Volume thirteen

"I'm really done." I smiled. "I'm really done with high school."

"I'm so proud of you." Kia smiled hugging me.

"Thank you." I smiled.

I went to go take pictures with multiple people including gang, they was mad annoying though.

"Congratulations." Saymon walked over to me smiling. "No matter what we go through, I'm gon always be proud of you."

"Thank you Saymon." I smiled hugging him.

"I could take you out later?"

"My mom and them are taking me out." I spoke making him nod. "But you can come."

"You gon ride in the car with me?"

"Yeah, let me just make sure this okay."

He nodded as I walked to my sister and mother, I smiled as they hugged me again. "I invited Say to go out with us, is that fine?"

"Yeah, you know Saymon always invited." My mom said.

"I'm going to ride with him."

"Then just meet us there."

"Okay." I nodded.

I walked towards Saymon who was by the guys, they started smiling as I made my way to them but before I could get far Jaelyn ran towards me jumping on me.

"Bitch we outta here!" She yelled.

"I'm so excited." I smiled.

"Fuck being excited, I'm tryna get drunk. Wassup with it?"

"I got this dinner but after that it's all fair game."

"I'm tryna have a sleepover like we usually do, all of us excluding Dylan cause you know." She shrugged as her face saddened.

"Right." I shook my head.

When they called Dylan name stating she couldn't accept her diploma right now, it's like everybody who loved her started tearing up, especially Esme.

"Is Es going to come though?" I asked.

"Yeah, she's going to come."

"What about Jala?"

"You invite her, that's not my friend no more." She shrugged.

"You are so extra." I chuckled.

"I don't care but I'm out, I'll hit you up later."

"Okay babes."

"You ready?" Saymon asked making me nod as we walked to his car.

"New car?" I asked.

"Yup."

"What is it?'

"2018 Dodge Charger Hellcat."

"Sounds expensive."

"Don't start please." He said.

"I'm not, I can't control you and I'm not trying to."

"But ain't that's what you attempted to do when you broke up with me?" He asked glancing at me as he drove. "You felt like you don't have control over the situation so you tried to break up to gain the control like-"

"I attempted to get you to see the bigger picture." I cut him off. "It's kids our age who billionaires right now, who living they best life and you subjected to being a statistic by not doing shit with your life."

"You don't even know what the fuck I do with my money."

"I'm sitting in it." I looked at him blankly.

"This only half of the money I have."

"So you have enough money to buy a new car and other shit but yet you still wanna sale?"

"Sanaa, how about we compromise?"

"What you wanna negotiate?"

"By time you go to college, I will be done with the street shit and I'll go get my EMT shit."

"So I start my first class in September, you saying in three months you'll be done?"

"No questions."

"Well until then we still not together."

"What?" He scrunched up his face. "That's the fucking point of the negotiation."

"No because what if you don't hold up ya end of the deal?"

"So you don't trust me?"

"With this? No."

"So we not together meaning you gon continue fucking with this nigga?"

"I was never fucking with no nigga, Jojo a friend." I shrugged.

"Oh aight." He nodded parking at the restaurant.

~

"It don't matter if you fuck with me, I get money regardless. Like guap, guap get some chicken! Guap, guap get some bread! Bitch you preeeesed, you can flex. Get some money hoe, tell me why you stresssssed?!" Jaelyn yelled.

"Okay, what else?" Spencer asked recording her as we all stood up to rap the next part.

"Pop that pussy like you ain't popped that pussy in a while, pop that pussy like popping pussy going out of style, pop that pussy while you work, pop that pussy up in church, pop that pussy on a pole!" We all yelled laughing.

"I know my neighbors mad as hell." Esme laughed.

"They could come get drunk too." Jala spoke making me laugh.

"Where Kreed at? I miss my baby badass." Esme asked Spencer.

"He's with my little brother and sister, he miss you too he be walking around asking for you."

"Aw, I feel so bad." She shook her head.

"Bitch you should!" Jala loud ass yelled. "We be going through shit and you just be like fuck us."

"I be going through shit too but you right, I most definitely be forgetting I'm not the only one with a shitty life."

"And where's Black?" I asked. "Whenever we have our sleepovers he always come over here."

"We're not together no more." She spoke looking away as we all furrowed our eyebrows except Jaelyn. "He had a secret wife and child."

Jala stood up putting on some pants as we furrowed our eyebrows, we all looked at her before she walked out the door going next door banging on his door.

"Black! Come out here bitch!" Jala yelled banging on his door hard as hell.

"Jala, stop!" Esme spoke trying to get her to stop.

"I just wanna talk!" She yelled kicking his door now since Esme held her hands.

"He's not even here."

"I'll wait until he get here then." She sat down by his door making me laugh.

"And then what? You can't beat his big ass." Spencer laughed.

"Shit well I'll try!"

"Come on girl." I pulled her up as we went back to Esme house.

"How did you find out?" Spencer asked.

"I saw them at Walmart."

"Walmart will always be the death of something." I shook my head.

"You don't have nothing to say about this?" Jala asked Jaelyn. "That mean you knew."

"Wasn't my business to tell." She shrugged. "I'm bout to go live."

"I'm hungry go cook for us Spencer." Jala spoke.

"Cook what?"

"I don't know, shit go make a meal." She spoke making us laugh.

"I'm tired of this bitch." Spencer spoke standing up.

"Oh y'all tryna get my live jumping." Jae spoke as I seen she had 55 viewers already. "Who been talking bout me cause ain't no way my shit just started jumping like this."

"Hey bruddda!" I smiled seeing Face name.

"Why he on my live?" Jae spoke pointing to Reem name. "I don't fuck with his weird ass. Benji suck my dick and Mickey hi fave."

"Damn, gang on this whole live." Jala snatched Jae phone from her.

"Bitch, don't snatch shit out my hand I don't even fuck with you." Jaelyn snatched her phone back pushing Jala.

"Bitch, I don't give a fuck. I ain't lose sleep not one night since then."

"That's good for you." Jaelyn chuckled. "You wanted me to cry? The fuck? You wanted me to be bothered?"

"Shut up." I told both of them rolling my eyes.

"Benji suck my dick!" Jaelyn yelled making me go see what he said laughing.

Benji_sbp: Jala just pluck her skinny ass.

Reem_sbp: Who you said you don't fuck with?

"Nigga you know I don't fuck with you, fuck I don't fuck with none of you niggas but Mickey."

"Damn, what the rest of the niggas do to you?" I asked.

"They dubs, big dubs. Well maybe not Face."

"Hey babyyy!" I dragged out lowkey smirking at Spencer as she put her head up.

"Baby where Dai at? I needa real nigga on my live."

"I'm really tired of you." Esme spoke laughing laying next to her to see her phone. "All my brothers the realist niggas you ever met. Especially that nigga Q."

"Fuck that nigga Q with his fake thugaliscious ass." Jae said making me laugh. "Boy look like R. Kelly when he was in the boondocks."

"Jaelyn!" I yelled falling out, she was so fucking dumb.

Q_sbp: You wanna start?

"Nah, I don't want no sauce. I'm in my bag so all y'all niggas guilty by association but fuck that nigga."

"Okurrr!" I chuckled.

Benji_sbp: We always guilty for some shit.

"Bitch mind your business and finish grieving your brother."

"I know you not talking to Meeka." Esme laughed. "Jaelyn that's below the belt."

"Oh well, I didn't forget all the shit she said to Spencer and Dylan. This bitch could suck the nigga who keep playing me dick."

"He keep playing you sis?" I asked.

"Nigga keep playing me! I must be a muhfuckin yoyo or something."

"And that nigga sorry." Jaelyn looked at me then caught on and we started rolling.

"Now I'm bout to cause trouble." She stuck her tongue out standing up.

"Oh this the part where we finna shake our ass?" Esme asked.

"Shittt, I was waiting." Jaelyn spoke going to Esme tablet which was hooked up to the speaker.

"Oou this my shit!" I yelled standing up.

"Boy, you know you need to give me that dick! He wanna hit from the back cause I'm thick!" We all yelled twerking.

"What's your name?" Esme asked.

"JaeBx3! Big Body Benzz, you heard?" She yelled making me laugh.

"I need some damn sex." I said.

"Bitch, you?! Y'all bitches in here got sex within a few months, it's bout to be dam near a year." Jaelyn said, "Bitch, I'm bout to cry."

"She really get on my nerves." Spencer laughed going to check on the food, that was smelling good as fuck.

"I would be having sex if niggas wasn't acting like a bitch ass nigga." She rolled her eyes. "Real nigga me please."

"Just pop out with a new nigga sis." I chuckled.

"That's coming soon."

Icey_sbp: Shake y'all ass again I'm tryna see something.

"Bye Ice!" I laughed, Ice really be so aggravating. "Jaelyn, bitch you not bout to have me in my feelings."

"Word, switch the song." Esme spoke.

"This my shit." Spencer laughed.

"Love was the former owner but quiet is renting our house. It cease my lips from speaking but forms a sarcastic smile!" Jaelyn yelled singing.

"And her name is Me! And she loves me more than you'll ever know and I finally see that! Loving you and loving me just don't seem to work at all!" We all yelled.

"Bitch, you got me bout to cry." Esme spoke walking out the room.

"I hate niggas." Jaelyn spoke. "I'm bout to fuck with a bitch, they got dick and head."

"And problems too bitch." I spoke.

"I will fuck them up." She looked at me. "A nigga? I could probably beat his ass but that bitch? She break my heart I'm going to fuck her up."

"As you should." Spencer laughed.

"I just wanna break up all your shit, call ya mama phone let her know that she raised a bitch then dial tone. Click!" Esme yelled coming back in the living room as we all stood up.

"And fuck ya lil fake ass friends coming around acting like they my bro, I seen yall lil group text where y'all like to brag about y'all hoes!" We all yelled.

"How you out fucking with bitches that follow me?!" Jaelyn yelled as we continued rapping.

"I hate niggas." Spencer said making me laugh.

"I'm bout to get off live." Jae chuckled ending it.

I turned on the t.v going to A Thin Line Between Love and Hate. Spencer called us over as we started watching the movie and eating with a little talk between.

~

I walked up to Saymon house walking in, I made sure to lock the door then walked into the kitchen where his mother was.

"Hey ma." I smiled hugging her.

"Hey, I miss seeing you around here."

"I told Saymon to give me your number but he said no because when we on bad terms he don't wanna hear you get on him about it."

"Cause he know I'm always on your side." She chuckled. "Congratulations on graduating."

"Thank you." I smiled.

"So what's next?"

"I move into college August 29, I'm going to be a substance abuse and behavioral counselor. I can't wait to do these classes."

"I'm happy you excited for it, college was the best days of my life I hope they great for you too."

"I am, I know college going to be so stressful and I'm going to wanna give up but I'm just excited to know I did everything on my own. I never needed nobody, this is a accomplishment."

"It is and it's something to brag about. I know Yana going through every emotion."

"When I leave she's going to be a mess." I chuckled.

"I always wished Saymon went to college, don't get me wrong I'm always proud of my son but I wanted him to do something as far as a career."

"That's coming soon, he wants to be a EMT."

"He always wanted to be one but I'm ready for him to actually take the steps."

"That's why we broke up." I told her. "I want him to be better than his choices. Selling drugs? Anybody could do that. Going to school and sticking with it? That's something new."

"I want the same but I'll never push him, when he want that life he'll have it."

"Hopefully that's soon."

"Ma, Sanaa lying ass here?" He yelled as I heard the front door close.

"Watch your mouth." Sonyae and I said in unison.

"You only tell me to watch my mouth when it's concerning her." He looked at her blankly.

"Yeah, whatever. Sanaa got my number now watch I be fucking you up."

"Imma delete it." He said making me laugh.

"Hater." I shook my head.

"I'm bout to go to the gym, I'll see y'all later." She spoke walking out the kitchen.

"Can I ask a question?"

"Wassup?" He asked after kissing me on my forehead.

"When we was broken up did you have sex with anybody else?"

"Nah." He shook his head. "All them bitches was for show, I didn't look at not one bitch but I wanted to make you mad so I was being childish taking pictures with them and shit."

"You're childish." I chuckled.

"You believe me?"

"You don't lie to me so yeah, I do." I shrugged as my phone started ringing. "Hi love of my life."

"What you want?" Face asked.

"What you mean?"

"What you want?"

"Can we go to the movies tonight? I wanna see the alligator movie."

"Crawl or climb?"

"I think it's crawl."

"Yeah, we could go. I'm doing something with Reem right now but check what's the latest show time and we could go."

"Okay, I love you brother." I smiled as he chuckled.

"I love more bubs." He said as I hung up.

"Why you ain't ask me?" Saymon asked.

"You and Face got to stop being jealous of each other."

"I am not jealous of him, he just want what's mine."

"I'm his sister!" I yelled laughing.

"You ain't shit to him when you with me!" He yelled making me laugh harder.

"Y'all both special." I shook my head.

"But y'all ain't have no one on one time in a minute."

"Lately we been going on little dates, yesterday he took us to the spa." I smiled.

"That's why you glowing."

"You know why I came over here?"

"You horny." He chuckled.

"Yup, so let's get to it."

~

"Face so annoying." I chuckled seeing he texted Saymon 20 minutes ago.

"He is." He laughed as we laid back down.

After having some very very very needed sex, we took a nap for a few hours. It was now 6 o' clock and I was no longer tired. I was ready to eat and watch the movie.

"You wanna go get something to eat?" Saymon and I said in unison making me laugh.

"You live for corny shit like that." He shook his head standing up.

"I do." I shrugged doing the same thing.

"I really missed you."

"I missed you too baby." I hugged him making me look at me with a dumb ass smirk.

"You knew you was coming back."

"You know meeeee." I chuckled before I looked at my phone noticing it was ringing. "Hello?"

"Where are you?" Esme asked.

"Saymon house." I rolled my eyes chuckling. "And before you ask, we are not back together."

She took a pause as I head Q in the background. "Can you put Saymon on the phone?"

"Yeah, hollup." I spoke going into the bathroom where he was brushing his waves. "SaySay Es want you."

He grabbed my phone putting it to his ear. "Wassup sis?"

I walked out the bathroom to finish getting dress, I grabbed my slides and a pair of his basketball shorts. He came back out getting dress, he threw my phone on the bed then walked into his closet.

"What she wanted?" I asked taking the basketball shorts off since they kept falling and just put on some shorts I left here. "SaySay you didn't hear me?"

"It was nothing, you wanna go to Wendys?"

"I was thinking Popeyes, I want their chicken sandwich."

"Imma order it on Uber eats and just pick it up cause them lines gon take too long."

"Word." I chuckled.

When we got in the car, Saymon whole vibe was off but he wasn't letting it affect with how our day was going. I missed days like this with Saymon.

"I had to feed you because I know you not gon eat for a while." He spoke as he drove as I finished my food.

"What you mean?"

"Face and Reem got shot, I don't know how either of them doing." He spoke as it felt like my whole world stopped spinning. "I know Sanaa, we're on our way there right now."
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