i dont usually rant / vent here but ive literally ran out of places where i dont feel annoying or just not safe

but like. im literally just so tired and it sucks, ive been trying so long now but ive gotten no where

people ALWAYS say that it will get better, but literally that doesnt help me?? it doesnt make me feel better??

im tired of waiting

and just when stuff seems okay, BOOM, some th ing happens

something ALWYAD happens and it always has to ruin eberyrhing

im tired and have 0 motivation for anything

i literally struggle to simply have a conversation

i cant talk to anyone irl with suddenly gettinf this feeling like, idk how to explain, but it jusr makes me want to shut down and cry

theres people who will simply say anyrhing and it gets me so mad for no reason, and it takes everything in me to not start a stupid argument over nothing

the amount of times ive thought about judt ghosting every single one of my friends is sad

and whats even more sad is that with each passinf moment, i want to do it more

i go from not eating for days to nonstop eating tor days

and i just want eveeyrhing to be over

and so to my lovely friends on discord, if it ever seems like im ignoring you, i am

if im ever on invisible for days in a row just leave me be

bc i always come back 😛