August 16th-

Being away from Danny wasn't easy. Jessica missed him dearly. He missed her too. He called all the time. Jessica felt like he was more involved and cared more now that they were in separate states.

In a way she felt like weights were lifted off her shoulders now that her and Danny had time apart. She had one less person to worry about.

Jessica moved out of the guest room and into the guest house connected to Dorthy and Alberts. Dorthy helped Jessica but Jessica didn't let her do too much. She didn't want to become dependent on her. Dorthy just wanted Jessica to get better as much as everyone else did.

Jessica met with a therapist and scheduled weekly appointments. She also took medicine which was making a small change. The biggest change maker was being home. Jessica felt so much happier in Minnesota. She was able to see her siblings, parents and Sarah more. Nothing could compare to the feeling of being home.

"Jessica, why don't you let your father and I watch the babies for a while. It's your first therapy appointment. What if the babies distract you?" Dorthy says while Jessica packs up their things.

"Are you sure, mom? You've already done so much." Jessica says bouncing Scarlett in her arms.

"I haven't done that much. You won't let me do anything."

"I just hate asking."

"I know Jessica, but I love helping. That's one of the reasons why you are here, so I can help."

Jessica hugs her mother and smiles. "I'll be home soon."

"The babies and I will have a great time. Auntie Ann and Chase are coming... the babies will all have fun together." Dorthy says with a smile picking Wyatt up from his rocker.

Jessica hated leaving the babies. It was just better if she went to her appointments alone.

**

When she got to the office she was so nervous. There was nothing to really be nervous about. Yet her heart still raced. Jessica worried that she'd find out a lot about herself that she would like. She was holding too much in.

Jessica walked back into the office and met with her therapist. Her name was Gina Olsen. Jessica introduced herself and Gina did as well.

"So you have two little ones?" She says

Jessica answered all of her questions. While she did so she stared at gina's hand as it wrote everything down. It was a bit intimidating.

"Yes, twins. Their names are Scarlett and Wyatt. They are almost two months." Jessica says happily. Thinking about the babies always brought a smile to her face.

"How adorable. Babies are the best. And your husband? Tell me about him."

Jessica let out an awkward chuckle. "I'm actually not married. Danny, the twins dad, he's my boyfriend." Her smile slowly fades.

"Will he join us for any sessions?"

"He is in New York. He works at this big law firm.As you know I moved out there while I was pregnant. Somehow I feel better here. I had him go home."

"If you don't mind me asking, what's your relationship status?" Gina looks at Jessica waiting for an answer with her pen in her hand.

"I honestly don't know..."

"And that's okay... why don't you fill me in on some things."

**
Jessica spent an hour with Gina filling her in on everything. It felt good to talk about everything with someone. Gina's goal was to help Jessica through her depression. She noticed that there was more going on than just the postpartum. Jessica came to realize that also.

**

On her way back home she got a call from Danny. At first she didn't want to answer. Since they were away from each other Jessica noticed herself avoiding Danny.

She owed it to him to answer.

"Hello?" She says softly

"Hey, baby. How are you? How are the babies."

"We are okay. What's up?"

"I'm on a lunch break. I just really miss you three. I don't know if I can do this." Danny whines

"Danny, can we please not do this right now. We've already discussed this." Jessica sighs

"Jess. Everything was perfect. How did we end up away from each other? We are a couple and a family."

"Danny-"

"I just wish we could work this out together. Why can't we just get you help here? I have a bad feeling about this."

"Daniel!" Jessica snaps

...

"Nothing was fine. Just spending a week here I'm already starting to get better. I just got done with my first appointment and I feel good about this. I'm doing the right thing. You making me feel guilty isn't going to help!" Jessica says breathlessly

His end was quite for a moment. He let out a sigh then a huff. "You're right, I'm sorry. Whatever it takes for you to be happy."

"Danny, I don't want you to be mad."

"How can I not be mad? I'm not even in the same state as my family. It's killing me! This is all something that can be done in New York. But this is all about you, Jessica. Not me or how I feel."

"You aren't being fair." Jessica says sternly. She clenches her teeth and holds onto her phone tightly

"You aren't!"

"What's the different if we are there or not? You are never fucking home!" Jessica says what she has to say then hangs up the phone.

"Fuck Jessica! What the hell did you just do!"

**

When Jessica got back from her session Ann and Chase were at the house to stop by and see the twins. Jessica tried to put everything with Danny in the back of her mind.

"Oh my babies, mommy missed you!"  Jessica bends down on the floor and kisses the babies. They were laying down on their backs with chase looking at the toys that hung above them.
When the babies saw Jessica their faces lit up.

"How were they?" Jessica says turning Dorthy and Ann who sat on the floor with them.

"Wyatt slept most of the time but I could tell that Scarlett missed her mommy. She was a bit fussy and refused her bottle." Dorthy pouts

Jessica quivers her lip then picks Scarlett up.

"Poor baby, I'm so sorry! I'll go up and feed you and your brother in just a minute." Jessica kisses her forehead then smiles.

"How did your first session go?" Ann says tickling Chase.

"It went okay. It's only the first day and I'm so scared." Jessica says nervously

"How come?" Dorthy says

"What if I do this and as I talk about my feelings I learn things about my self that I've been scare to face. It already happened on the first day, ten minutes in." Jessica's hands shake a bit.

"Maybe it's best. Learning things about yourself can help you." Ann says

"She asked me what my relationship status was."

"Is that a bad thing, sweetheart?" Dorthy asks

"Yes, because I don't know what it is right now or what I want it to be."