Akira Lieve ( lover)

Calm , it's really calm and cozy in here . The white walls and the view from my office window is impressive, i still can't seem to process the fact that i have my very own office, it was like yesterday when i was looking for a place to work. It feels like my new home , working in a publishing farm was my dream however,becoming the best selling author was far from my thinking . I was always obsessed with books. Romanticizing fictional characters to get tethered to each other by the mere emotion call love really gave me butterflies. Bookworms like me are bound to choose their passion as profession so i opted for it . I choose to be a writer and here i am right now . In my very own office waiting for my assistant to set a meeting with my editor.

I am Akira Lieve the author of the young adult book " LIVING NIGHTMARE " . The New York best selling book of the past nine months . For me book is an escape; an escape from reality, to search for a new fortune. So i developed my character's arc in a way so that they can possess the curse to haunt and comfort the readers at the same times. All the world wide readers expect books to be perfect but in my perspective a book can be perfect if you make to do so .

My fate has changed in the past 4 years, from editing my journal, publishing my very own book , gaining recognition . Apart from these my life had taken a different turn . And that turn provided me the strength to survive in the midst of downfall .

Just like Sofia and Ray , my life has a tendency to drown till the core of the ocean. And about Sofia and Ray their life was written by me so it was obvious of me to put my output in their story.

Waiting is a tough work and i , apparently, is waiting for the past 45 minutes for my assistant Lyn to come with a schedule to further proceed my day . It's very keenly bad of people to think that making people wait is a good thing but time is not reluctant and it won't freeze for people like me to get over lousy stuff.

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Lyn came with my schedule as soon as she could, according to her . From what i see i have quite an busy schedule to deal with ; book signing, editors updating, writing extra bonus, i am squished between heavy load for every day . But apart from all these the only one thing i would enjoy is writing extra bonus pages for my book . The thing about bonus is very understated , further processing to continue the journey of non existing characters are very exciting to me . As a reader i like books with strong positive arc and epilogue. Books that doesn't contain epilogue are waste of time , we need to settle to the point that my favorite characters are doing great with life if epilogue is provided. As an author writing epilogue is very exciting, we again get to share some untold part of the characters story that was left close doors. The fine journey of Sofia and Ray takes me back to the time when , for me love was everything ' it is still now everything to me but my specimen thoughts regarding love has changed. For me love is the urge to trust yourself to try ; to be better for yourself first then others. Love is a mere feeling that has the full power to control one's mental and physical health. Love is the way of positive wind . Love is not only a word but a very vague one to describe such emotions. Regarding lovers falling out of love is necessary but not for everyone. I have been loving someone for the last four years and still can't get over the groove of it .

The very unusual need to go and hug him in my low esteem , talk baseless shit with him , complain, fight, kiss , make love and so on gives me sacred feelings. Because i was well aware of the fact of loving someone who's beyond my reach but still decided to do it . I sure would never get over him and i never want that to happen. Ever . But i would like to stay forever in love with him . Despite everything he is still my salvation and i am his prey. And i would like to stay hidden under the beating heart till the end of lifeline . And maybe for some reason i still have faith that he will one day , change , change for better, change for us , only if there is any .

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Despite my busy schedule i decided to take a short coffee break and enjoy my free time , it's not like i really usually get some to spare but whenever their is free hour i tend to go for a coffee or retrieve my brain cells with a short walk near my neighborhood. They say life is a very long journey to get spare time but i would probably disagree, for me time is always slow, i think my worlds revolves around a different time clock, all day i feel tired as if i'm lacking naps and then at night i'm i can't seem to fall asleep. Every day is a new challenge for me . To act refresh and start over , like nothing of the sort happened. But usually these past days i am beyond weak to process everything. My mind need some peace and my health requires my lacking emotions.

Marie used to say " If you scoot over and make some space for life , it could be able to function properly with you by it's side" these words were hard for me to understand at that time , i was a selfless teen , far from mature. Marie always had her own way with words, she knew what to say when you feel low esteem to comfort you and be your pillar of strength through that moment. If anything i enjoy from my and Ragnar's years together was Marie's humor and her ways to comfort me , me and Ragnar we practically grew up with Marie by our side . Ragnar was eleven when his mother died and Marie was his pillar and she completely became mine during my spended days . And i miss her , completely and utterly. If by any chance we again meet each other i would definitely shed some tear and wouldn't dare to lose her again. I miss him too , my first everything , i still need him , it makes me wonder if he even remember me .

Back to my present self .I am currently enjoying my life still in the coffee shop, hoping to spare some more time and hopefully get back and start my work from midnight. I was thinking to start writing from midnight cause that's when i truly able to function. Getting up from my seat i left some tips and the obvious payment to return back to my office building , which stood high opposite of St Mark Street, Amsterdam. I quickly get into the elevator and press for seventh floor. Jumping out of it as soon as it stops i went straight to my office and took the necessary files and bit bye to Lyn for the day . I need to refresh my brain and do some productive work . As soon as i leave the building i check my phone to see if my cab is here and certainly it is , i am a bad driver and maximum of my days went by relying of cabs . I gave my abod's address to the driver to get on the road.

Soon enough he landed me safely to my door, cabs are good and affordable . I unlocked my door with the help of my keys that was in my purse a few minutes ago . And went inside and got welcome by the homey feelings every that every other exhausted person crave . Even though i have no one to share my apartment with it still feels like all i need . My apartment looks like a mini library with tons of books and unboxed tbr manuscripts. Not further wasting time i get in my room and keep my purse in the bed and taking out some comfy loose pant and hoodie i got freshed inside my bathroom.

The need to have another cup of coffee is strong. As i prepare hot water for my coffee , i light my candles. I love when my living room smells like wet reinforest , the grey walls and wooden vintage furnitures match these vive perfectly . The overall look of my entire apartment is vintage and old fashioned, it's not my fault that i prefer vintage life than neons it's just i was born in the wrong era that's all.

Comfy living in your couch with some coffee and intention to add a few new words to my daily journal is what i really needed. I haven't written in so long. So why not add some more paras to give length to my grey life .

If teenage is a step to reality, then adolescence is a taste of what is actually is . If books are escape from reality, then journey is a rundown of your mistakes. And right right i need to look after my mistakes before stepping into the new phrase of time .

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Author's note
Hey fellow readers, welcome back once again to my new update.
Chapter 1 is out .
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New updates are on it's way .

The first few chapters will be sulky indeed but the deeper we will dive in ,it will enclose many untold secrets . Let's stay positive and ready for new updates regarding Akira and Ragnar.

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