Misha had tried to distract himself from making a decision about Jensen's plans. He had tried to watch tv at first, but there wasn't anything good on. Then he had actually started cleaning his place a little bit, but that got boring pretty quickly. Next he decided that it'd be a good idea to go take a jog. That usually cleared his mind.

It did clear his mind, but only temporarily. On his twenty minute run he had been focused on his pace, not Jensen. As soon as he walked back into his apartment, he was faced with reality.

He only had a little over half an hour until Jensen would come back.

Fifteen minutes later, Misha found himself getting dressed. He still wasn't sold on this whole thing, but was curious to see what Jensen had planned.

He didn't want it to look like he was dressing up to impress Jensen. He pulled on some jeans and slipped on a hoodie. He didn't even bother to fix his hair, which was sticking out in random directions.

At promptly 7:30, there was a sharp knock on the door. Misha took a deep breath to steel his nerves, but it didn't really work. He opened up the door a little to reveal Jensen standing there. He held out a bouquet of purple Hyacinths, offering them to the shorter man.

Misha looked at them for a moment, thinking about whether he should take them or not. With a small shrug, he grabbed them from Jensen's outstretched arm. "One sec." He turned back around and headed into his apartment. He grabbed a base out and quickly filled it with water, placing the flowers inside. Once he was done placing the Hyacinths in the water, he headed back over to the door.

"Ready to go?" Jensen asked.

He took a deep breath, giving him a slow nod. "I suppose." He stepped out of his apartment, locking the door behind him.

***

Misha looked around. They were on set, which was probably the last place he expected Jensen to take him. He would've thought they'd go to some fancy restaurant or something, but no.

"Not too far from here." Jensen murmured, starting to walk, leading the way towards their destination. It was somewhere in the trees next to set.

Misha didn't even bother asking where they were going. It was unlikely his question would be answered. Plus, he was trying to make it seem like he wasn't too eager or too nervous about the whole thing.

They walked deeper into the woods. Jensen pulled out a flashlight, clicking it on. It wasn't too dark out yet, but he had turned it on as more of a precaution so they could see better where they were walking.

And suddenly, it clicked. He knew where they were going. After all, he had been the one to take them out there first, for their Valentine's Day date. "Why are we going out to the lake? Are you trying to guilt trip me into dating you again?"

"No, I'm not. I couldn't think of a decent place to have this, so I decided to have it here." Jensen answered, glancing over his shoulder at Misha for a minute.

Misha kept staring straight ahead, not meeting his ex's gaze. "Have what here?"

"You'll just have to see."

They continued walking for a few more minutes before they emerged from the line of trees, near the shore of the lake. Set up a little ways away from the shore was a blanket with a picnic basket on it. There were candles scattered around it, and a guitar was sitting nearby.

Jensen looked over at Misha to gauge his reaction. If he was impressed, he wasn't showing it. His face looked completely neutral, and somewhat bored, if anything.

The taller man frowned slightly when he saw that Misha didn't show any sign of emotion. He gave a small shrug, walking over to the blanket and sitting down. "Hungry?" He asked, opening up the wicker basket.

"No." Misha sat down as far away from Jensen as he could, which was just the edge of the blanket. He actually was pretty hungry since he hadn't eaten dinner, but he didn't want whatever Jensen was offering.

"Oh." Jensen sounded disappointed. "I know you really like kale, so I made garlic parmesan kale pasta." He pulled out some tupperware that had the pasta in it.

Misha shrugged at it. "Just give it to Jared tomorrow. He'll probably eat that thing in one bite."

Jensen couldn't help but let out a laugh. "Yeah, he probably would." They fell into an awkward silence for a few moments, Misha staring at his hands like they were the most interesting thing in the world. Jensen cleared his throat. "Well, uh, if you're not hungry, we might as well just cut to the chase."

At least they were getting right to it. Misha didn't want to be out here longer than necessary.

"I know I've apologized to you countless times already, and every time, you've rejected my apology. And honestly, you have every right to. I was an idiot, and I still am for screwing up our relationship. This is the one relationship I've ever truly felt serious about. And within one night, I managed to fuck everything up." He paused, unsure of what else to say. He let out a frustrated sigh with himself. Why was he not very good at words suddenly?

"Erm, my mind is kind of going blank with what else to say. I'll cut ahead to me playing guitar now." He grabbed the familiar wooden instrument, giving it a few strums. "I didn't write this, but I feel like it kind of pertains to me and our situation. So just..... listen to the lyrics." Jensen adjusted his posture before he started actually playing.

(A/N: PSST! you should play the song now. also, all the lyrics are below it so feel free to skip through all the italicized crap if you don't want to read the song's lyrics)

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"The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before?

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath, because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind or I won't live to see another day, I swear it's true

Because a guy like you is impossible to find, you're impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you I'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start, oh

But hold your breath, because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind or I won't live to see another day, I swear it's true

Because a guy like you is impossible to find

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep

And hold onto your words, 'cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind or I won't live to see another day, I swear it's true

Because a guy like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again

Don't make me change my mind or I won't live to see another day, I swear it's true

Because a guy like you is impossible to find, you're impossible to find."

Jensen glanced up from the guitar at his hopefully soon-to-be-boyfriend-again. "What do you think?"

Misha was silent for a second. "Teach me how to play guitar." He murmured, glancing up at the other man.

~~~~~

fun fact: apparently purple hyacinths mean someone is sorry and they want forgiveness

yeah so another fun fact: this chapter actually took me about two and a half months to write bc i honestly had no clue how they should get back together but i eventually figured it out. so i had the idea, but i also just wasn't in the mood to write. i didn't want to phrase things wrong. i wanted to get it right. i'm not entirely happy with the chapter but i think it's somewhat decent, considering how long it took me to write lol