Kavya's POV

I got up and looked around to see that Kabir was sitting beside me and caressing my head.

'Are you feeling better now?' Kabir asked and suddenly everything came back and I quickly got up.

'Let's go and meet her,' I said and got out of the bed.

'Kavya, relax,' Kabir tried to calm me down but only meeting her and getting all my answers will calm me.

'I will go and freshen up and then we can go and meet her,' I said and went in the washroom to freshen up.

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I freshened up and got out to see Kabir got ready and was waiting for me.

'Let's go,' he said.

'Thank you for being there with me,' I said and he gave me a small smile and we went downstairs.

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When we reached her office, she was locking the office. We got down of the car and as I lost my balance, Kabir came quickly ran towards me and held me in his arms.

'Kavya?' Aanchal was surprised to see us.

'Come in,' she opened the office and turn on the lights of the office and walked towards her cabin.

'I knew you will know about it one day and come to meet me,' she said as she sat on the chair.

'Just one question. Why did he marry me when he loved you?' I asked.

'First sit down,' she gestured towards the chair and we sat down.

My eyes went towards her hand and I noticed my engagement ring in her ring finger. Sohum had taken it with him to write our initials in the inside but then, within three to four days he died so I never thought much about it.

'Show me your ring?' I said and she got surprised.

I had given him the ring few days before he died because I wanted our initials carved inside the ring but then he died in some days and I didn't think about the ring much.

'That day we had a fight and to calm me down, he gave me your ring with our initials inside it to make me happy,' she said and gave me the ring. I looked inside it to see that "S & A" was written inside it.

I was speechless after she showed me the ring. God! I was so stupid.

'Sohum's parents were forcing him so I was the only one who gave him the idea to get married so that they will become quiet,' she answered my previous question as I gave her the ring back.

'And ruin that girl's life?'

'I am sorry,' she said.

'No. You are not sorry. You knew what you were doing was wrong and still chose to do it,' I said and she didn't say anything.

'Why didn't you get married to him?' I shouted.

'Because my husband was not giving me divorce, otherwise we would have got married even if his parents didnt accept me as I was a divorcee and older to him by eight years,' she said.

'My mother died while giving birth to me so I was raised by nannies as my dad was busy handling the company. My relation with my dad was cordial and we hardly talked. He never even attended parent teacher meeting in school. My nanny used to attend it so I never knew about both of my parent's love,' she started.

'After my graduation, my father handed this company to me as I was his only daughter and in two years I took this company to a new height and my father was very happy with me and one day he told me that he wants to get me married to his friend's son. Dad said he has his own company and has no problem with me managing my company. We met and he seemed nice so I agreed to marry him but on the first night of our marriage, he slapped me as I was crying in pain during sex,' she said and looked at Kabir.

'I don't want to share this in front of a man but I want to tell you and I am not sharing it so that you can have pity on me. I know what me and Sohum did to you was wrong but I just want to share it with you,' she said and looked at me.

'After that he started beating me everyday for small reasons like, I was one minute late in giving him water. I told my dad after few weeks but my father said that he will kill himself if I divorce my husband as people will laugh at him and mock him and he cannot tolerate that. From that day, I stopped talking with my dad,' she continued.

'After that day, I tried to be more soft and respectful with my husband so that he will change but he didn't change. I was just a sex toy for him. I used to work late in office so that he will sleep till I reach home and I do not have to sleep with him, but he waited till late night to have sex with me, used to beat me while doing it and then leave and in the morning also, he used to find reasons like, salt is less in food and beat me,' she continued further.

'I was tired of him but I had no other option than living with him. I asked him to give me divorce because if he gives me divorce, my dad can't say anything or will not blackmail me by saying that he will kill himself but he said that he wants to torture me till my last breathe and will never divorce me. In few months, my mental condition became so worst that I decided to jump from terrace of this office but that time Sohum saved me and hugged me tightly and I cried for hours in his arms. Before that Sohum was a mere employee but after that he became my entire world.' she said and tears started rolling down her cheeks.

'Slowly we became friends and then we became lovers. He showed me what love is, what good sex is and he showed me what care and affection is. My husband continued to rape me and beat me but now I survived it knowing that I will be in Sohum's arms in few hours. We used to spend hours in this office, or the farmhouse I brought so that we can stay together. I used to take him to work meetings out of the city and we used to enjoy a lot. He made me feel like, I was his entire world. He was everything to me. He cared for me like a mother, used to gossip with me like my best friend and gave me affection like a father,' she continued and tears were still rolling down her cheeks.

'Nobody loved me like Sohum did. It continued like this for six years and he used to avoid topics of marriage but as years went by, his parents were continuously pressuring him, he was also getting irritated and frustrated so I asked him to get married. He was surprised by my suggesstion and instantly refused but I insisted because if he gets married, his parents will leave him peacefully, but I took a promise from him to never fall in love with his wife or sleep with her and he agreed to get rid of his parents nagging,' she said and wiped her tears which were still rolling down her cheeks.

'You know, he liked you a lot. He always used to say that you are the best girl and he was guilty for ruining your life,' she continued.

'So if he had not died, were you guys going to continue like this for the rest of your life?' I asked angrily.

'We never talked about it. After he got married, we had a rule to never talk about his wife when we were together. And, I never talked about my husband in the first place,' she told me.

'He never loved me?' I asked.

'He used to care about a lot,' she replied.

'You guys had no right to ruin my life. I spent three years mourning for someone who never loved me,' I shouted.

'He cared lot for you, Kavya. I saw changes in him after he got married. He used to go home early. He used to eat tiffin made by you instead of eating tiffin brought by me. He used to spend some weekends with you without even calling or texting me once. After few months, I got very insecure and one day fought with him, but he made it clear that he is fond of you just like a good friend and wants to take care of you just like one friend does but he loves me and will always loves me,' he told me.

'Wow! I don't even know what to say. I am feeling like a third person who is coming between two people who loves each other,' I said.

'I also don't know what to say. He became more close to you after your mother died and that is why we were fighting everyday as I was feeling fear of loosing him. He tried to make me understand but I didn't understand and that time he gave me your ring to prove to me that he loves me.' she said.

My mother died due to a sudden heart attack a month before Sohum died. After my mother died, I came back home only after three days as I felt so lonely there even though dad and my brother and sister in law were there.

'After he died, I was so broken that I used to cry the whole day in office remembering each and every moment spend with him without doing any work and the company went into loss and it took me years to recover,' she shared with me but I didn't say anything.

'I am only thinking one thing. Would you and Sohum continue this for the rest of my life if he was alive?' I asked, again.

'I am sorry,' she apologized again.

'Okay. We will leave now,' I said.

'I am sorry for betraying you. I know you cannot forgive me but, still, I am apologizing,' she said genuinely.

'You should leave now, otherwise again your husband will torcher you,' I said and a big smile came on her lips.

'You know, I think Sohum blessed me from above because on the third day of Sohum's death, my husband died in a car accident and I left that house and now I stay in a rented house as I dont want to stay with my dad who chose society over his own daughter. My dad tries to call me but I cut the call and once or twice, he even visited my office but I did not let him se me,' she said.

'He is dead! Wow! That's actually a good news,' I was genuinely happy that she became free.

'Yes. Now I am living alone but I will never be able to know the reason of why he hated me so much, to beat and rape me everyday,' she said.

'Yes. That's true. Anyways, we will leave now. Let's never meet each other,' I said and her face fell.

Why is she sad?

Was she expecting me to forgive her after listening to her side of the story?

'Bye. I am sorry,' she apologized again but we left without saying anything.

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'Are you okay?' he asked as we sat in the car.

'For three years, I thought that Sohum loved me only to find out that he was betraying me.

'Take me to my home. I have to do something,' I said and he started the car without even questioning me.

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We reached my home and I took out our wedding album. I looked at it and realized that everything was only in my head. He never loved me.

Our marriage album was only memory of his as his photo frame had been destroyed and I even lost his chain, ring and cash given by my dad to him during robbery in my house.

(Robbery in Kavya's house is shown in chapter-29)

I took out the match box from the bedside drawer which I keep for emergencies and lit a matchstick and held it in the corner of the photo album and it started burning.

Kabir came and quickly threw the album from my hand.

'You are not hurt, right?' he asked and I hugged him tightly and started crying for everything.

'I hate Sohum. I hate him,' I mumbled in his hug and he broke our hug and kissed my forehead.

'Everything was a lie,' I shouted as he wiped my tears.

'Shh...calm down,' he said and again hugged me tightly.

'Everything was in my head. I thought he loved me but it was all in my head,'I said and continued crying in his hug.

He broke our hug and wiped my tears.

'Don't think about anything,' he said and tried to calm me down but I moved him aside and opened the cupboard and started keeping all his clothes in a big carrybag.

'Let's throw all his clothes on the way to your house,' I said and continued keeping all his clothes in it.

'Are you sure?' he asked as I closed the door of the cupboard.

'Yes,' I said and looked at the burnt album.

'Let's go,' he said and took the carry bag from my hand.

'Wait,' Again I opened the cupboard and took out my mangalsutra from the drawer.

'There's a river while going to your house, right? I will throw this mangalsutra in a river. God! I was such a fool,' I shouted at myself.

'Anyways, I don't want anything which belongs to him,' I said and left the room.

Kabir closed all the lights as I took the lock and key and shut the door and then locked it.

'You are sure you want to throw this, right?' he asked as he gestured towards the carry bag and I nodded as I gave my mangalsutra to him.

'Please throw this for me,' I said.

'Are you sure you really want to throw the mangalsutra along with his clothes,' he asked and I looked at the mangalsutra.

This mangalsutra meant so much to me as I thought it was given by my husband who loved me but he never loved me and betrayed me from the first day of our marriage.

Everything was a lie.

'I am sure. I want to throw this mangalsutra and all his clothes,' I gave it to him as we entered the lift.

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After we reached home, Shalini aunty asked us for permission to take Raj with her as they will leave early tomorrow and kabir agreed and aunty packed his bag and they left. After that we had our dinner silently.

After our dinner, I insisted that I will wash the utensils but he asked me to go and rest in the bedroom as it was a heavy day for me and started washing the utensils.

I went in his room and sat on the bed thinking about everything that happened today but my thoughts were broken when Kabir entered the room and sat beside me.

'Are you okay?' he asked.

'Yes. I am okay. It's just that I am feeling like a big fool to think that he loves me,' I said.

'You are not fool, Kavya. He was your husband and every girl loves her husband,' he said.

'But he never loved me. You love me. You made me realize what love is. You made me realize that love can be messy abd beautiful. You made me realize that in love, on some days, we fight like this is the end of the relationship and on somedays we stay in each other's arms for the whole day,' I said and he chuckled.

'Can you teach me about sex too?' I asked softly and he looked at me as if I have grown ten heads.

'Wh...at? Sex?' he tried to make sure.

'What? You don't want to have sex with me?' I asked.

'But, you said that all this is odd to you before marriage,' he said and he is right.

Yes. My thinking was that all this should not be done before marriage but look at what happened to me after following all the rules of society.

I became a fool as I was a girl who followed the rules of society.

'Baby, I will feel like the luckiest guy on the earth to have sex with you. Actually it is not sex, it is love making, but are you doing it just because you realized Sohum betrayed you or you actually want me to make love to you?' he asked.

'I did not think about all that. I just want to give myself to the man who actually loves me,' I emphasized on the word 'actually.' and he smiled.

'But, will I be a bad girl in your eyes if we have sex before marriage?' I asked him.

'Because I remember clearly what you said the last time I said that I want to have sex after marriage. You said that you are so lucky to have me as you have seen so many couples who are not married booking your hotel room and you are happy because your girlfriend wants to wait till marriage,' I continued as I remembered each and every word he said.

'That means you will think that I am a bad girl and you are unlucky as you are with a girl who wants to have sex before marriage,' I asked further without even waiting for him to answer it.

'Baby, I am lucky that you trust me so much to give your body to me even before we get married,' he said.

'Thank you for trusting me to show parts of yourself even before we are married which you have never shown to anybody,' he continued.

'But for you, couples who come to have sex in your hotel before marriage are bad, right? You have not said it directly but I assumed that you meant it,' I said and he became quiet for few seconds.

'Yes. You are right. I think, couples who come to my hotel before marriage are---

'How can you think like that? Maybe they love their partner very much but they have to postpone their marriage due to some personal reasons. Every girl who has sex before marriage is not a bad girl,' I cut him off.

'I am sorry to think like that. Now I will try to change myself and keep an open mind,' he said.

'Personally, I was against it until today, but I never judged couple who do it. Maybe they have personal reasons of not getting married,' I said again.

'You are too good for this world. You always think good about everybody,' he said.

'Being in love is different but what about girls who has different guys every three months? I have seen so many girls like this in college and even in my hotel,' he continued.

'Okay. I understood where you are coming from,' I said.

'And, maybe, you are right. I don't understand things and that's why, for Sohum it was easy to fool me, right?' I asked as he pulled me closer and again kissed my forehead.

'As I said earlier, you were just in love with your husband,' he said.

'By the way, you really want me to make love to you?' he asked.

'Yes,' I said softly.

'Will it really hurt as they show in the books?' I asked further.

'It hurts for the first time, baby. But if you give me the permission to make love to you, remember, I will not leave you until I mark each and every part of your body. And, another thing will be, I will want to do it will you every chance we get as I am obsessed with you, baby. Will you handle be able to handle this obsessed guy?' he asked but I didn't know what to answer.

'You can never imagine, how much I have waited to mark your whole body, I can't wait to be inside you, baby,' he exclaimed and I could see the desire in his eyes.

'But, we don't have precautions. I don't keep cond○ms at home. I never even needed it as I did not sleep with any girl. Today will be my first time too,' he said making me happy.

'That means I will also be the only one to see your body, right? I asked.

'Yes, baby.'

'Can't we go bare?' I asked and his eyes widened.

'Baby, once I feel you bare, I will never wear precautions,' he said.

'Don't wear it. My mom told me that men are happy when they do it bare and I want to make you happy,' I said genuinely.

I wanted to make him happy.

'Your mom told you?' he asked.

'She never used to talk with me about it but once I visited my mother two months after my marriage. I had not told her that me and Sohum did not get intimate as Sohum had asked me not to tell anybody. That time, during a conversation she said that, she heard from somewhere that a woman asked her husband to wear precaution and that leads to a divorce so I should never force my husband to wear còndom as men likes it bare,' I said and he smiled

'But what if you get pregnant?' he asked and I covered my face with my hand in shock.

'God! I did not think about that. I just wanted to make you happy,' I shouted.

'Thank you for thinking about my happiness. And, now that you mentioned about going bare inside you. I can't wear precaution now. Please, can I go bare? Please! I can't wait to be deep inside you without any barrier,' he pleaded.

'And don't take pills to prevent child birth. Those medicines does not suit everybody. One of my employee's wife died due to heart attack while taking birth control. I know it is rare and does not happen to everyone but I still don't want to take risk,' he continued making me smile.

'I did not even think about pills. I totally forgot about it even though I see the ad of the pill almost everyday,' I said and he chuckled.

'But, don't worry, I will not get pregnant so early,' I told him.

'How do you know about this?' he asked.

'Before mom died, she took me to our family astrologer. He is a very famous astrologer and we do everything after consulting him. Everything he says comes true and he told me that I will have baby after I turn thirty-four. Now I am twenty-eight years old,' I told him confidently.

'Do you believe in such stupid things? He didn't tell you that you Sohum is not right for you or you will become widow after getting married to Sohum?' he asked angrily.

'That time he was out of station and he does not know how to use mobile as he is very old. Sohum's parents said that they have consulted their astrologer and everything is good,' I told him.

'He only answers the questions we ask him. He does not tell us anything unless we question him and when mom took me after our marriage, she only asked the age I will be pregnant,' I continued further.

'So you don't have to wear precaution. I will not become pregnant,' I continued.

'I don't believe in all this stupid things,' he said.

'But I do! I will not get pregnant. Don't worry,' I said, again.

'You are stupid,' he said and suddenly tears rolled down my cheeks.

'I know. I know that I am stupid that's why Sohum and Aanchal could betray me. I wanted to make you happy so I asked you to not wear precaution. It is not for me. Heck, I don't even know how sex feels. It is for you but yes, I am stupid for wanting the happiness of the man I love,' I said and tried to get up but he held my hand.

'Where are you going?' he asked.

'In the balcony,' I said and tried to get up again but he didn't leave my hand.

'I am sorry,' he said as he wiped my tears.

'I love that you love me so much that your only goal is my happiness,' he said as he kissed my cheeks.

'Okay. I will go bare and even if you get pregnant, I will be by your side,' he said.

'I will not get pregnant,' Again, I said confidently.

'But I am glad to hear that, you are ready to stand by my side if I get pregnant even though after handling Raj since you were twenty years old, you realized that handling kids is a tough job,' I continued.

'When did I said it?' he asked.

'When we went to your farmhouse. You told me that when we were having Masala dosa in a hotel,' I said.

'I don't remember,' he said.

'But I do. But, don't worry, I will not get pregnant,' I assured him again and he nodded his head.

(Conversation of kids is shown in chapter 37.)

'Baby, for the last time I am asking you, are you sure about this? Because, if we start this I will not be able to stop as I am yearning for your body from the first day we met,' he said.

'What? From the first day we met?' I got confused.

'Nothing,' he said.

'Kabir, tell me the truth,' I insisted.

'I was attracted to you from the first day we met, but controlled my emotions and yearning for you, as I thought you were married,' he told me the truth and I was speechless for a second.

'Really? That's why you got angry whenever Ravi talked with me?' I asked.

'Yes. I got so angry at any guy who came close to you. I was so obsessed with you and your body and I am still obsessed. I have stopped myself so many times from pulling you and kissing you because I thought that you are married,' he told me. His confessions were really surprising me.

'And, I thought we are just friends,' I said.

'I thought it was just an attraction, but look at me now, falling completely in love with you,' he said.

'I don't know what to say. At first, you were just my good friend, nothing more,' I told him.

'And now?' he asked while looking in my eyes.

'Now, you are the man I love so much that I am ready to give myself to him,' I said and a big smile came on his face.

'Finally! You said that you love me,' he said and I realized that he was right. Till now, I had not confessed my love in front of him.

'I love you, Kabir,' I said it properly and within seconds he pulled me into a hug.

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