Volume sixteen

"Hi my mamas." I spoke to Emogen as I rocked her to sleep. "You so pretty mamas, I can't believe it."

"Jaleyn, I wish yo ass stop picking her up. She not finna be spoiled."

"I can't help it, she so pretty and tiny."

"Right." Esme smiled looking over my shoulder.

"Y'all look like a lesbian couple." Q said walking in making me laugh.

"Fuck you." I laughed. "I'm in love with her room yo, this shit pretty as fuck."

"When she grow up, I'm gon have to paint it all over again probably solid colors."

"Let me get her." Q said wiping his hands on a towel.

"No, the fuck?" I scrunched my face up. "You see I'm putting her to sleep."

"You had her all fucking morning, I could-"

"Can y'all not?" Esme asked. "Give me my damn baby."

"No, the fuck?" I scrunched my face up even more. "Just because you had her don't give you special privileges, I just told y'all I'm putting her to sleep."

"Girl what?" Esme laughed. "And when her ass shitty with shit going up her back, I want you to remember this moment."

"Imma just throw her away." I shrugged making Q laugh.

"Girl bye." Esme walked out as Q followed her.

"They some big ass haters mamas." I told her as she blinked slowly making me roll my eyes.

I hate when babies fought they sleep like sis, please.

"Hello?"

"Where you at?" Reem asked.

"Esme house." I showed my mamas.

"Her pretty ass, you ready to go to work?"

"Yeah." I rolled my eyes, working was so ghetto.

"I'll be there in like ten minutes."

"Okay." I hung up as she was finally sleep.

I put her in her crib making sure she was okay and nothing was around her, I turned on her baby monitor along with the camera and the sensory motion thing that was in her crib. I walked downstairs in the kitchen grabbing some fruit snacks as I went to mind Q and Esme business.

"What we talking bout?"

"I need more hair washers." She rolled her eyes.

"Spencer little sister moved in with them, ask her."

"Oou, good point. You always saying some helpful shit."

"You lying ya ass off." Q said making me scrunch my face up.

"Mind ya business ugly." I rolled my eyes.

"Still dick down ya best friend faithfully so." He shrugged.

"First of all, she not my best friend. Secondly, you finally doing something faithfully." I said making Esme snort as he glared at me.

"You need to get over it."

"You need to find out who shot John and get the hell out my damn business."

"And you need to stop playing my manz."

"Ya manz played his self." I told him as my phone dinged. "Speaking of, he outside. I'll see y'all later. Esme I love you. Q, die slow."

"I love you too." Esme laughed.

I grabbed all my stuff making sure I didn't have anything on my scrubs, I rolled my eyes walking into the heat. I opened the door getting in, I leaned over to hug Reem as he held me then let go.

"You ate?"

"No can we go to that Mexican place to get some loaded nachos?"

"Doordash it so I can pick it up." He handed me his phone as I unlocked it with my phone.

"What you want?"

"Gimme a bowl, steak-"

"I know ya order." I waved him off as he smirked.

"What you had to talk to me about?"

"I don't know how to say this but I just want to be friends." I told him making him glance at me. "We had an amazing friendship then feelings got involved and it made me hate you, I love you so much I don't ever wanna feel ill feelings towards you. It killed me everyday to pick up the phone knowing I can't call you."

"I'm sorry I made you feel like that and if you feel like that being friends is what best then that's what we are, if we were meant to have a chance then we'll take it."

"Periodt." I smiled. "I'll always be grateful to you because you helped me love myself again after dealing with Shep."

"Jaelyn, we good. I ain't finna cry or be heartbroken, it's my fault anyway, I shoulda been got at you but I waited and fucked everything up but we deflee good now."

"Good, I don't want bad blood or want you to have bad blood with Dai."

"If he good to you then he good, I'll end his fucking life though if he switch up."

"I'll let you." I said seriously as he smirked.

I'm just glad we could be on good terms again.

~

"For you to live with me, I never see your ass." My brother said making me laugh.

"I feel like I'm never here too." I shook my head. "I just don't be wanting to bring Dai here and you never met him."

"So introduce me to him."

"I will but are you doing anything Saturday? My sister is having a mental health night class and all is welcome, plus you can meet everybody I love."

"I get off work at 8, that's good?"

"Perfect the class start at 9."

"Bet, I'll just go straight there from work. What you bout to do?"

"Lay in bed, probably go to sleep. I'm in for the night."

"The night I'm doing a double." He shook his head. "We could go out soon."

"We got too, I moved in so we could spend time together and we been doing everything but."

"Word, I'll see you later." He kissed my forehead walking out as I got a call from the gate stating my food was downstairs.

I walked to the door getting my food then went back in the house sitting on the couch playing Holiday Heart. I sighed seeing Sanaa call my phone, I let it ring.

It was nothing against Sanaa, I just wasn't in the mood to talk to anybody.

I put my phone on do not disturb then continued eating until I dozed off.

I woke up confused as to why I was in the couch grabbing my phone I seen plenty of shit but I went to Dai returning all his missed calls.

"Where you been?"

"I put my phone on do not disturb then took a nap." I yawned. "I'm still sleepy, where you at?"

"On my way to you, I bought you some ice cream."

"You so aggravating." I smiled. "You staying?"

"You want me to?"

"Yes, I know you tired. I'll run ya bath water right now."

"Bet, I'll be be there in like 15 minutes."

"Okay." I hung up calling Sanaa. "You called me?"

"I was bored." She chuckled. "But SaySay came over and ate my pussy soo-"

"Stop calling me that shit."

"Why you in my conversation? Mind ya business."

"Imma see you tomorrow, I'm tired as hell." I yawned again.

"Bet, I love you baby."

"I love you too." I said hearing the three beeps.

I stood up to go run his bath water putting a bath bomb in there since we didn't have any bubbles. I threw some oil in there too cause he sounded stress.

The house phone started ringing making me go towards it as they asked for permission to let Dai in. I opened the door standing by it as his fine ass got out the car, I close mouth smiled as he walked towards me.

"Wassup?" He leaned down to kiss me then walked past me in the house.

"Why ya face look like that?"

"Work annoying, family annoying-"

"Jae annoying?" I smiled making him chuckle.

"For the first time, Jae not annoying." He grabbed my waist kissing me again.

"Go get in the bath so we can lay down." I pushed him towards the bathroom as he started stripping.

~

"I was so damn tired."

"Not tired enough that you ain't want some dick."

"First of all, don't start with me." I rolled my eyes as he laughed.

"And I- oop." He said making me just look at him.

"You been feeling your fucking self." I laughed as he chuckled.

"When you start school?"

"September 3rd."

"You wanna go to Malta?"

"What the fuck is that?"

"It's a country in Europe."

"When?"

"For like Spring Break or something, I don't know but I wanna go there."

"You just get bored with life and want to start traveling."

"I'm tryna make enough money so I could just travel."

"When you think of the first person who hurt you who do you think of?"

"My mother."

"That's what I was going to say too." I nodded. "You still never told me about her."

"It's not nothing to really say, she was a drunk. She'll leave me in the house for days but because she paid the bills and kept food there she thought it was fine to do that. I mean it could have been worst but when I think about a good time with my mother I can't name none."

"She wasn't the type of drunk to beat your ass or anything?"

"Nah, the opposite. She'll get drunk tell me how much she love me, how she don't got nobody else but me then pass the fuck out."

"Are you going to Esme mental health class?"

"Yeah." He nodded.

"Oh yeah, I talked to Reem too. I just let him know I just wanted to be friends with no other attachments."

"How he take it?"

"He understood and agreed."

"I knew he was a real nigga, I respect em." He nodded.

"When do you start school?"

"September 7th."

"I can't wait to see you walk across that stage."

"Who you telling?" He smirked. "Two semesters left then I'm Dai with that's masters."

"As you should."' I smiled.

We stopped talking as I laid down, I was feeling so tired I really didn't wanna get up or do anything. This why people loved their off days.

"What you doing today?" I asked Dai.

"Bout to help JoJo get this car then go to work, what you doing?"

"What you see."

"Why you not doing anything?"

"I'm so tired." I sighed. "My body hurt and I just feel so ugh."

"You wanna take Esme to a spa? You could get full body massages, waxed, mud baths and etc."

"That's cool." I shrugged calling her. "What you doing?"

"Hello to you too." She mumbled. "I'm watching Hendrix and Keyz fight over my child."

"Do you want to go to the spa? Relive some stress?"

"When Emae get here we can go because I'm not trusting these idiots around my child."

"Girl I changed your diapers." Keyz said making me laugh.

"Bitch, when I was born you was 6. You ain't change shit." 

"I'm hanging up, I'll come get you in like a hour."

"Bet."

"I'm bout to leave, walk me out." He spoke making me get up.

"I'll see you later." I leaned up to kiss him.

"Imma send you the address to the place once I got it."

"Okay, thank you."

"You welcome, I love you." He kissed me multiple times making me smile.

"I love you more."

I watched him get in the car then walked back to my room going back the fuck to sleep.

~

"I needed that." Esme sighed. "Now all I need is some fucking head."

"Girl." I rolled my eyes laughing.

"All y'all having sex but me like." She rolled her eyes. "I'm tired of this shit!"

"Girlllll." I said longer as she laughed.

"You think if I get on top of Face he gon get hard?"

"Esme bitch!" I started rolling that I swerved. "Bitch you fucking dangerous."

"You keep laughing and I'm serious, I'm so damn horny. Emogen sucked on my nipple and got me having motherfucking flashbacks and shit."

"Uh uh!" I laughed.

"Where's Dai?"

"Work, he should be getting off soon. Imma just go back to the house and wait for him."

"Sis you sound like a wife."

"I am a wife." I smiled. "Just not yet."

"You admitting you got feelings for Dai now?"

"I'm just dick whipped right now, ain't no feelings bih."

"I really don't believe you."

I don't believe myself.

"Hey." I shrugged as my phone started ringing. "If it's meant to be it will."

"Where you at?" Shep asked.

"In the car finna go home, I just-"

"Don't go home, it's going to be police cars there."

"What? The fuck for what?"

"Nia reported you for assault, your mother told the cops where you live."

"I have not touched that bitch! What the fuck, Shep let me call you back." I hung up calling Dai.

"Jae, let me call you back my father and stepmother blowing my phone up."

"Because your lying delusional ass sister trying to get me locked up! She told your parents I assaulted her!"

"Nia ain't lie like that."

"Shep just called to warn me, I can't even go home because they waiting for me!"

"Look go to a police station-"

"What the fuck? No, they gon lock me up."

"Turn yourself in before it becomes a warrant, you was at the spa, the spa has cameras, you have an alibi. Any time before that you've been with me, I'm about to leave now and call a lawyer."

"But what if-"

"Jae trust me, I promise you I will not let her send you to jail."

"Okay." I nodded hanging up. "Go to the precinct."

"I'm getting her killed." Esme shrugged.

"I'm so mad." I started crying. "I haven't even bothered that girl, I haven't even thought about beating her up anymore and she just- why shit always gotta happen to me?"

"Girl shut up and wipe them tears, we don't cry about bad shit. Especially shit we can't control. You gon hold your head up high as you walk into this police station. I will spend my last dollar to get you bailed if you needed."

"Thank you sissy." I sighed wiping my face as we pulled into the parking lot.

"Put everything personal here, so when you leave it's faster."

Doing as she said I took off all jewelry, leaving my phone, money and everything. I sighed out loud walking in there as people started looking while I walked to the desk.

"My name is Jaelyn Carter, I'm here to turn myself in."

~

I've been in this police station for 10 hours, it was now 11 something and I was still in the room with Dai and some lawyer.

"Wanna go to Malta tomorrow for your troubles?" He smirked attempting to make me feel better.

"I got work in a few." I rolled my eyes.

"Your alibi checks out, charges-"

"I want a restraining order along with charges pressed for lying on me." I cut the detective off.

"Ms.Carter I understand your frustration, we will write up everything. You're free to go."

"Thank you." Dai nodded as he stood up grabbing my hand. "I told Esme she can go home because it was getting too late but I just texted her and told her you'll talk to her later."

"Can you take me home? I just wanna be alone for a while."

"Bet." He nodded as I walked to his car while he talked to his lawyer.

I grabbed my phone texting everybody who texted me back, I was so mad and irritated that I just wanted to go to sleep until I had to get up for work.

"You mad at me?"

"Why would I be mad at you? I'm thankful for you."

"My stepmother and I exchanged some words because I defended you over my "sister". They just don't understand that that girl need help, mental help."

"She does, maybe it's because her father left her and her mom for a bitch so Shep leaving probably dug up feelings she buried." I made excuses for her.

"Wrong is wrong." He shrugged. "I feel for her but that don't mean ruin somebody else life."

"Honestly." I shook my head.

"Imma stop at JoJo house real quick then imma take you home."

"Please don't take forever, I'm tired." I whined.

"I'm not mama." He looked at me. "I'm tired too."

"I take back what I said." I looked at him. "I need you to come back with me."

Chuckling, he licked his lips then leaned over to kiss my lips. "Whatever you say."

I smiled because just like that I wasn't mad, irritated or even tired anymore. He could always put me in a better mood.

"Let me be honest with you." He said adjusting his self in his seat. "I think I'm falling in love with you."

"Dai-"

"I know it's supposed to be on some casual, just friends shit and I promise you we'll always be friends but when I said I loved you I really meant that shit. I mean I guess you can always say I had feelings for you cause who the fuck spending more than 2 thousand on someone in less than a month?" He chuckled. "This don't mean we gotta be together or anything but we always said we'll tell each other if we caught feelings."

"I think I have feelings too but I like the way we are right now, we're not complicated and we work. You're the best thing that happened to me in a while and I would like to keep it like that."

"You got me." He kissed the ring he got me making me smile as he out the car going towards JoJo house.

"Bitch Dai just told me he in love with me." I told Esme as soon as she answered.

"Bitch got that fall in love pussy." She laughed. "Keep fucking round and E gon have a god sister."

"Girl, please don't play because no. Maybe in five years."

"I'm tired, I'll see you tomorrow. Be at the shop at 8, 9 the latest."

"Okay, I love you sissygirl."

"I love you more." I said hanging up as Dai walked to the car.

He turned on his Bluetooth as his phone paired, he put on some playlist as I laid back vibing to the slow music. This was a whole mood.

I seen light on me as I rolled my eyes smiling as Dai recorded me, he was always recording or taking pictures of me off guard.

"You're my weakness, you changed my world. Share my life, trust in me. You're all I want, everything I need." He sung grabbing my hand.

"Makes any difference, I give you all my heart. My sun sets anywhere you are, maybe I'm a dreamer." I finished as he chuckled.

"What you know about that?"

"Boy bye, if you wanna do love songs I'll most deflee give you a run for your money."

"Aight, put me on." He smirked as I grabbed his phone typing in the song.

"I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough, we danced the night away-"

"You know this?" I smiled wide. "I'm in love with this song, this gon be my wedding song."

"Girl I know every song." He smirked as he sung lowly.

I started recording myself singing posting it to Instagram, I was cute for a bitch who just got out from a 10 hour bid.

"I'm so in love with you and I hope you know." Dai sung to me as we stopped at a red light while I recorded. "I wanna live with you even when we're ghost cause you was always there when I needed you the most."

He mushed our faces together as this dumb ass koolaid smile wouldn't leave my face. He kissed me as I stuck my tongue in his mouth, the green reflected on our faces making him back up.

I put a emoji over his face posting him on my Snapchat and Instagram story.

"I'm in love with you too." I smiled at him.

~

"Daina get out my face because you pissing me the fuck off." I told him about to get out as he grabbed me back.

"If I'm talking to you, why you tryna get out?"

"Because this my fucking body and I do what ever the fuck I want to!"

"You too hyped right now-"

"No I have the right fucking reaction because you're a disrespectful ass little boy! I don't give a fuck if we together or not, don't flirt with no bitch in my fucking face!"

"Jaelyn, I did not flirt with her. She complimented me and I complimented her back."

"No your direct words was "thank you, you know you look good too. Maybe we could get together soon" what the fuck you gotta see the bitch for?"

"Jaelyn, I understand-"

"This exactly why you don't tell a nigga your feelings for them! The minute you do, they remind you what they is." I said heated. "A ain't shit ass nigga just like the rest of these fucking niggas."

"Don't compare me to no other nigga because I'm far from it."

"Boy, you ain't shit."

"If I wasn't shit would I be parading you around, choosing you over my family, taking you out the country, fucking buying you rings and shit?"

"Fuck this shit! Fuck all this shit!" I snatched the ring throwing it at him. "You don't got to do shit for me!"

"I'm not going to continue arguing with you, we can talk this out when we're both not mad-"

"What the fuck you got to be mad for?!" I yelled wanting to punch him in his shit. "I got disrespected!"

"This why I don't do relationships."

"And this why I don't do niggas, fuck you Daina. Lose my fucking number."

He tried to say something else but I grabbed the door handle getting out his car walking into Esme shop. I looked around at all the people then went into Esme office so I can get myself together.

"What's wrong?" Jala asked. "I seen you walk in here, why you crying?"

"Jala we're not friends! No matter how hard you try to be, we're never going to be friends again!"

"Jaelyn-"

"Get the fuck out my face because I'm mad and I don't want to take it out on you."

"Okay." Jala stood up. I started to feel bad but I was so mad I stopped caring.

I started pacing around trying to get myself together, I think niggas just come into my life to waste my time.

"What's wrong sissy?" Esme asked.

"It's not about me, it's about you. Come on so you can start."

"What's wrong Jaelyn?" Q walked in.

"Why you always tryna be somebody fairy god father? The fuck?" I asked making Esme laugh.

"Well my manz Dai said you started tripping on him because he told a girl she looked good."

"No, he was flirting with that bitch! Together or not, that's disrespectful! Reem would never."

"Girl, oh God."

"That's ya fault for choosing light over dark anyway, you knew the vibes before you got attached."

"First of all, Q shut the hell up and go make up with ya girlfriend."

"I am single." He chuckled. "My new bitch finna come."

Esme and I both snapped our heads towards him so fast.

"I will beat the shit out that girl, I don't even like Jala but you disrespectful."

"Did you even tell Jala you had a new girl and that she was coming?"

"Jala, not my girlfriend no more so I don't have to tell her shit."

"I'll stomp that bitch out as soon as I see her make eye contact with you."

"You still fucking Jala Q, she has a right to know you fucking with other people."

"She broke up with me, she know the vibes."

"Niggas ain't shit, dirty dick ass. Watch I stomp ya girl out."

"Jaelyn, no you are not." Esme spoke.

"Fine." I rolled my eyes. "But you better not introduce her to me."

"Do she even know about Jala?"

"Yes and she don't care, Jala a past thing." He shrugged.

"So stop fucking her."

"Nah, cause ain't no other nigga finna fuck her. Pussy too good." He chuckled.

"For you to be the realist nigga, you're disgusting." I spoke scrunching my face up.

"Niggas gon be niggas." Esme chuckled.

"I'm telling." I shrugged.

"That's not even ya friend." Q laughed.

"So what?" I shrugged walking out the office to find Jala, Sanaa and Spencer sitting there.

"He better stop looking in my face before I kick his ass again." Sanaa said sticking her middle finger up to Terror.

"Jala, I don't like you but Q got some new bitch coming in here." I snitched then looking over at Q.

"I knew he was talking to somebody." She shook her head. "You didn't have to tell me but thank you for doing it."

"No problem." I shrugged.

"That whole group not shit." Sanaa said.

"Periodt." Spencer co-signed.

"Oh shit, what baby daddy do?"

"This nigga fucking told me he like some older bitch just as I ended shit with Baby to get back together with his ugly ass."

"Well, you waited too late." I laughed. "I'm pretty sure if you told Kee, he'll drop her."

"Nah, imma let him be with her." I shrugged. "I got three kids to worry about now, fuck allllat." 

"You a funny ass nigga, get the fuck out my face." Jala said as he walked towards her with some girl.

"I just wanted to introduce y'all, guess you ain't in the mood." He laughed.

"That girl can have you." She waved her off.

"Don't worry, I got em baby." She smiled.

"Aht aht bitch, you got too much dip on your chip. You'll get hit by four different bitches before you could even think." I told her.

"My bitch look better anyway." Sanaa laughed. "How you gon come over here tryna be funny with a bitch who don't look better?"

"Niggas trash." Spencer added.

"And that's on menstrual." Jala laughed.

"She ain't gotta be for y'all, she for me." Q smiled.

"Nigga and who you for? Cause I feel bad for that person." She scoffed. "Sorry to that woman."

"You know who I'm for." He smirked at her then walked away.

"This why I need a new nigga cause my dumb ass gon keep going back to him." She shook her head making me laugh.

"That's why I'm glad Saymon will be hundreds of miles away, I ain't finna be the bitch who excuse a mistake baby."

"Let's go jump him." I suggested looking at him.

"No." Esme said coming out looking at me.

"I was down with it." Sanaa shrugged.

"That boy just got out the hospital, he has to go again weekly. Leave that damn boy again."

"Y'all wasn't this concerned about this damn aneurysm when he was ducking gunshots and playing God with other people lives." Sanaa rolled her eyes.

"Periodt sis." I laughed.

I loved this Sanaa, she ain't give a damn about shit.

"Why Baby, JoJo and Dai look so fine standing there?" Spencer asked making me look over.

"His fine ugly ass." I spoke making eye contact with Dai.

"JoJo single?" Jala asked.

"Uh uh sis." Sanaa and Esme both said then looked at each other.

"Oops, what's tea?" I asked smiling looking between.

"Bitch, you fucking with JoJo?" Esme asked.

"Bitch, is you fucking with JoJo?" Sanaa asked.

"Cues same girl." I said making Spencer and Jala laugh.

"JoJo was for meeeee." Sanaa pointed at herself.

"Bitch, you played him." Esme laughed.

"I'm tired of y'all, somebody always want my man. Maya having a baby by my man, now you want my other man."

"Ice available." I said making Spencer nod.

"Ain't nobody fucking with Ice and his beat ass baby mother." Jala waved me off.

"If I ain't fuck with Reem, I'll fuck with Mickey." I said. "But that's my brother so free my fave!"

"Word, I miss him." Spencer said.

"You really like JoJo?" Esme asked.

"Girl no, he want a family and shit. I ain't for him."

"That's the only thing." Esme whined. "If he could wait a few more years, he'll be the perfect man for me."

"No, Face gon be."

"Periodt, everybody knew that already."

"It's finna be 9." Q said walking over but he was looking at in Jala face as she acted like she was scrolling. "Lala?"

"What?" She asked not looking up.

"I love you." He smiled.

"You are a narcissists." Spencer laughed.

"He retarded is what it is." I looked at him.

"You not finna say you love me back?"

"You really think you so funny and you not. You be playing with me like I treat you wrong like you do not love me, you only love your fucking self."

"I love Esme and my niece so that's invalid." He waved her off. "And I love ya dumb ass too but you gon learn to stop playing with me too."

"Quade what the fuck do I do to you?"

"Why you putting up ya shit like you finna swing on me? Imma fuck you up."

"And you gon get jumped." I looked at him.

"Aye Reem!" He yelled as Reem looked up from his phone then walked over here. "Jaelyn said she finna jump me."

"Why you call me?" He chuckled locking his phone then putting it in his pocket. "She not my business no more."

"Okay but why you saying it like that? As if I'm not your friend, being friends make me your business."

"The way he said it wasn't how you saying it."

"Y'all niggas disgust me, I don't like none of y'all dead ass. Fuck out my face."

"I ain't do shit to you but you ain't my bitch to be arguing with so I'll talk to you later."

I stood there with my eyes furrowed, these niggas really got mad dip on their chip today.

"That's my cousin." Q told Lala smiling. "I wouldn't bring no bitch here, I don't even want nobody else but you."

"I don't believe you."

"Aye Clare? C'mere!" He yelled as the girl came towards us.

"He told y'all?" She smiled. "I'm Clara, remember when I FaceTimed him like two months ago and you thought it was a bitch. We got introduced too."

"Right." Jala said nodding.

"Let me talk to you." Dai tapped me as I looked at him not bothered.

"No."

He was about to say something but instead he grabbed my face then leaned down and kissed me, I tried so hard not to smile but I couldn't.

"In love ass." Spencer scoffed.

"Could be me but niggas ain't shit." Sanaa said.

"Period." Esme laughed.

"My nigga the shit." I smiled leaning into him as they all laughed.

~

"When I was like in the seventh grade I told my mother I didn't want to live anymore and she beat me so I could change my mind. From that day on, I knew I only had myself. Parents are always the most toxic people in your life, they grow up manipulating you, they talk to you as if you're their equal but when you act it you're being disrespectful. You were taught defending yourself is being disrespectful. My mother is the most toxic person in my life and I'm glad to say I cut her out my life almost four months ago. She didn't even come to my graduation when I was praying she would but she let me down as she been doing."

"You got us though." Benji said.

"I really don't even like you. You know that." I laughed.

"You still got us." Q said making me roll my eyes.

"I've learned from her, I'm not going to be like her at all. I believe in shit she will never. I'm my own person and I'm not her."

"Okay." Jala said making me laugh.

"I transitioned into a person I've always wanted to be. Confident, sure of myself, surrounded by REAL love, I've grown and I'm proud of myself even if no one else is."
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