Holy fuck she was not fine. She barely eats anything, only on a liquid diet because she couldn't stomach any solid foods. She would throw up, have cold sweats or even sleepless nights.

She stares at herself, looking at herself in the mirror. Her face looked slimmer. Her eyes stoped shining. She traces the black eyes underneath her eyes. She traces her chapped lips and her bushy eyebrows.

Running through her daddy stuff, she found some makeup and brushes. She looks at the time 4:00 am. She washes her face with face wash, doing her usual skin care.

She stares at her hair, feeling it was too heavy to carry around. She cuts it into a layered cut. Almost like a short butterfly shaggy cut. Then proceeded to dye her hair black.

After washing off the color dye. She looks at the clock. Still early 5:10.

She experiments with some makeup. Scrubbing the flaky skin off her lips, applying a dark red lipstick with lip oil. She smiles, it was her color. She proceeds to cover her face in foundation. Curling her lashes and layering them with a mega volume mascara.

Her eyes she chose a more bold and smoky look. Mixing dark red with black, creating a red smoky look.

She trims and fills her eyebrow in with a dark powder.

Finally her wardrobe. It was mostly full of plaid skirts and animal print long sleeve sweaters.

She puts on a silk red short nightgown. Stoping just above her thighs, she slipped on some black fishnets. And wraps her silky neck with a black velvet choker. She slips in some black combat boots she had.

Finally she looks herself in the full body mirror of her room. A smile adorned her featured. She looked at herself amazed. Out with nerdy sweet Rachel Berry. Now she's Ray. A more confident version of herself.

She walked into the school, having everyone attention. Her old self would love the attention but now she side eyes them, not caring about the horny boys catcalling.

When she walked in to glee, all eyes were on her.

"OMG" Kurt stared at her with his hand covering his mouth.

"R-Rachel?" Finn stuttered looking at her up and down.

"Call me Ray." She spoke with an air of confidence and I don't give a fuckery.

"Holy shit. You look like an emo slut" Santana describes.

Look at Santana with an impassive expression. "Thank you."

"Rachel, I mean Ray, what happened to you?Why are you dressed....like that?" Mercedes looks at her.

"I just thought I'd look less like a pick me white bitch. A glow up was much needed." Sitting down with her legs crossed.

The club stared at her with the utmost flabbergasted expression ever. They whispered amongst themself: is this about the breakup? Damn Jesse what did you do? She looks hotter. She's scary.

Jesse clears his throats, "Rachel-"

"Ray." She didn't even look at his direction.

"Right...Ray...are you like this because of our breakup? I didn't mean to hurt-"

She finally looks up at him with icy brown eyes. "Do all boys make everything about themselves or just you St. James?"

Jesse was taken aback.

"Ray that wasn't-" Quinn began.

"Fabray. Shut up. Club is starting." She turned her attention to a Mr. Schue whose jaw was on the floor and speechless.

Quinn rapidly looks away.

Even Finn didn't dare cross the new and improved Rachel Berry. Santana bitchiness was water compared to Ray's. Ray truly said what she wanted without any filter. She would call out everyone's bullshit.

After class the club minus Ray got together.

"She's deflecting." Jesse began.

"Well she wasn't like this until she met you St. Jerk!" Finn glared at them angrily.

"How is it my fault she can't handle a breakup?" Jesse shot back.

"It's not about the breakup." Kurt interrupts them. "She's tired of falling in love. Jesse is right. She's deflecting her feelings. I mean think about it, Puckerman broke up with her for football."

"That was a mutual agreement" Noah countered.

"Still it hurt her. And Finn you can't ever choose what girl you want. You treat her second to everyone." Kurt continued.

Finn looks away knowing that his confused feelings hurt her.

"And Jesse, you made it feel like she was in the wrong the entire time. When she slipped up all you did was curse her out instead of communicating like a healthy relationship" Kurt calls him out.

Jesse feels angry. He didn't make it about himself. Rachel was conceded and always thought about herself. He didn't want this monster, this was never his intention.

"It's no wonder she shut herself in, and we the glee club aren't any better. All we did was shut her out. She felt alone and used. She clearly needs help!" Kurt looks heartbroken, the entire club has lost Rachel Berry, now Ray.

She claps her hands walking in the club, an amused expression on her face. "You know you should've waited until I left to have this little meeting."

They all turned to Ray, not knowing what to say since she caught them.

"That part of glee club shutting me out was poetic Hummel. What was it you said. 'She felt alone and used.' Almost brought tears to my eyes."

It was like staring at a hot villainess. They made this. They made her. And now they want to fix it. But how? She changed not only her attire but her entire personality. What's next? Will she change her goals?

"Ray, I want to say behalf all of New Directions, that we are truly sorry" he tried to hold her hand.

"Apology accepted" she shrugs not really caring about it.

"Ray, we truly mean it" Mercedes replied.

"I heard the first time Jones, I'm not deaf. I already said apology accepted."

Even Santana remained quiet. Brittany was afraid of Ray.

She walked away leaving everyone with a heavy feeling in their hearts.

At home she felt nauseous again. Like she was ran over by a truck.

She wasn't an idiot, she knew that there was something wrong with her body. She could practically feel something inside her.

Deciding she had enough she went to a drug store and bought a pregnancy test. She opened the box and read the instructions for proper use. After some time passed by she looks at the long thin rectangular item.

"Fuck."