Volume four

"I'm so tired." I spoke going to lay under Emae and Hendrix.

"You done doing hair for the day?" Emae asked playing in Hendrix hair.

"Yes, I did seven heads today. My hands on fire." I frowned.

"You gon braid my hair for me?" Hendrix asked making me glance up at him.

"Now?"

"Yeah."

"How you want it?" I asked not really wanting to do it.

"Like this." He showed me a picture making me nod in relief, it wasn't going to take no longer than twenty minutes.

"You wanna do it in here or?"

"It don't matter."

"Sit on the floor." I told him as Emae handed me grease and a comb.

"Black let you hear the finished song?" Hendrix asked as I parted his hair.

"No, I didn't even know it was finished."

"Yeah, he finished it like two days ago. A audio gon go up in like three days then we gon shoot the video."

"How long you knew him?"

"All my damn life." He chuckled. "Me, him and Keyz mothers was best friends so we been joint at the hip since we were born. Nas came along in 8th grade."

"Should've left him." I mumbled making him laugh.

"You really don't like my brother?"

"I really don't, he so creepy and stupid. He gon call me a ho-"

"He what?" Emae asked sitting up. "Why you ain't tell me this?"

"I forgot to." I answered.

"I'll fuck Naseem up, he got us fucked up."

"Fallback Em, we told him bout his self when she left. You know Keyz and I see her like a sister, we ain't allowing that disrespect."

"Why he call you a hoe?"

"Because he's mad I keep referring him to a baby rapist."

"You not the first one." Emae pointed out.

"That's why y'all not bout to do, fallback." Hendrix spoke.

"I'm just not comfortable around him, he didn't even apologize for grabbing me or sexually harassing me."

"When he do that?" They asked in unison.

"The day I met him, he grabbed me and told me I was begging for it because I was walking in the comfort of my home with shorts on."

"I didn't know that." Hendrix furrowed his eyebrows.

"I'm going to fuck Naseem up." Emae said getting up.

"Allat damn ass in my face." I said since she only had on a white tee shirt.

"She never got on no panties." Hendrix said making me laugh. "Act like she allergic to em."

"She is." I spoke as she laughed walking out the room.

"Aye sis, you think she happy?" He asked as I began his second braid.

"What you mean?"

"Like you think she happy with me?" He asked making me smile.

"I've never known my sister to stay in the house on a Saturday, so I know she is." I smiled making him nod. "You know this is when the club is most lit but she in the house instead."

"I'm tryna get her out of stripping."

"She's been stripping since she was 16, I don't think she'll stop for a while. Especially when she don't have no other form of income."

"We been talking about her doing some classes."

"So she could finally become a nurse?"

"Yeah." He nodded. "I'm tryna make it happen but I don't wanna force her into it."

"I'll talk to her, you know we get each other approval on everything."

"She gon be so sad when you eventually move out."

"Hopefully you'll still be around so she won't be lonely or you can give me a niece or nephew."

"You think if I can't get her to stop dancing she gon let me get her pregnant? Yeah okay." He scoffed.

"Trap herrr." I dragged out making him laugh as his phone started ringing.

"Wassup?" He answered the FaceTime call from Black.

"You saw my card?"

"Keyz got it."

"He just told me he don't, he fucking play too much annoying ass."

"You good?"

"I'm cooling." He spoke making Hendrix smack his lips. "For real, I'm not on that right now."

"But you gon be on some bullshit later, I hear it in your voice." He shook his head. "I'm bout to come over after I-"

"I'm good Hen, for real."

"I know how you get on this day, I'm not-"

"Ain't you with your girl? I'm good, stop acting like my bitch."

"I'm still coming over." He shrugged.

"Esme there? Go smack her dumb ass for me." He spoke making me furrow my eyebrows.

"What I do?" I asked.

"Why you ain't calling me back?"

"I've been doing hair, I haven't touched my phone all day."

"Hendrix better be paying you to touch his nappy shit." He said making us laugh.

"Suck my dick." Hendrix laughed. "When she done, Imma be on my way-"

"Es, you wanna come over?" He cut him off. "I'll rather be with her annoying ass than your annoying ass."

"Yeah, I'll come." I smiled.

"Is that fine with you boyfriend?" Black asked making me laugh.

"Yeah whatever."

"Es, tell me when you ready. I'll get a uber for you."

"I'm done his hair so you can call it now."

"Bet, Hendrix don't call me again fool." He hung up.

"I really can't stand his annoying ass." Hendrix stood up as I stretched running to my room because I wasn't ready. I got my phone calling him.

"Wassup?"

"Am I spending a night or?"

"You coming to my house 10 at night, why would you leave back out again?"

"You always gotta get smart, shut up." I said grabbing a bag. "You have food or do I have to order something?"

"I have food but I'm in the mood for Chinese, cool with you?"

"I'm going to order it now so by time I get comfortable, we can eat." I said going to uber eats. "Text me your address."

"Your uber two minutes away, you better be ready."

"Shut up bossy ass."

"Shut me up."

"Hmph." I scoffed making him laugh as I grabbed a sweater and my bag making sure I had everything. "I'm leaving."

"Where you going?" Em asked.

"Black house."

"Tell him to keep his head up and I love him."

"Love you toooo!" He yelled making her laugh.

"You spending the night?" Hendrix asked.

"If she's coming to my house at 10 at night, why would I make her go home? Come on, use ya brain Addison." He spoke making my eyes go wide.

"Aight, don't play Harper."

"I forgot that was y'all middle names!" Emae laughed.

"Ya uber outside girl."

"Be safe sissy, I love you." She hugged me kissing me on my cheek.

"She just kissed you after giving me head." Hendrix laughed. "Dick face ass."

"You're a child." I rolled my eyes. "I love you too sissy, work on my niece or nephew while I'm gone. Thank you."

"Girl, you reaching." Emae laugh.

"Aye Addison we trapping our girls all 18!" Black yelled making us laugh.

"Heard juuu Harper!" He yelled back making me laugh.

"Esme, if this Uber leave you Imma fuck you up." Black spoke making me remember as I ran out the house seeing the car. "Imma call you back, I gotta call Nas."

"No, call him when I get there. I don't like being in ubers by myself." I spoke getting in.

"How you doing?" He asked as I closed the door.

"I'm fine." I smiled.

"Stop smiling at other niggas." Black spoke making me take it off speaker.

"How you even know I smiled?"

"I heard it in your voice." He said making me laugh.

"Your house better be clean."

"Nah, I'm waiting for you to come clean it."

"Dirty." I chuckled. "Why you didn't let me listen to the full song?"

"I'll let you hear it when you get here."

"Excuse me, how long is this ride?" I asked the driving.

"Seven more minutes."

"Thank you, you better be dress because you have to meet me outside."

"Nah, Imma buzz your ass in and you gon walk in."

"Excuse me? How much can I pay you to turn around?"

"I'm playing." He laughed as I told him nevermind. "Sensitive ass."

I talked to him until I heard the GPS say destination appearing, I grabbed my bag preparing to get out. "Thank you."

"You welcome beautiful." He smiled at me.

"Tell him to stop looking at you." Black said making me laugh.

"No." I laughed getting out the car.

"I'll tell him myself." He said opening the door about to come towards me but I hurried up and pushed him back in.

"You're so childish." I laughed following him to the elevator as he pressed the 4th floor.

"Why you still on the phone with me?" He said making me look down to hang up. "I hung up first, ahh."

"You're really so childish." I threw my head back laughing as the elevator opened.

He stopped and started banging on some door, I stood there looking around. I know the neighbors hear his loud ghetto ass, Keyz opened the door looking blankly.

"What bitch?" He asked.

"Give me my fucking card stupid bitch." Black looked at him blankly making him laugh grabbing a VISA card from the table next to the door.

"Stop leaving ya shit in my car."

"You spoke to Nas?"

"He was with a bitch earlier so he probably MIA until she leave."

"This nigga be blowing my shit." He spoke. "Aight, hit me later."

"Hey Esme! Esme, do you see me? I'm right here!" He yelled waving in my face making me laugh. "It's me Keyz! You not going to speak to Keyz?"

"You mad annoying, hey brova." I smiled.

"This y'all first sleepover?" He asked with a smile. "Cute."

"Suck our dick." Black said walking away as Keyz laughed.

"Y'all live on the same floor? Wow." I mumbled as he pulled out a key opening his door.

"Hendrix live right here." He pointed at the apartment straight across. "Nas live two doors down."

"Squad goals." I joked making him chuckle as he closed the door while I looked around then my phone dinged. "The food outside."

"What the hell?" He smacked his teeth. "I'll go get it, stay your ass still."

"Yes massa." I joked as he rolled his eyes going back out the door.

I sat my bag down on the couch going to wash my hands then turning on the t.v so I can find a movie or something. As I was going through the movies the door opened, he placed the food on the table then walked back out.

"Let me tell you now, I'm not watching no animation, nothing that's gon have you crying, nothing stupid, nothing with singing or nothing gay."

"That's very specific." I mumbled.

"Because I know what type of movies you watch and I'm not doing it, if you pick something like that I'm going in my room and you gon stay in here by yourself."

"So mean." I mumbled. "You might as well pick something."

"Knew it was gon come down to that." He laughed sitting next to me snatching the remote from me.

"Ouu, Titanic!" I squealed.

"You got me fucked up, that movie like 4 hours long. I'm not doing it. Nope." He scrolled down.

"Why you go to horror?" I frowned. "If we watching a scary movie nothing with clowns."

"The baby scared of clowns?" He laughed making me roll my eyes.

"Nope, not watching Final Destination either. Got me fucked up."

"We bout to watch a show." He rolled his eyes clicking on The Chi.

"Ooou, I heard this good." I spoke making him agree clicking it.

"You could get comfortable." He spoke grabbing his food as I took off my shoes doing the same.

"This bitch skipping school for dick." I shook my head as he chuckled.

"Your phone vibrating." He spoke making me look to see Dylan was FaceTiming me.

"Bitch, you know where I'm at?" She yelled. "I'm in a fucking closet because this nigga mother came home from work early."

"If he hiding you, why are you yelling?" I laughed.

"Because I don't give a fuck if he get caught! Imma drag his mother if she try to fight me for her trifling ass son."

"Shut the fuck up." I heard.

"Now I'm walking out, you got me fucked up." I heard Dylan say before I saw light.

"Bro, what is you doing? She gon leave back out just wait twenty min-"

"Boy get out my face." She looked at him like she was stupid as I heard her walking down stairs. "This bitch better not say nothing smart to me."

"We gon jump her old ass." I laughed.

"Wait, that's not your ceiling. Bitch, where you at?"

"Black house."

"Oh I was ruining something?" She joked. "How you doing?"

"Who are you?"

"My name Dylan but you won't be seeing me again so it don't matter, have a good night." She smiled walking out the front door as I heard his mother yelling his name.

"Dylan!" I yelled as me and Black laughed.

"No cause he just ruined my night, gon try to hide me in a damn closet. I ain't even get what I want." She rolled her eyes. "Black, where your brother? Did you see him today because it's no reason he should be ignoring my text or calls."

"We just saw him, you know they all live in the same building?"

"Word? Gimme the address so I could beat Keyz and whatever girl he with up."

"You just was with another nigga and wanna beat him up if he with another girl?" Black asked as I texted her the address.

"Yeah because when I'm with niggas I don't ignore him but we'll talk about this when I see him." She spoke hanging up.

"You like that too?" He asked.

"Like what?"

"You get mad when niggas doing the same shit you doing?"

"She has feelings for Keyz so that's why she doing that, I've never had feelings for somebody to the point I'm worried about what their doing. So no I'm not like that."

"You never loved anybody you had sex with?"

"Besides Face? No." I shook my head.

"Why you like that?"

"What you mean?"

"The way I say certain shit hurt your feelings and I'm not trying to hurt your feelings but I don't know what other way to put it."

"Just say it."

"Why you a ho? I guess." He asked making me sit up. "Like I know you tell me everything you did or do but why you do it?"

"I've been having sex all my life, since I was 6." I spoke making him furrow his eyebrows. "Some was forced, some was consensual. To me, sex is the only thing I know and as sad as it sounds it's all I like out of a nigga. I have a reputation that doesn't bother me but I have one nonetheless so boys don't come up to me trying to get to know me, they want to fuck and I want to too."

"So you telling me a boy never came up to you saying I think you beautiful I wanna get to know you?"

"No and I've never really wanted to be in a relationship with anybody so I didn't care for them too. Face was the only boy I had sex with that I had feelings for but when he played me, I couldn't handle that hurt and it made never want to be in a relationship."

"I get it but not every nigga like that, you could be losing the love of your life because you just fucking and leaving." He said.

"I'm guessing you one of those niggas?"

"Would you believe me if I told you I only had sex with two girls?"

"No, I don't." I shook my head quickly. "You look too good to not have more bodies, I know bitches be throwing their selves at you."

"The thing about me is if I don't love you, I'm not having sex with you." He spoke making me raise a eyebrow. "That whole meaningless sex shit not for me, the feeling of having sex with someone you love and becoming one is better than fucking multiple females."

"Wow." I said in shock. "To be honest, I thought we were going to have sex tonight. It's been like a month we've been talking and it's by far the longest I've ever made it with a boy."

"Nah, we ain't having sex tonight." He chuckled. "We ain't gon have sex til I know I love you and you love me back."

"You so mean to be so this." I said not knowing a word to describe it making him laugh.

"Es?"

"Yes?"

"You so beautiful, can I get to know you more than I already do?" He asked grabbing my hand making me smile.

"Yes."

"You my girlfriend at this point." He said making me laugh. "So cut off all them niggas, you gotta stop the flirting shit and allat."

"So demanding." I joked knowing he was serious.

"You experienced but so inexperienced at the same time, it's going to be one hell of a ride." He chuckled.

"A emotional crazy ass ride." I spoke closing my food. "So your full name?"

"Pharaoh Harper Black, that don't mean start calling me that shit either."

"I most def will." I chuckled. "Do you understand, Mr.Black?"

"Yes, Mrs.Black." His ugly ass smiled making me smile.

"Dylan is here." I mumbled reading the text.

"I thought she was playing." He laughed as we both went towards the door peeking out just as she got out the elevator.

"Keane!" She yelled knocking on his door. (Pronounced like the seasoning, Cayenne)

"Why are you yelling?" He grumbled coming out his house closing the door. "How do you even know where I live?"

"That don't matter, why you ignoring me?"

"Girl, you know you broke my phone."

"You got a bitch in here?"

"Nah." He laughed.

"You lying, let me in then."

"Talking bout I'm lying, I'm grown as hell." He chuckled opening his door as I walked out following them. "Of course you would tell her where I lived."

"Technically, I was telling her how it was childish y'all all lived in the same building and sis told me we was gon have to jump you. I told her we couldn't jump you cause I love you so you should be happy." I smiled just as Dylan walked back in the living room.

"You found that bitch?" He laughed. "You checked under the bed? Closets and shit? Make sure you look everywhere."

"Now that I know you not ignoring me, I could go. See y'all later." She smiled walking out the door.

"Nah, you not bout to break my sleep then leave. Got me fucked up." He chased after her.

"We can't be like them, okay?" I asked Black.

"Hell no." He laughed as we walked out seeing them in each other face.

"Why you want me here?" She asked. "Are you going to eat my pussy? Are we going to have sex until my vagina give out? No? Then move."

"Why you so damn difficult?" He groaned. "Come on, you could fuck me back to sleep."

"I'll take it." She smirked. "See you later sissy, love you."

"Love you more." I chuckled.

"Imma ever see you without makeup on?" Black asked as we walked back in.

"You have." I scrunched my face up.

"No, I haven't."

"For real? Oh well I have to wipe my makeup off before I go to sleep so yeah. You wanna see me without my wig too?"

"This a wig?" He asked touching my hair then yanking it. "I really thought this was your shit."

"I'm good at what I do." I smiled.

"Can you go do allat shit now? I wanna go lay down."

"I need to take a shower, did you take a shower?"

"Why you want me to get in the shower with you?" He smirked making me laugh.

"If you offering."

"I'm telling you now don't touch me." He said making me laugh.

"No touching, got it."

He led me to his room which had a bathroom in it, we walked in as I sat my bag on his bed. I walked in the bathroom as he watched me like I was the best thing in his life making me chuckle, I removed all my makeup and took off my wig putting everything back.

"So this is natural me." I shrugged.

"I love natural you." He smiled. "Makeup don't do you no justice."

"You're annoying." I smiled going to turn on the water. "Thank you though."

"I'm serious, the short hair look so good on you."

"I cut it a few months ago, it's growing back in nicely." I said making him nod.

"Why ya bonnet match my durag though?" He chuckled making me look at my purple bonnet and his purple bape durag.

"I'm putting us on Snapchat when we get out the shower." I said making him laugh as I started stripping.

"I really thought it be pants or shorts making ya ass look like that but ya shit real life fat." He spoke making me glance at it in the mirror then looking at his naked body.

"You hard right?" I asked looking at him. "Please tell me you're hard and not soft."

"Why?" He chuckled getting in the tub. "I'm not hard though."

"Lord ha Mercy." I mumbled getting in the shower.

We stayed in the shower for almost twenty minutes mainly because we had a soap fight but everything was kept PG 13. When we got out I slipped a long tee shirt on without a bra then slid on a thong, he only had on some ethika boxers as I looked at his body.

"Imma go put up our food." He made me nod as I put my phone on the charger looking at the movie he picked.

He came back turning off the light as I grabbed my phone taking a picture for Snapchat like I said I would, I put my phone back on the charger then laid down watching the movie until we both eventually went to sleep.

I woke up around four in the morning thirsty as hell, I unwrapped myself from his arms then quietly walked in the kitchen to get something to drink. I almost jumped out of my skin seeing Nas sitting on the couch watching t.v. I ignored his presence going in the refrigerator.

"He having sleepovers now?" He asked making me roll my eyes.

"Stop talking to me like we're friends."

"I don't get the beef between us." He chuckled standing up while I poured juice. "I mean you around a lot, you might as well get used to me."

"Negative." I spoke as he was looking down. I trailed his eyes to see he was looking at my legs making me remember I didn't have anything on the bottom. "You're mad disrespectful."

"I got eyes and Imma man so I'm gon look." He spoke coming closer to me making me back up. "I apologize for calling you out your name at the studio and for grabbing you when we first met."

"Okay, thank you."

"Maybe you could stop hating me now."

"I don't hate you but thank you for apologizing." I spoke trying to get out the kitchen but he kept walking in front of me.

"You really beautiful, when I first saw you I wanted you." He spoke coming closer to me making me back up once more.

"I'm with Pharaoh, we're together, that's my boyfriend." I said hoping that would get him to back up.

"He gon break your heart, I'm not trying to do that though beautiful. I just really wanna love you." He forcefully grabbed my hand making me wince as tears came to my eyes scared of what's about to happen.

"I can't do that, I'm with Black. I don't want you."

"Everybody want me." He laughed squeezing my hand real tight til the point it felt like all blood left my hand as a tear slipped from my eye making me wipe it.

"Can you let me go?"

"I'm not stopping until I get what I want."

"Wassup Nas?" Black asked making him drop his hand from my hand and backup as I sighed in relief trying not to let anymore tears come out.

"Nothing, just talking to her. She told me ya bitch ass finally asked her to be ya girlfriend, I hope this make you stop talking bout her." He chuckled. "Y'all cute."

"Es, you good?" Black asked as I nodded.

"I'm going back to bed." I mumbled rushing past both of them.

I laid down kind of conflicted, I silently cried for ten minutes, that's how long Black was out the room. When he walked back in, I wiped my face acting like I was sleep. I knew he was looking at me but I wasn't going to open my eyes, I felt the bed dip and I knew he laid next to me. He touched me making me jump.

"Es, I know you not sleep." He sighed.

"Can you lock the door?" I asked making him get up as I heard the door click. "I don't want to talk, just please lay back down."

"Alright baby girl, your wishes."

~

"Good morning." Black smiled as I opened my eyes making me chuckle.

"Good morning."

"I ordered breakfast for us." He said making me nod. "Your eyes still puffy from crying yourself to sleep."

"I probably look horrible." I cringed.

"Nah, you still beautiful." He said making me sadly smile as we went quiet. "Tell me wassup."

"I understand Nas is someone you consider a brother and you know bros before hos and allat but I don't feel comfortable around him and I can not and don't want to be around him."

"What he say to you?"

"It's not even about what he said look at what he did to my hand." I spoke showing him my swollen hand which was still red and throbbing. "I just don't feel safe around him."

"Can I know what he said?"

"Basically he said he wanted me since he first saw me, he wants to love me, you're going to break my heart and he's not stopping until he gets me."

"It be ya own brothers." He chuckled shaking his head.

"He made memories that I buried a long time ago come up and that's why I was crying, he reminds me of my uncle that used to molest me and I can not do it." I said feeling my tears come again making me clear my throat. "I can't be around him."

"I promise any time you're over here or I'm over your house, he will be no where in sight." He spoke making me nod. "And Imma have a talk with em cause he tripping."

"Thank you." I sighed just as the doorbell rung.

"Cheer up and come eat breakfast." He sat up. "He ain't here so you good to walk around however you want."

"Okay." I smiled taking his hand as he helped me get up.

I could get used to this.
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