.

"Now that that's over, wassgood J Dawg?" Jala hugged him making me laugh.

I left them in the kitchen going to put my phone on the charger expecting a text from Reem but saddened seeing it wasn't anything from him. He always text me the second he leaves me and now it was just nothing, I blew breath then just decided to text him.

I stared at the text for what felt like forever which in reality was one minute, I saw the three dots appear letting me know he was typing so I exited real quick. I walked out my room to use the bathroom then went back to see there wasn't a notification, the three dots wasn't even there no more.

I called him which rung three times before it went to voicemail meaning he declined it making my eyes start to water, what did I do to him? Did I make him upset?

I quickly stopped my tears and got upset, I told myself I'll never have another nigga questioning myself and I meant it. It wasn't the time to be heartbroken again.

It was good what we had but that was all over now.
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