I know you care.
I know you love me.
But why..unless it's only me I feel like I dont matter..
unless I'm the only one you're talking to and the only one you hang out with why do I just want to die.
Why am I so strange.
So weird.
I dont deserve you.
Do I deserve myself.
Should I just give up and make everything easier.
No.
Yes.
No.
Yes.
Maybe.
All these thoughts in my head screaming.
Begging me to turn and just end it all.
Stop the suffering
The pain
Make it stop and go away.
I'm only going to hurt you
Why are you putting yourself through this
Is it for me
Because I'm really not worth it
I'm useless
A nobody
A freak
Why should you care
Why should you love me
Why
Why
Why
Make it stop