A/N:

so I finally watched the Rumble and I am destroyed the look on Brock's face when he got eliminated by those idiots and Roman losing his title when he was so close? All this just feels like deja vu from Wrestlemania for me.. Both of them getting a nasty surprise from the Authority....

I figured I would grace you guys with quite a few updates to deal with my sadness and well it is officially the month of looooove as well as my birthday month ;)

Oh happy birthday to HarryStyles!!!!!

Oh and had this song playing :

Nicki Minaj - Grand Piano ( this song kills me emotionally but love it)

XMAS

SETH POV

We were currently at John's house since we were touring in Tampa and well it was either here or my parents house and we know how that goes.

Especially since the last time I was there I pretty much sold out my sister to that whole stuck up bunch. I mean yes I was angry but I should've waited but when I saw on the security cam that Brock had dropped her off I was even more pissed because he now knew where our parents lived. It sounds silly but with Eric we weren't careful and all that shit happened.

As we sat around on the couches drinking egg nog after dinner my eyes weren't focused on my beautiful girlfriend beside me who was laughing along with Paige but on my sister who was staring out of the window.

John and Kane were having their own conversation and she just stood there staring and I knew that stare. It's the same stare she had the first time we flew into New York and she moved into her apartment.

"So do you like it?" I asked and she didn't respond, she simply walked out to the balcony.

I followed her and pulled her into my arms and she broke down as I knew she would.

She had come so use to the life of someone that wasn't her. Someone who was afraid of making a wrong move or she would piss off the man she loved and get hurt not just physically but emotionally.

She wasn't the sister I had known for the past 22 years and I was determined to change that.

"Seth... Seth?" I heard Zara and looked at her.

"Just go over there she needs you, you know that"

I sighed, I wish she did need me but I knew it wasn't me she needed.

Even though I despised Brock, he had made her feel again and slowly return to my sister again. I mean since she started out in WWE she was slowly returning but I realized when I connected the dots of the duration they were together and he had made her become more feisty. And get in my face more which I loved as I had felt that I was ordering her around before as she would do everything I told her as Eric had brainwashed her into obeying everything and it killed me but I couldn't very well call her out about it.

Whether I would admit it or not he did help her in some way but seeing her there , all that progress was destroyed when he left her.

"Kenz....." I whispered and she turned to face me.

"You've been quiet ever since Tuesday.."

"I've never liked Christmas you know.." she looked out again.

"Maybe its cause I never got what I wanted for xmas"

"A puppy.." I smiled slightly and she nodded.

"And most of our day would be spent entertaining guests and so much more boring stuck up shit and I just hated it"

"I know but I didn't want you to be stuck in a hotel either.." she sighed and I wrapped my arms around her.

"I know you are secretly happy about this.."

"Kenz I might not approve of him but seeing it have this affect on you would never make me happy."

"I miss him, I don't know I pictured some lazy xmas with him in my apartment or even in a hotel room and I would've loved it because...."

I saw her tears falling as she looked up at me and I hated it. I didn't know what to do to fix it. I couldn't drag her off somewhere and make everything better hell I did that the last time and yet here we were basically having the same result.

I pulled her face into my chest and glanced over at the others and they all had sympathetic looks on their faces. But only two of them knew the full life story and would understand everything maybe even more than me as I am sure she probably shared more of their relationship with Kane and Paige than me and I don't blame her. I didn't like Brock and I showed it clearly.

I took her hand and led her out of the room and into one of the guest rooms and she went into the bathroom and splashed water on her face as I handed her a towel and she smiled slightly.

She walked out and sat on the bed and I joined her.

"I don't know what to do Seth. I know you think that his the same as Eric but his not.."

"You're still defending him.." I had dealt with this before, the first time I had found out what Eric was doing to her and she came up with a million excuses.

"Seth please just go .. I love you but just go if you're going to keep bashing on him" I sighed as I was being a jerk yet again.

"I'm sorry sis, I'm here... you told him about Eric?" she turned to look at me.

"I had no choice... after the Thanksgiving screw up, we went to the diner for takeaways and I waited outside for him. Eric came out of nowhere and attacked me. He knew I would be in town because of our annual lunch and he knew that was my favourite diner. He told Brock about the engagement and I honestly thought Brock would just leave me with this man who was telling him lies but he didn't he hit Eric and took care of me.."

I couldn't believe that idiot found her and I had treated her like crap that day and then she had to deal with him.

"His not the man you think he is, or anyone thinks he is. I shouldn't have to explain why I feel about him the way I do but I just want you to realize that.."

"Kenz I get that but you are like this now because he left you and I don't care how this sounds but I don't give a shit about how good he was cause the end result is the fucking same as when you were with Eric"

"I'm not in hospital, I'm not injured..." she looked ahead.

"No you might not be physically hurt but I know you , you are broken yet again and yes he didn't hurt you physically but he has ruined you emotionally.."

"He hasn't ..." she shook her head.

"Kenz..."

"Just because I miss him and want to be with him and I'm hurting doesn't mean he ruined me Seth! I hate that I have this love for him that I cant explain and I still don't understand why his with her and not me and I feel pathetic for crying over him when his fine, but I will get through it because he didn't ruin me.. I just need time and I cant be around someone whose constantly making me feel worse for loving him!" she left the room and I ran after her but she went straight for the front door and into the driveway.

"I'll drive her to a hotel and stay with her" Paige rubbed my back and then ran out after her.

I sat on the couch next to Zara and ran my hands through my hair, I knew how she felt but yet I couldn't hide my hatred for what he did to her long enough for her to open up.

I wasn't even sure if it was his fault I hated him so much. Its just a build up of all the guys who hurt her and he was the current one and yes that hate built up as well and all of it was aimed at him.

"Maybe I should go over there and.." I heard John but Kane cut him off.

"No... I'm sorry man but she needs time I know you like her but like I told you that night at the bar. She doesn't need another hero, if that's what you think is going to happen here then just fuck off because you are not going to get her. So I'm telling you again if you really care about her you'll erase your feelings for her and be there for her as a friend nothing more" John nodded and I smiled slightly at Kane as I agreed with everything he said.

Did you miss Brock in this chapter? So did I..
Don't worry you'll get your beast dose in the next chapter :)

Playlist :

Avril Lavigne - I miss you

Avril Lavigne - Wish you were here

V Bozeman - What is love