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"Omo! Omo!" Minji exclaimed upon seeing me the next morning.

"Goodmorning." I greeted with a crack and sloppy voice and a meek smile as I sat in my chair. Good thing there's not much work for us these days. Just some clerical and routinely stuffs. Maybe I could take some naps. I feel so sleepy!

"What happened to you?" I must have looked like a panda or a zombie.

"Nothing," I simply answered.

"You look like you just went into a break-up." Her thoughtless remarks stunned me that made me stare at her for a moment.

Am I that transparent?

Her jaw dropped. "Wait, you did? Who's the guy?" she looked shocked and with concern she loomed her chair next to me.

"Urgh! No one! I just stayed up all night," I avoided her questioning look.

"Come on. You can talk to me." It seems, she doesn't believe what I'm saying.

"Promise! I'm telling the truth. I'm not even dating anyone. I just stayed awake the whole night."

She shrugged. "Really? Fine." She rolled her chair back to her cubicle.

Yeah. I just stayed awake and cried. I think I only slept for an hour. Last night, I told myself I'll just suppress what I'm feeling. Besides, it's unrequited. Why would Sungkyu even bother to feel something for me anyway? He's surrounded by the most beautiful stars in the industry, and I'm just me.

My stomach churned with the thought of him though.

I distracted myself with my job. I'll just do my best at working without involving my feelings.

"Anyway, what's your plan for our work break?" Minji asked afterwards.

"Work break?"

"Work break! Like vacation! Duh! Next week is already Infinite's end of promotions! There will be a dinner party, for sure. And after that, the break. No work."

"Really?" My eyes lit up. Vacation is what I really need right now.

"Yeah! It's a free time for everyone. But of course for us, it'll only be 3 days. For Infinite, it's indefinite. Depending on their work schedule."

"I see." I nodded. I like that!

"So tell me, what are you going to do?"

"I don't know." I answered. But there's something that popped in my mind, I'll watch TV or sleep all day! Maybe I'll also do the laundry.

"Come with us then! We're going to Jeju!"

"Jeju?" No way!

"Even, Hyejin eonnie is coming. I'll also try to convince manager Jeongwook to come," she said with a wink.

Jeju Island! I haven't been there! I have always wanted to go there!

But thinking of the money I'll be spending... "I'll think about it!"

"Just tell me if you're coming!"

"Okay!" I answered while doing mental calculations of my money.

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Days passed and I'm still thinking of the Jeju trip. More of, envious of the Jeju trip. Whenever I'm with Minji, or Hyejin eonnie and some of our officemates keep on planning and talking about the trip.

I really really want to go!

But my calculations on my financial assets always fall short. Just enough for my living expenses, and the amount I have to send to my parents. And I don't want to borrow just for that.

Though that is an option. Should I call Jin?

Just as I was passing by the lobby near the darting area, Sungkyu went out of the reception area and now was on his way towards me!

I stopped walking and stood still.

My heart went ecstatic! It's always like this whenever I see him. After that night, after what I realized, he became different in my eyes! Like I'm seeing him in another light.

Even when I told myself I'll just ignore what I feel. My heart betrays me. And so is my body. I know for myself I'm so obvious!!!

I know it takes time for me to adapt and learn how to control myself.

And right now, I still can't. I can't look at him without getting reminded of what I feel. And I'm afraid, he'd see me through.

So most of the time, whenever he is near or when I see him, I run away.

But not this time. I think I can't.

I wanted to push myself to run but I was stoned!

He looks so handsome today with his hair up, he looks so neat and I feel like I just wanna stare at him the whole day.

And his coming nearer and nearer, and in slow motion?

"Sujeong," he called my name. Wow. He called me by my name. I like it when he says my name. But it would be better if he calls me by the name he gave me.

"Hey! Sujeong..." he called me again.

My eyes went wide after realizing his about a feet away from me staring directly at my face probably curious why I was stoned there.

"Y-yeah? Ahm... goodmoring," I stuttered. I wasn't able to contain my feelings.

I ran away.

"Where are you going?" I heard him say and I didn't hear what he said after that because I already locked myself in the girl's room clutching my chest.

What just happened?

Why am I fidgeting like this? Urgh!

I tried to calm myself. 'Yah! Sujeong! Stop! Stop! Why are you like this? It's just Sungkyu! You always see him. Why are you acting like this!'

I let out a big sigh. 'Be calm. Be calm. Don't let your feelings override. Be Calm. It's just Sungkyu. Come on. If you keep being like this you're dead!"

'You!' I pointed at my reflection in the mirror. 'Get a grip of yourself'.

Then I counted one to ten. I gave out a big sigh as I gain myself again.

I smiled to myself. 'Sujeong! Fighting!'

I came out afterwards.

And just as I turn in the corner, "Done?"

"Omona!" I shouted in surprise as I held my chest. There stood Sungkyu with his hands in his pocket, waiting for me.

"Why do you look so shock? What took you so long?" What the heck is he doing? Waiting for me?

"Eh? I-I I was just... ahm..." I don't know what to say!

Good thing, he didn't wait for my answer.

"Sujeong, they told me you were recently assigned for the clothes? Where are the outfits for tomorrow? Did you count them yet? We need the inventory for it."

"Ahm... yeah. They are in the closet." And that closet is a room full of clothes. All the things they've worn in their past comebacks and even what they use now.

"Let's go."

"I can do it on my own. I'll just report to you." Please! I don't want to be alone with Sungkyu!

"I have to see it for myself. It's my job," he simply stated and started heading to the room.

"Ahm... okay."

This is so awkward.

I swear! I feel like all my senses are at guard!

I purposely walk behind him.

"Hurry up? I don't have all day," he said.

I nodded and ran and walk beside him.

I just kept looking at my feet, hoping my stubborn heart would stop betraying me.

'Heart, please calm down.'

<<Author's note>>

Lovelyz song '' Dear You - Heart (Handle with Care) 마음 ( 취급주의 )" keeps playing in my head while writing this part... hahaha!