Volume Seven

"Who ringing the doorbell like that?" My mom asked making me lift my head up. 

"Why are you asking me like I didn't just wake up." I frowned. 

"Sanaa, I'll knock ya braces down ya throat. Go open the door." She glared at me walking out the room. 

"She dressed, been woke, bet you her fat ass was in the kitchen but she come all the way back here to tell me to open the door." I mumbled rolling my eyes. 

I got out of bed brushing my teeth, I knew it was just Saymon ringing the doorbell like he was stupid. Once I felt like I brushed my teeth enough, I walked to the door not even asking who. I walked in the kitchen not even sure what I wanted since I just brushed my teeth. 

"You just be opening doors like you can't get killed." Face said making me furrow my eyebrows. 

"First of all, why are you even ringing the doorbell? You have keys." 

"Terror rung the doorbell, I forgot."

"That was you ringing my damn doorbell like you slow?" My mom asked coming in the kitchen. 

"That was Terror."

"Who the fuck is that?" 

"Saymon." I corrected. 

"Why y'all call him Terror?" 

"He be terrorizing shit." Face chuckled.

"Hey Pan." Saymon smiled about to hug her but she stopped him. 

"Don't be ringing my doorbell like that." 

"I ain't know you was back from vacation." He chuckled.

"Ma, I think I should be the first to tell you Bubs and Terror together." Face said making me hit him then look at her. 

"You got rid of that little girl?" My mom asked.

"Yeah." He answered.

"Then I don't have a problem with this." She spoke making me smile. "Yet." 

"Same shit I said, I think Imma still have to beat Terror up though." 

"I gotta go to work, I can't deal with y'all." She rolled her eyes grabbing her keys. "Sanaa if you leave, tell me where you going."

"I'm not going no where." 

"I see you wearing my shit." Saymon lifted up the heartbeat necklace making me back up. 

"It's mine now." 

"Bubs, make me a cup of noodles please." Face asked making me nod. 

"Lazy as fuck." Saymon said. 

"Fuck up light dark bitch." He said making me laugh.

"That's funny?" 

"She could laugh bitch." 

"Okay kids, settle down." I rolled my eyes putting his noodles in the microwave. 

"You know you not supposed to microwave cup of noodles?" Saymon asked.

"Well, I don't feel like boiling water and doing the most so this gon have to do." 

"They not for you anyway, mind yo business cuhz." Face walked back in the kitchen. "Bubs, I gotta go. You coming?" 

"You need me?" Saymon asked. 

"I'll just go get Ice with ya bitch ass." He said as I seasoned the noodles then handed them to him. 

"Bring back ma fork, you know she don't play with her dishes." I told him. 

"Don't think I'm picking you up either, better call a Lyft." Face smacked him in his forehead then ran out the door. 

"You're back to selling drugs?" I asked.

"Just for a month or so." He said walking out the kitchen as I followed him. "Niggas cleaned me out, I got money saved but it ain't enough."

"You have three jobs though and you manager at two."

"I got two now and I'm still manager at both but they still not enough to cover shit that was stolen." He shook his head laying on my bed. 

"See no this not what you doing, you always wake me up just so you can go to sleep. No wake up." I frowned sitting on the bed.

"What's that song? Kick off ya shoes and relax ya feet, sumn sumn beat. Just kick it." He sung making me laugh.

"Get up." I threw a pillow at him. 

"Nana, I'm really tired."

"You always tired." I rolled my eyes grabbing my remote so I can go to Netflix. 

"What we watching?" 

"You sleepy, right? Go to sleep."

"Ooh, you mad." He chuckled.

"Okay."

"Stop Sanaa." He grabbed my face kissing me all over until I couldn't help but to smile. 

"Get off me now." I said as my phone started ringing, before I could answer he grabbed my phone. 

"Why he calling?" He asked declining Donovan call.

"I don't know."

"I thought you said you told him you was in a relationship." 

"I did." I lied.

"So do it again." He unlocked my phone just as a text came through. "You been on my mind heavy since our kiss, let me come get you." Word Sanaa?" 

"He kissed me before I left, I didn't think it would be important telling you since we weren't together then." 

"You knew we was together then." He chuckled. "It's whatever."

"I'll tell him now." I snatched my phone out his hand texting him. "You see I did it, he knows."

"You good Sanaa."

"My name Nana." I frowned. 

"Aight." He turned the other way making me roll my eyes, so dramatic. 

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I turned off the stove mixing the meat with the noodles, I pressed the volume up on my phone so it could be louder. I started singing out loud still mixing it, I made my plate then cleaned up my mess still singing loudly. 

"One I wished I never played, Oh what a mess we made. And now the final frame, love is a losing game. Played out by the band, love is a losing gamee!"

"You sound bad." I heard making me jump. 

"Why would you scare me like that?" I hit him making him chuckle. 

"If you wanted me to wake up all you had to do was wake me up, ain't have to blast music this damn loud." 

"To be honest, I forgot you was back there." I chuckled. "You still mad?" 

"Nah." He turned down my music then made his plate sitting across from me. "You cooked for me? I need to be mad more often." 

"Ha ha no but I was craving Spaghetti so I made it." I said as he squinted his eyes. "No I am not pregnant, don't look at me like that."

"Just making sure cause I do nut in you sometimes."

"Sometimes? You nut in me all the time and you need to stop, we don't need a child right now." 

"I'll take that ass whooping from Face and em if I get you pregnant." He shrugged laughing. 

"All three of us gon die if you get me pregnant." 

"Word." He laughed. "We ain't gon talk about that though since you not."

"I really like this." I touched my necklace.

"I know that's why I got it, I know you like cheesy shit like that."

"So sad how you really know me." I shook my head as he walked to the refrigerator. 

"How y'all have all this soda and no juice?" He asked handing me a orange soda while getting a water. 

"My mother don't like juice." I chuckled. "Why don't you drink soda?" 

"It's bad for your teeth." He said. "You know the acid that forms in your mouth as you drink some? That's the bacteria combining and it attacks your teeth, it's weakening your tooth enamel." 

"Sound like you did a lot of research." I chuckled. "I don't even know what tooth enamel is." 

"It's what make your teeth hard, once you have one sip of soda it's attacking your mouth for 20 minutes. Meaning each sip you take is adding on 20 more minutes while restarting."

"Okay, stop talking. I'll drink water." I rolled my eyes making him smile. "Should've just been a dentist."

"Should of." He chuckled. "I haven't drunk soda since I was 14 and I'm bout to be 21, 7 whole years." 

"Can you change this song?" I asked as he grabbed my phone pressing skip. 

"When you take this picture?" He asked.

"I have so many pictures of you on my eyes only." I chuckled grabbing my phone so I can enter my password for it. 

"This a lit ass picture of us." He showed me making me smile and nod. "Why everything with me in ya eyes only?" 

"Because we wasn't able to put up pictures and videos." 

"Almost forgot." He chuckled. "Why you playing all this sad music?" 

"Because around a month ago I was heartbroken and I wanted to play sad music to make me sadder."

"You retarded."

"I've been told." 

"What's that show you was telling me bout? Let's watch it." 

"One Tree Hill?" I asked. "They took it off Netflix."

"It's on Hulu?" He asked.

"I can see but I don't have a Hulu account, my mother barely wanted to pay for Netflix this month." 

"I'll subscribe." 

"Oh you got it like that daddy?" I asked searching up shows. "They have it." 

"Here my card, get the plan without commercials. I gotta call Face to make sure he aight, set allat up." He said walking in the back. 

I grabbed his card making a new account, I went to the t.v in the living room logging into the account. Once logged in I went to the first episode then paused it, I went in my room seeing Saymon was on the phone. I grabbed my shoes and my jacket as he watched my every move.

"Hold on." He spoke as I finished getting dress. "Where you going?" 

"To the store, do you want anything." 

"I want some candy, sumn sweet." He said pulling out his wallet. "And some lemonade or something."

"I got it." I pushed his hand down. 

I walked to the store which was only down the block, I smiled at the boys in front of the store then went in getting a bunch of candy, different kinds of juice, big bags of chips, cookies and ice cream. I gave him the whole twenty, not even wanting the change knowing all this stuff came up to at least $18.

Saymon annoying ass told Marc one of the boys who was standing outside to walk me home, I let him take the heavy bags. As we was walking Janey was walking towards the door, I furrowed my eyebrows wanting to know why she was here.

"Janey?" I called out just as she was about to ring the doorbell. 

"Oh, I was just about to ring the bell." She smiled. "Can we talk?" 

"About what?" I asked.

"Inside? It's kind of cold."

"Sure." I said as Marc put the bags on the couch. "Thanks Marc."

"You got it sis." He hugged me then walked back out. 

"I'll be right back, you could just sit down." I told her, I went back in my room seeing Saymon still on the phone as I closed my door. "You didn't have to tell Marc to walk home with me."

"Hold on." He said putting the phone to his chest. "It's dark out there anything could of happened."

"How did you even know he was going to be out there?" I furrowed my eyebrows taking off my stuff. 

"Niggas always in they hood." He chuckled. "I'm bout to hang up though so-"

"Janey's in the living room."

"Why? The fuck? She know I'm here?" 

"No and I'll like to keep it that way, so stay back here and make your calls until I get her to leave."

"Man, aight whatever." He said putting the phone back to his ear. "So what's the amount?" 

I closed my door seeing she was texting sitting on the couch, I grabbed the bags with the juices and ice cream putting them in the refrigerator. I placed the cookies, chips and candy on the living room table then sat down. 

"So wassup?" I asked. 

"I just wanted to apologize for what I said in the cabin, I be so much into myself that I don't notice the hurtful things I say to you." 

"You good." I spoke to her. 

"Donovan told me that I say some out of pocket shit to you and I didn't notice until he said it because you don't say anything so I don't know I be hurting your feelings. You're my best friend and I never want to see you hurt." 

"Like I said you good, I'm not mad over anything you say. I'm not that much of a good person anyway." 

"Are you having company?" 

"Yeah, Face and I are having a movie night." I lied.

"Okay, well I'll leave because I have a date with Don." She smiled.

"Don as in Donovan?" I furrowed my eyebrows. 

"I know I put you on but when you left, we did everything together. One night I just broke down and he was there to comfort me so we had sex, ever since that day we've been on dates, having sex and just everything." She smiled. "Are you mad?"

"No." I said honestly. "If you like him then I'm happy for you." 

"He was scared to tell you but I said I'll tell you since you are my best friend." She smiled as her phone dinged. "He's at my house waiting so I'll call you later and we can catch up."

"Okay." I smiled watching her walk out. 

I was so confused and shocked, if they were happy why was he telling me he wanted to see me. I grabbed a airhead opening it still thinking, this was crazy. I shook my head about to go in the back until somebody knocked on the door, I looked out the peephole seeing Janey. I opened the door about to say something but she cut me off. 

"Saymon gave you that necklace?" She asked pointing to it making me look down. 

"Face gave it to me for Christmas." I lied. 

"No." She shook her head. "I saw this in Saymon room around a month ago so why do you have it?"

"Janey, I-"

"So you was the bitch he was cheating on me with?" She asked. "All that advice you gave, every time I vented to you, you-"

She stopped talking as tears dropped from her eyes making me cry, I couldn't explain myself because I was wrong. There was never an excuse for what I was doing, I had no right to do that yet I still did it. 

"I'm wrong, I know I am but-"

"I know I was sometimes a terrible friend but I would of never did this to you." She cried. 

"I can't say sorry enough, I never meant to hurt you with this. I was never supposed to let a boy come between us but I love him Janey, I do." I cried with her trying to reach out to her but she moved.

"Sanaa, stop fucking crying." Saymon said walking from the back. "You tryna play victim when you used to talk about Sanaa like a fucking dog, you knew Don was feeling her just like you knew I was feeling her. You got me before she could and you doing the same exact shit now, she can't have shit around ya jealous ass." 

"I actually loved you-"

"You loved spending my money and making it look like we was a perfect couple, I never loved you and you know ya ass ain't love me." 

"Like I told you while I was crying, if I found out he was cheating he was going to get hurt along with the bitch soo." She dragged out, she swung but Saymon stood in front of me. 

"I can't say sorry enough, I knew it would hurt you and I still did it. You was a bad friend and I was a terrible one." 

"I really just wanna fight."

"Take ya hurt ass home, you not touching her. Ain't Don waiting for you?" 

"I was really ya friend." She shook her head.

"You wasn't shit and if you swing on my sister again ya mother gon have to buy a black dress." Face said pushing her from the porch. 

"I'll see you." She stormed off going to her car. 

"Here bitch annoying ass." Face handed him a envelope then handed me the fork. "I'll beat you the fuck up letting bitches swing on you."

"Y'all are annoying." I sighed.

 "Oh gimme these." He grabbed a pack of cookies.

"Face I want those, take-"

"Love you bubs!" He yelled running to his car as I rolled my eyes.

"Ya face look mad crusty." Saymon checkled lifting up his shirt to wipe my face. "Boom, there she go."

"You're annoying, let's watch t.v." I chuckled.

I was just glad I could finally stop hiding my boyfriend.
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