The first time I ever hurt myself I was thirteen,the last time I hurt myself I was seventeen. I can still remember the pain,it's like a snake bite. Uncontrollable. It's scary really,what you can do to yourself.

I stare in the mirror,my hair in a bun,wearing a long black dress with tights and black heels.

"You ready?" Thomas asks me,peeking his head round the door,wearing a dark suit.
"Yeah."

We sit through the service,talking about Ben,talking about his life,Jal walks up to the stage,years all ready in her eyes as she begins to speech.

"I don't know what Ben would want me to say today. That he wouldn't of wanted it all to end like this,or maybe that he wanted to be a millionaire. I remember when he was little,he liked comments,well he was obsessed. He wanted to be a Superhero,he ran round in this cape,helping everyone. And everyone loved him. He never really saved everyone,except for me. He was my hero,even when he didn't even know he was doing something special he still was making me smile. And I can't thank him enough."

I can feel the tears in my eyes as Thomas squeezes my hand,I wipe with my other hand the tears. Looking down so no one else can see me. We sing a few songs from a book then walk outside as the Coffin is lowered into the ground. I just watch it,imaging Ben inside. Jal stands beside me and I hook my hand into hers...

We all say our final goodbyes then soil is dropped onto the base of the Coffin. Everyone starts to descend after that,including me and Thomas. He's about to start the car when I see Jal's still there,sitting cross legged on the floor next to the coffin.

"You go home. I'll be back soon."
"Okay,bye."
"Bye."

I walk over,sitting next to her ad I wrap an arm around her shoulder.

"It's okay." I say to her.
"No it's not."
"You spoke beautifully."
"Thanks."
"Ben wouldn't want you thinking like this and you know it."
"I'm okay,I just feel like I could smash up a building right now."
"Well I don't think you could that but maybe cause some damage."
"What do you mean?"
"We could give Max the payback he deserves. I've still got those cans."
"Really?"
"Course."
"Okay."

We get changed into casual clothes then get a backpack stuffed with the paint,it doesn't take long to get to the office. I still have my old Key Card which scans me and Jal in,once we arrive at the correct floor we first walk into Ben'e office and the horror meets or eyes.

It's like he was never here,cream walls have been painted over the white,same for the graffiti.

"What happened?" Jal asks,wandering around the office.
"Let it out." I say,pulling out my bag and throwing her a can.
"What am I supposed to write?"
"Anything,just what you feel."
"Right."

She sprays all over the wall,like an expert.

DONT FORGET BEN,NEVER FORGET HIM

"Nice!" I say once she's done "Feeling any better?"
"Not much change."
"Well of you want to do anything else do it quick."

MAX IS A WASTE OF SPACE

"Come on,let's go Margo!"

Jal grabs me and we briskly walk out of the office,once we're quite far away we burst out into laughter,clutching each other.

"If only we could see his face!" Jal laughs.
"I can just imagine it!"
"Thanks Margo."
"No,thank you."

We start to walk back to Jal's apartment.

"How long have you been here for?"
"A few months now."
"Did you leave for this job or something?"
"No."
"Then why did you?"
"It's a long story."
"I'm listening."
"I wanted to go somewhere.. Somewhere nice."