Hey Diary!

So... I've been told by the others to start revealing my TRUE feelings so.. I guess I'll write them here? Well.. alright...

Well.. I've not been doing well... I changed my nickname on the group chat by accident to how I TRUELY feel and... well... now everyones concerned. They shouldn't be...

I'm Thomas' feelings, i have to feel what he feels, and I... sorta feel what the others feeling in a sense? Its... very confusing... everything's just hitting... this quarantine shit... Thonas feeling bad... the others feeling bad.. me feeling bad..

I keep getting animals, the others are getting mad. Some of them are therapy animals. Bean and Coffee and Kiara and Ari are. They help we feel safe  each having a different role... the pups help me when my touch starvation hurts. I have Remy but...

Remy's changed because we got together... he doesn't do half the stuff he usually does. Because I'm fragile. Because of me. If he didnt HAVE me he'd be happy. Remus hates me because of fucking autocorrect correcting 'remys' to 'remus', ir because I accidentally pressed 'u' instead of 'y'. Janus doesn't hang around with us much, only Logan and Jan. Virgil seems annoyed and thinks its freaky I can talk to frogs, Emile isn't around, Roman isn't around, Thomas isn't around, Logan... well, he feels like me I think.. underrated...

I cant blame the others for ignoring me, not seeing my real feelings. I have to hide them, after all. I hold Thomas' happy feelings!... still hard to pretend I'm ok... that I dont see the 'voices' and the people across the fourth wall. They seem more... accepting... shall we say... to all of us than we are to each other...

Eh...

Anyways, I'll sign off for now, hopefully I feel better later. Imma eat a cookie now... jeez, I really am fat..

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4/6/2020