Vik
All those times when I said I never skipped school, only did cocaine once and was a good person? They were all lies. The drugs took away my pain, and I stopped for a while.

I'm stuck in this hole again.

And I'm here with you, Vikky.

Looks like the voices are back too. Now that Tobi and Harry are gone, I guess the drugs will have to take it away.

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It's early in the morning, that I'm aware of. Like 4am or something.

My room stinks of weed and I stopped smoking it about an hour ago. It's nicer to be high when people are around. Tobi still likes me, right? And Harry said he'd never done it before, I doubt Tobi has either.

V: hey cAn u n hary come to myne?

T: It's 4am? Are you okay? You haven't spoken since the hospital thing.

V: juSt coMe to mine

Satisfied with my call for friends, I cuddled into my blanket and waited on my phone. Too high to worry about the fact that Tobi and Harry can't get high with me. I wasn't sober in my thoughts anymore, I was careless.

I hear a knock at the door and go to unlock it. I stagger to the door and Tobi stands there with Harry.

"Hey guys!" I let them into my house.

"Vik, it stinks in here." Harry says.

I acknowledge his comment but don't reply. They follow me upstairs.

"Ugh! What is that smell!" Tobi asks as I open the door to my room.

The bed that I once laid on with Tobi seems unpleasant. I'm losing my high. I need more.

I flick the lighter and the weed is alight. I take a long drag and pass it to Harry. He holds it in confusion.

"You said you wouldn't let me do this!" He says. Tobi looks concerned.

"Yeah well now I'm saying you can." I retort. "What about you, pretty boy? You ever done weed?"

"I think we should put this down. And go to sleep." Tobi replies, taking the joint off of Harry.

Harry begins to make a little bed on the floor for himself.

"Come on Vik, you need a shower, you stink." Tobi guides me to the bathroom.

He puts the water on and starts leaving. I whine at him until he turns around, and I put my arms in the air.

"No vik, I have to go, I won't take advantage of you."

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