Volume three

"So wassup?" Face asked me as we ate lunch.

"I can't just come spend time with you?"

"You know you can."

"Then stop asking me what I want every time I wanna see you." I frowned. "I miss you."

"I think I made you to dependent on me." He shook his head. "I moved out about two weeks ago, I've seen you like eight days in a row. How the fuck you still missing me?"

"Well excuse me for missing my brother, I won't do it anymore." I rolled my eyes making him chuckle.

"I miss you too Bubs."

"I don't believe you anymore, it's not sincere."

"Girl, you know if I don't mean it it wouldn't be coming out of my mouth. You know a nigga ain't lying."

"Blah." I stated blankly wrapping some spaghetti on my fork.

"We gon talk about these hickeys too." He spoke roughly mushing my head to reveal the hickeys I wished would go away. "Every time I see you, it's a new one."

"No it's not." I lied. "You know I'm light so-"

"I'll put my fist through ya teeth if you lie to me again." He jumped at me making me flinch.

"Alright." I rolled my eyes. Before I could tell on myself four girls walked to the table making him look up and smirk while I looked at them.

"Hey Face." Dylan spoke.

"Wassup Dyl, Esme?" He asked looking at Esme up and down. "Who them?"

"My friends Jala and Jaelyn." Dylan spoke. "I just came over here to speak, you know we ain't seen you in a minute. Niggas miss you."

"Speak for yourself sis." Esme mumbled texting on her phone.

"You don't miss me Es?" He smiled putting his hand over her screen.

"Get your ugly ass." She laughed throwing her head back.

"I'm ugly?" He licked his lips chuckling.

"Anyways, hey Sanaa. I love when ya hair like this." Esme smiled at me making me smile.

"This all your hair?" Jala asked making me nod. "Bitch, you wanna donate some? A bitch need some."

"Yes, looking like a alpaca with that little ass leave out on top of ya weave." Jaelyn said making us laugh.

"Es, you gon unblock my number?" Face smirked making her laugh out loud.

"Why you blocked?" She asked.

"I don't even know, you stay blocking a nigga. Got me downloading text apps and shit just for you to block them too." He glared at her making us laugh.

"When you figure out then you could download a app and I'll think about unblocking you."

"I'll put my fist through ya teeth."

"Zamn zaddy." She smiled making us laugh. "I'm here for all the abusive shit."

"Get out my face dickhead." He mushed her laughing.

"I'm going to make an appointment." I told her making her stop laughing.

"You wanna make it now? You know I'll drop everything for you."

"When you free?"

"Like I just said I'll drop everybody for you gorgeous."

"I got your number, I'll just let you know in advance."

"Okay." She smiled then looked towards her left. "Hey Terror."

The back of my hairs on my neck stood up while I looked down at my food like it was the most interesting thing ever. I felt Saymon walk towards us and I sighed not wanting to run into him while I was with Face.

"Wassup y'all?" Saymon smiled hugging all of them.

"Why you keep smiling in his face?" I heard Janey voice making me look up.

"Girl, if you don't get ya ice cube head ass out my face." Esme said making Face and them laugh.

"Oh, you fucked my nigga? I mean everybody know you a hoe."

"If you gon call me something make sure you call me it correct, I'm that hoe sis." She smiled. "I ain't fuck Saymon but I'll do it just to make you depressed."

"Relax you guys." I spoke softly.

"I'll relax only because Saymon know he bro and that's disgusting." She scrunched her face up.

"We out?" Dylan asked walking back up to us looking at Janey up and down since she was still in Esme face.

"Yes, Sanaa don't forget to text me bout ya hair appointment." She said making me nod.

"Yes, you need to do something with this mess on your head." Janey spoke putting her hand through my afro. "I like the afro but you can't pull it off."

"You know how you look right?" Jaelyn asked looking at her.

"Like honestly baby, where does your headline start?" Jala asked.

"To be honest, don't be talking to my baby like that. She beautiful as fuck." Esme said making me smile.

"Thank you." I accepted her compliment.

"You need a new best friend cause this bitch is gawbage!" Dylan joked making them laugh.

"Honestly, she need to be making a appointment. I'll even give you a 40% discount."

"Bitch, you're happy as fuck you know how to do hair. That's the only thing you good at."

"Oh no baby, I suck dick perfectly too." Esme spoke bluntly making me cough up my juice.

"Yes she do." Face said making Saymon laugh.

"Your head up there too babylove." She smirked.

"This why you need to unblock me, I'm tryna-"

"Okay, ewww." I frowned cutting them off.

"We for real leaving this time." Esme and the rest of them gave me, Face and Saymon hugs then walked out.

"What you doing here Terror?" Face asked dapping him up.

"Nothing getting some takeout for her before I go to work." He spoke making him nod as I leaned back in my chair watching him wrap his arm around her waist smiling.

"Nice seeing y'all." I spoke making everybody look at me.

"Why it sound like you got a attitude?" Janey asked.

"Because I'm with my brother and we were talking before everybody disrupted us." I rolled my eyes feeling salty. I'll rather talk about my hickeys than see Janey and Saymon together.

"Our fault." Saymon said trying to make eye contact but I looked away. "I been meaning to run into you though, here brudda."

"What's this?" Face asked taking the envelope opening it. "What's this for? How much is this?"

"I know you on your own right na so this just sumn to keep you on your feet."

"Terror this look like it's over a band." He said still looking at the money. "Ain't even have to do this, I had shit taken care of."

"I always got you." He spoke dapping him up.

"Good looks bro."

"Always, I'll let y'all get back to y'all lah sista brudda date." He smiled. "I'll be seeing you Nana."

"Mhm, cool." I spoke texting Donovan.

"I'll text you." Janey said making me nod.

"How long you been his side bitch?" Face asked making me look up trying to put on my confused face.

"What? I'm not-"

"Go head, lie. I dare yuh." He spoke sitting up straight balling his fist up making me roll my eyes. "You know I'll hit your ass in these people restaurant too, I don't give a fuck."

"I'm not his side bitch."

"Fucking a nigga or fucking with a nigga who has a girlfriend or even messing with a nigga who you can't show affection to in public is a side bitch, right?"

"Mhm." I nodded.

"Then you a side bitch." He shrugged. "You a stupid bitch too."

"Okay." I nodded grabbing my bag because he hurt my feelings.

"You get up Imma punch you in ya face."

"I'll take that punch, you're not about to be calling me bitches and hurting my feelings. I'll rather leave." I spoke with my eyes watering.

"The truth hurt." He looked at me blankly. "I'm being real with you because I'm your blood and Imma have you before anybody and you know that."

"That don't mean you have to call me out my name."

"Imma apologize for hurting your feelings after I finish what I got to say. if I apologize now, Imma have to keep apologizing cause I'm bout to hurt ya feelings again."

"Imma just leave." I spoke getting my stuff.

"And go fuck that nigga? Wait for him to text you? Oh, you gon ignore him making him pop up on you so you could fuck him again?" He asked leaning into my personal space. "You really something us niggas talk about, you being a dumb bitch."

"Okay."

"That nigga just smiled at his girl like he was the reason he waking up every morning, you think he gon leave her for you? Even if, the fuck make you think you could trust him if he cheating on her? You think he won't do the same to you? That nigga living the life right now and you just letting him like a dumb bitch."

"Cool." I mumbled pulling out my phone.

"I mean I don't like that bitch but damn, ain't she ya best friend? Even if she deserve the shit, how you gon do that to her?"

"I wasn't thinking about her."

"Let's talk about Terror, if this nigga really loved you he wouldn't even disrespect you like this. Letting you play the back for another bitch would be the last thing on his mind, he would of dropped her the very second he was feeling you. Then he having sex with you and her like come on Sanaa, did you even think about all of this?"

I let him talk without saying anything, everything he was saying was facts and it was hurting me even more that I been too dumb to think about all of this. I've been living in the moment like he said instead of thinking about all of this. I was a dumb bitch like he said.

"Now, I apologize because you are my heart and I don't like hurting ya feelings or making you feel less of yaself. You not dumb, you just being dumb for a nigga but don't choose a nigga like me. Choose a nigga better than me, a nigga who know you the girl of his dreams."

"Okay." I nodded.

"You want me to beat him up?" He asked making me chuckle. "You know for you, I wouldn't give it a second thought."

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Bet." He said seriously making me laugh harder.

"I'm playing, you don't have to beat him up but if you loved me you would pay for my bundles and to get my hair done."

"Who said I loved ya?" He asked making me look at him blankly as he chuckled pulling money out the envelope. "How much?"

"$400." I smiled feeling lucky.

"Shit, I'll give you 5 just because this his money." He said making me chuckle. "Might as well spend his money."

"Thank you Bubs." I smiled.

"Yeah, whatever ugly ass little girl."

~

"You ever mess with a nigga with a girlfriend?" I asked Esme as she sew in my hair.

"Girl, you know who you talking to? That bitch love sharing a nigga." Dylan yelled from the kitchen making me laugh.

"Hardy har har." Esme said blankly.

"Akikiki bitch, you know that's funny." Dylan laughed.

"Anyways, yeah I messed with niggas with a bitch. I don't mess with them no more, it's too much drama." She rolled her eyes. "They bitches always wanna fight."

"One time I was a nigga sideline and ain't even know it. When I found out this nigga gon say you asked if I had hoes not a girlfriend, I couldn't even get mad." She said making us laugh.

"Why you ask that though? You dealing with somebody nigga?" Esme asked.

"I was but Face found out and made me realize it's not something I want."

"Not everybody could do this sideline shit but I fucks with it." Dylan smiled. "I get dick whenever I want, don't have to question a nigga motive cause I know he ain't shit, getting whatever I want. I like being a side bitch."

"Until they girl find out and wanna fight." Esme laughed.

"Exactly." Dylan laughed. "People be so judgmental on bitches who mess with a nigga like where's the respect like I don't have to respect that bitch, she ain't my friend. Her nigga owe her respect and loyalty, not I."

"Preach to em Pastor Dyl."

"When I was in a relationship nobody came to me telling me my nigga was dogging me out so I don't give a fuck about the next bitch feelings." She shrugged.

"No I hate when you tell a bitch, they nigga on your dick and she start coming for you." Esme shook her head. "That's why I started messing with bitches niggas, just because I could."

"Okurrrr! Every nigga single to me unless you my bitch."

"Who you fuck with?" Esme asked as they both looked at me waiting for me to answer.

"Saymon." I mumbled lowly as they both continued looking at me.

"I should've bet on this!" Dylan snapped. "Did I or did I not say this?"

"She really did suggest y'all was fucking around a few days ago." Esme shook her head.

"How you know?"

"The way he was looking at you in the restaurant and how you was avoiding him, I just pick up on body language and guessed."

"It wasn't supposed to happen like this." I shook my head.

"I mean y'all always was feeling each other though." Esme said. "I didn't even know you like that but just from being around y'all two y'all could feel the connection."

"Honestly, I don't even understand why he with that girl. He be looking miserable as fuck around her."

"I just be feeling bad, she been my best friend since I was a freshmen and I would never wanna end our friendship over a boy."

"That girl is not your best friend baby." Esme spoke cutting the ends. "She shady as fuck and shorty lowkey jealous of you."

"She just be playing like that sometimes."

"Nah, she be tryna make it seem like a joke but she be as serious as a heart attack." Dylan said.

"What you gon do? Stop messing with him?" Esme asked.

"I was going to have a talk with him telling him to pick between-"

"Oh no baby." Dylan cut me off. "You shouldn't even be a choice, if you want something more and he giving you excuses let that mango. It ain't worth the future heartbreak and pain."

"To be honest." Esme agreed. "I promise you it's other niggas, better niggas, out there. Shit I'll even put you on some niggas who gon treat you right."

"I needed this talk." I spoke honestly. "I can't talk to anyone else about this because I know they'll judge or just talk down on me when I leave."

"Girl, we hos." Esme said making them laugh. "How the fuck we gon judge?"

"We get talked about the most by niggas and bitches so we not in no position to talk down on you."

"Just take what we said and what Face said into consideration. I love Terror like a brother and I would hate to cut him but I will for you because you so sweet and you deserve all the happiness in the world."

"Aww, thank y'all." I smiled.

~

"Hello?" Saymon answered the phone like he was whispering. "Aye, Imma call you-"

"Actually don't." I cut him off. "Imma block ya number and don't pop up on me, you have a girlfriend so stick to her. I'm not a choice and you don't get to have the best of both worlds, I don't want this or you anymore. Leave me alone."

"Sanaa, where this-"

"Bye." I hung up but not before he could call again. I declined it going to his contact to delete and block his number.

I was done with this drama.
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