Volume Five

"That's everything?" I asked Janey as I got in the car. 

"Do you see anything else?"

"You always gotta say some smart shit." I looked at her then pulled off. 

"Ain't none of that once we get to the cabin." Donovan laughed.

"Where are you going? We have to pick up Sanaa." 

"She agreed to this?" I asked confused and shocked.

"Why would I come without my best friend?" 

"Well we five minutes away, tell her to be ready." I told her.

"So Janey, this like ya shit?" Donovan asked.

"Yeah, it's my parents cabin. We come out during the summer but I thought it'll be fun for us to come in the winter, we can ski and all that." She smiled.

"Aye Terror, pass me the adapter my shit dying." 

"Why do they call you Terror? You don't scare me."

"Why would I want you to be scared of me?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"I'm just saying." She rolled her eyes as Sanaa walked out her house with her bags.

I watched her every move as she put her bags in the trunk then got in the car sitting behind Janey, she spoke to everybody except for me but I expected that. I shook my head pulling off towards the highway. 

"How long will it take to get there?" Don asked.

"Two hours." I spoke. 

"When it get to like a hour, I'll take over driving." He suggested making me nod.

"Bet." I smiled. I could sit next to Sanaa and possibly get her talking.

~

"Kayla should be here by now." Janey rolled her eyes as we got out the car. 

"Imma just unload the car while we wait." Donovan said making me agree.

"What happened to your face?" Sanaa asked me.

"Your animal of a brother attacked him." Janey said before I could say anything. 

"Don't talk about my brother." Sanaa looked at her then me. "Why?" 

"Over some petty shit." I lied. 

"Some money! Your brother needs help." Janey glared at her. 

"You're annoying me." Sanaa rolled her eyes. 

"So what?" Janey rolled her eyes back. "And what happened to your sew in? Why would you take it out? You were actually pretty." 

"I'm pretty either way." 

"I know, I was just playing." She smiled. "I just like your hair better when it's done." 

"Well, my hair needs to breathe. Is that okay with you?" 

"So Imma just-"

"Yeah." I cut Donovan off as we both rushed in the cabin with the bags. 

"How are they best friends?" He asked once we got in the cabin. 

"Shit, I don't know." I shrugged dropping the bags in the living room. 

After I got all the bags, I tried to start the fire at the fireplace but it wasn't no wood so I sat down blowing on my hands. I looked to my right to see Janey on the phone with her cousin so I looked to my left towards the kitchen seeing Donovan and Sanaa playing. I stood up going to interrupt them. 

"Don, you been skiing before?" I asked getting their attention. 

"Nah, I ain't with that shit."

"You a bitch." I laughed. "Shit aight, just gotta keep ya balance."

"You ever been surfing before?" Sanaa asked him. 

"Yeah." 

"It's like that but you just going down a hill."

"You gon be there to make sure I'm aight?" He smirked. 

"It's gon be a instructor with us." I added making her glance at me. 

"I'll help you with everything too." Sanaa smiled. "You just have to trust me."

"I think that'll be easy." He touched her making me mad.

"Oh damn, my bad." I said knocking over somebody cup making the juice spill on Sanaa.

"Thanks Saymon." She said blankly grabbing her bag going up the stairs.

"You need help?" Donovan called up as we heard a door slam. 

"Imma get some wood for the fire." I said walking out the back door grabbing some already cut up wood putting it by the fireplace. 

"Don, can you come with me to help guide my cousin and her boyfriend since Saymon busy?" Janey asked as I acted like I was carving wood. "They kind of stuck at the gas station."

"Let me go tell Sanaa then we out." He smiled running up the stairs as I walked back out the back.

As soon as they was out the door, I rushed upstairs trying to find out what room Sanaa picked. When I finally opened the door to her room, she jumped but then rolled her eyes seeing it was just me. I saw she changed into some shorts making me unintentionally get hard, I sat down making her look at me blankly still talking.

"No, Face I don't need no more money." She stated counting through it. "I'm fine, stop calling me."

I continued staring at her while she didn't pay me any attention, I don't even know what I was going to say to her but I needed to say something. When she finally got off the phone, she didn't even look my way.

"That's how it's gon be?" I asked as she ignored me. "Sanaa, just talk to me."

"What do we have to talk about?" She asked. 

"Us."

"There's no us." She chuckled. "I ended that when I noticed you were living the best of both worlds."

"I'm not, I never was. I was only happy when I was with you."

"You mean when you was in me." She corrected.

"This was never about sex and you know that." I glared at her. "I don't give a fuck if we never had sex again, I just want you." 

"Sound real funny considering you pushed me aside for her." She finally looked at me. "I told you I loved you and you said it back, you said I was all you wanted."

"I'm still saying you all I want."

"That's the thing, you're not a man of your word." She said with her eyes getting watery. "I'm all you want but you're still with her."

"That's because of you!" I stood up. "I'm not trying to be the reason you lose a friend, our situation messy and I'm not trying to hurt anyone."

"You're hurting me." She said lowly letting her tears dropped. 

I stared at her not sure what to do, I couldn't say anything. Nothing I could say would fix any of this, I had to show her I wanted her even if that meaning get rid of Janey. I sighed stepping to her as she held her hand out not allowing me to come any closer. 

"Face hit you because of me?" She asked.

"Yeah, he caught me at work and I let him fuck me up." I told her honestly. "I'm sorry I'm hurting you."

"I wish that meant something to me."

"I wish it did too because I mean it. I miss you."

"It doesn't matter." She shrugged turning around so she can put some clothes up. 

I grabbed her arm turning her around crashing her lips to mine, I grabbed her face as she grabbed my waist allowing me to kiss her. I wanted to smile but I didn't so it wouldn't ruin the moment. I laid her down on the bed pulling down her shorts as she pulled my jeans down, I rammed into her making her moan out loud in my mouth.

I stroked real slow so she can feel everything I have to offer, she started pulling at my shirt scratching my neck. I held up one of her legs making her moan out loudly, I heard a door slam but I didn't even care about getting caught, I guess neither did she. I went faster as she covered her mouth trying to contain her moans but she let them slip once I put both of them over her head.

"Say-Saymon, oh my God. Oh my God." She repeated as I felt her shaking as she started gripping me.

"I love you Sanaa." I told her feeling myself about to nut. 

"I love you too." She moaned as I nutted in her. 

She sighed laying there as I put her legs down, she laid there for around two minutes then stood up walking to the bathroom as I walked out her room. I went in the room Janey and I was going to share turning on the water, I went downstairs to grab my bag seeing Janey, Don, her cousin Kayla and her boyfriend, Ron. 

"Wassup brah?" I dabbed Ron up then hugged Kayla. 

"Thanks for starting the fire, it's cold as hell." Kayla stated.

"Y'all welcome, I'm bout to take a quick shower then we could find some shit to eat." 

"We bought Popeyes for everybody." Kayla smiled making me nod. 

"Bet." I chuckled grabbing my bags to take them up stairs.

I heard the shower running letting me know she was taking a shower too, I walked passed going to the bathroom in my room. I instantly started stripping getting in the shower, I heard moving around letting me know Janey was probably unpacking. Ten minutes in there I walked out wrapping my towel around my waist. 

"I got that Pepsi you like." Janey said. 

"I don't drink soda." I furrowed my eyebrows.

"You do drink soda."

"I haven't drunk soda since I was 14 girl." I looked at her blankly. 

"Saymon, when we went to that restaurant on Broad st. you ordered a cherry Pepsi." 

"I ordered a cherry lemonade."

"Alright fine whatever." She rolled her eyes.

"When we leave here, we gotta have a talk." 

"About what?" 

"Something that could wait when we not in the woods."

"Okay, I guess." She shrugged. "Come down stairs when you're done. We're playing games."

"Aight."

I watched her walk out then shook my head, I don't even understand why I'm still in this relationship. It's been a year and I should've been in love with her but I wasn't, I barely liked her. 

"Finally nigga, come on so we could start these games." Don yelled making me laugh as I started making my plate.

"Sit at the table please, no food in the living room." Janey said before I could walk over there.

"You eating the bag of chips spilling shit and you talking bout no food in the living room." 

"I am not spilling anything, I don't want no mess."

"I look like a child like Imma just be spilling shit?" 

"You have to make everything a argument." She rolled her eyes. "Can you just sit at the table?" 

"Man whatever." I sat at the table with Sanaa as she was all into her phone. 

"Stop looking at me." She mumbled.

"I like what I see." I smirked. "I like how you tried to cover the hickey too."

"Stop Saymon." She glared at me making me chuckle.

"I told her we gon have to talk when we get back home, Imma end it Sanaa. I wanna be with you." I told her. 

"You're so loud." She hit me. "We can talk about this later."

"Unblock my number." I told her. 

"Y'all ready?" Kayla asked as I ate my last piece of chicken. 

"Yeah." Sanaa smiled standing up to sit next to Don. 

"Guess so." I shrugged. 

~

"Saymon get out my room, somebody probably saw you come in here." She whispered as I locked her door. 

"It's four in the morning, ain't nobody woke." 

"Yeah, I was part of that. Why would you wake me up?" She glared at me. 

"You said we could talk."

"I meant when we leave here."

"Well, I meant now."

"What do we have to talk about?" She sat up while I sat on her bed.

"I want to be with you Nana."

"Who even says I want to be with you anymore? You say you love me but you had a whole month to tell her y'all shouldn't be together. Now when I don't want anything to do with you and actually trying to talk to new people, you all of a sudden wanna be with me?" 

"You know you don't like that boy." I waved her off laughing. 

"I actually do like Donovan, he knows what he wants." 

"I want you."

"You still talking, I'm not seeing nothing to prove that."

"I just told you, I'm breaking up with her. What else do I have to do?" 

"You ever heard how you get him is how you lose him? What if we get together and you all of a sudden want another bitch? You gon cheat on me?"

"I was never for her and you know that. You the one who stopped me from breaking up with her all those times, you told me you wasn't ready to ruin y'all friendship so don't put all this blame shit on me. You not the victim and neither am I, we both wrong and at this point it don't matter because I know I want to be in a relationship with you." 

"Saymon." She sighed. 

"It's always been you." I looked in her eyes to make sure she know I meant it. 

"It's always been you." She repeated looking in my eyes too letting me know we had a agreement. 

I grabbed her neck bringing her towards me so I can kiss her, she took the cover off of her laying me back as she climbed on top of me. I gripped her waist as she took off her shirt, I laid back letting her do everything. 

~

"Why do you have scratches on you?" Janey asked as I walked around shirtless making everybody look at me. 

"Don't know."

"Where they come from?" 

"I didn't even know I had them so I don't know." 

"Why would you have scratches on your neck?" She asked.

"I just said I don't know!" I said getting annoyed.

"Yeah okay." She scoffed walking to the table to eat. 

"You look so pretty." Don told Sanaa as she smiled thanking him. 

"Y'all so cute." Janey smiled. "I want to be a godmother."

"I'm not having any kids no time soon." Sanaa chuckled. "Birth control gon make sure of that."

"I heard not all birth control effective." I said eating my food.

"Well mine is, you see I have no kids."

"Because you haven't been having sex girl." Janey chuckled. "Maybe Don could finally knock them cobwebs from down there, you probably all dried up."

"Talking bout she dried up." Kayla laughed.

"But how do you know what I do when you not around?" Sanaa asked raising a eyebrow.

"When I'm not around, you're miserable without me. That's how I know." She chuckled. "I already told you, I'm basically your life."

"But you aren't." Sanaa chuckled.

"Someone phone ringing." Kayla held up my phone. 

"Why is Face calling you after y'all fight? You shouldn't even be talking to him." Janey said. 

"He my brother through anything." I mumbled grabbing my phone. "Wassup?" 

"I know you on this vacation shit but ya mother called me saying somebody broke in, Kee and all of us in here. Niggas emptied ya shit bro."

"What?" I asked. "Fuck you mean?" 

"Ya safe shot up, all y'all t.vs gone, your shoes, clothes, hella shit missing."

"The code is 031184, see if my shit missing." I stated running up the stairs to get dress.

"Hold on." He said as I heard him tell Kee the code. 

"It's money, chains, and a gun in here." Kee stated.

"Aight, they ain't get into my safe then. Where my mother?" 

"She right here, she scared out her mind."

"I'm bout to leave now." I grabbed my bags going back downstairs. "Face, stay with her til I come please bro."

"You don't even gotta ask." He hung up. 

"Are you leaving?" Janey asked.

"Yeah, somebody robbed me. I gotta go."

"But what can you do? The police can-"

"Janey I have to fucking leave, I'm not bout to stay here so I can go skiing when my mother had a gun put to her fucking head!" I yelled at her.

"I'm not the one who did it so why are you yelling at me? I just want to spend time with you-"

"Fuck waiting for that talk, we over. Done with." I told her making her face drop. "You selfish as hell, I'm over this fucking relationship." 

"Come on bro, just come on." Ron said as him and Don grabbed my bags.

I walked out the door starting up the car before I could pull off Sanaa knocked on the window, I rolled down the window waiting for her to say something. 

"Can you open the door?" She asked making me open it. "I'm sorry this happened to you but please be safe and call me when you get where you have to."

"I gotta go." I told her.

"Just be safe." She rushed into my arms hugging me. "Please." 

"I got you." I said closing the door and pulling off quickly.

Shit was bout to get real.
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