I moved back home with the girls but this time we left Indiana. My parents thought a change would be in order for my loss. My parents didn't want to say it but they would at some point. There is a chance of Hope out there but I didn't want it. I didn't want to think of the chances I had that might save me from my dark side. I wanted to lose myself to her the other side of me. They didn't want it to happen and neither did my friends.

I knew Matteo wouldn't want it either but how long could I last. How long could I survive without the one I was destined to be with. I knew that Matteo wouldn't want me to mass murder an entire village, but that's where I was at the moment. I was so lost in the rage, the sadness and the grief that I wanted to hurt others. I wanted to get the pain out of me, but most importantly all I wanted was my mate back.

I knew that wasn't going to happen so I shut it all off, it's like a switch in the back of a supernatural beings mind. Vampires call it a humanity switch where you can loose yourself to your humanity by flipping the switch. Simply closing your eyes and imagining the switch and flipping it, it's simple really. Although when you do flip it you lose your humanity and go off doing whatever because you can't feel a thing.

That's all I wanted right now all I wanted was to never feel again and to get rid of the pain I felt. So, as much as Matteo's voice rings in the back of my mind to not do this very thing. I can't help but shut him out and try flipping my switch. As we pack our things and begin our move I sat in the car with my three friends. My parents in the front seats , me in the back with Anna then in the far back was Val and Jackie.

Jackie could sense it the second I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Before she had the chance to say no and make the others aware It was already done. The car stopped and was pulled over to the side of the road. My parents turned to look at me with worry and sadness in their eyes. I on the other hand, held no emotion in my eyes, I simply felt nothing. That was the good and positive thing about being a supernatural being.

You have that switch you can flip when you loose your mate or someone close to you. When you change for the first time it's hard to control things and some just shut it off. Some vampires that become rippers because they can't control their blood lust. They turn it off due to gilt, the gilt of killing multiple people to millions of them. Witches have that very switch it's called turning dark side and not called a humanity switch.