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Slap!

I hit him.

Hard.

Before he could utter something insulting or get even with me for the pain he was inflicted on, Kid saw my tears spilling down my cheeks.

"Bullshit." I snapped. My fist was trembling furiously, while my eyes flashed. "That's rich coming from someone like you, isn't it? Forget all about them?" I crunched my face, the entire body heat literally going up and reddening my skin. "Ha! Act like it's nothing you say?" I gazed at his red orbs, fixating myself to the wooden floor. "Do you even know what you are saying? Do you?! Don't you know how pathetic I now feel? Couldn't you have just rejected me like a normal person?! I know I'm just a brat to you, but...was it really necessary to be so blunt about it, selfish... and demand such a thing?!"

"Selfish?" His voice was far from composed. It was surprised, stunned at my claims and assumption. Kid' s face mottled crimson, his eyes widened, and his neck strained. It was time for me to look away and release all my frustration into deep, compulsive breathing. I moved a step away, but he pulled me by my waist and furiously grabbed me under the chin, consequently turning my attention back to him. 

Shifting my body, so it was tightly pressed to his, he spoke in a sleazy tone. "I'm selfish, huh?" The male's words were then spat out with the ferocity and rapidity of machine gun fire. "Fuck it then. Why not just do what I want?"

He slammed his lips to mine and nearly knocked all the wind from my lungs. It was a forced move that I had never expected to see, nevertheless, to experience right handed, as I sucked at the air like it had suddenly become thick and impossible to grasp.

"Mhmmm...S-stop i-t. K-kid!" I barely uttered, astonished at my clutching hands on his chest, not resisting and fighting back as I should have been doing. But the redhead didn't listen. I hardly had a moment to react, when he pressed his tongue to the seam of my lips in grant of access, but I managed to bit his lower lip before he could bring the kiss further into intimacy. Tasting the irony blood, he slightly retreaded however didn't back off completely. We stared at each other in an odd way, as if it were a silent argument. Our glances battled each other, while panting heavily. His thumb grazed off the thin layer of blood and licked it clean.

I exhaled deeply, my heart throbbing as if I had participated in a marathon. I would have wobbled to the floor, my legs bucking from the dizziness, if It weren't for Kid. "Surprised?" He whispered, his personality turning 360°.

"I don't understand." I said bluntly, brushing off the dried tears with the side of my palm.

Kid sighed to my response, rising his chalk white hand and easily swept it over the sensible skin, as if the wind was casually fluttering across the surface and not a weapon of an experienced killer. "Why? Are you that dumb, Y/n?" He leaned his head on my shoulder, not even an inch from the crock of my neck and hugged my back with the support of his two arms. The male's soft breath tickled my exposed skin in rhythmical intervals. "Aren't you being the selfish one now?"

"M-me?" I asked in a distressing tone. Why am I selfish? How?

"Cause I..." He stopped for a second then I noticed how his body tensed as if he was battling his inner demon before continuing speaking: " Cause I...Ah screw everything! Y/n, dammit, I want you!" He tightened the hold. "And it hurts so much... For I can't be the kind of guy you deserve to have."

After Kid had released me from the cage and set a small distance between us, he gently took my face, cupping it with his hands and making the physical difference between us even more noticeable. "Don't you get it?" He silently uttered, his eyes fixed on mine and not glancing anywhere but at me, as if he was scared I would simply evaporate into nothingness.

I shook my head. No, I don't.

"If you stay with me, there will be no future for you. You will be targeted, people will try to kill you. And one day...You will blame me for this kind of life. I don't want to strip you of your freedom. So, to prevent the catastrophe before even occurring, I need to let you go."

I hesitantly looked up. My hand was frailty and caution, shaking gently until both of our skins met on his bruised surface and I brushed the blood from his lip. "But what if I don't care about that?" I swallowed. "Shouldn't it be easy? I'm just crazy in love with a crazy guy that always gets what he wants while doing crazy stunts with his crazy friends." I lightly smiled. My thumb caressed his sharp cheekbone before continuing. "Kid...I have made my decision long ago. And I'm not backing away. Not now, not later. Simple." The swirls of emotion I saw in his reflecting orbs made me gasp. Lust and desire. However, before I could ponder about it further, he yanked me towards him and covered my mouth with his in a hungry kiss.

Our second kiss.

"Let me correct myself then." He grinned, after ending the intimate touch. "If you decide to leave me one day, I will fucking make you fall in love with me all over again."

"O-oh." I tersely uttered. Something strange obsessed me to put my hand on my stomach, surely to build a safe barrier between the open space and the butterflies that fluttered inside. And for the first time I noticed how under-dressed I was. Only an oversized white t-shirt and comfy short trousers, that barely covered anything, were exposed to the redhead guy that confidently and shamelessly stood before me. Mortified by the conclusion, I squirmed with embarrassment, as his mirth erupted deep from his throat. "You are blushing again."

"Am not."

Then I heard it. A peculiar jump from the person I fought I knew, to a totally unbelievable version of someone I obsessed over, more than I should. The most genuine laughter ever. His eyes were half closed and he grinned like a Cheshire cat, happy and content. "I won't do anything hasty. At least for now." Kid had buried his nose into my hair before deeply inhaling. "Mhmm, you are only mine now, mousy."

"Who said I was your property?" I smiled oddly. If it were another guy, I would have already kicked him it the shin. But because Kid was the one who said it, I actually couldn't help myself to just obediently except his decision.

"Me. Cause if someone dares to just fucking look at you..." His voice wavered in excitement, exhilarated from the tension between us. "...I will kill the living shit out of him."

"How...Poetic..." I complimented, indulging the vulgar words he used as frequent as a puberty teenager in high school. Though, his were harsher and literally able to suffocate you in the icy feeling of unescapable danger.

"Now, say it again." Kid demanded.

"What?"

"You know what. I want to hear it again. Loud and clear...Your confession."

"I-I already told you." I squinted towards the door, quietly planning my escape from the volatile giant that held such ferocity for sadism and couldn't wait to torture his victims. One of them currently being me.

"Not enough. One more time." He whispered in a sultry voice.

"It's too embarrassing... " I finally spoke, cursing myself for ruining my auspicious breakaway to freedom. I was stuck with the guy I liked and these damn lovely-dovely hormones that gave me an abominable headache.

"Try." Kid murmured slowly, prolonging each letter as if to savor them. I smiled, my heart fluttering at his voice as I clasped my hands on either side of his face and took a deep breath.

"I-I...I-I love you..."

Barely making a sound, he replies in his low, husky voice, while our foreheads rested on each other. "

Thank you."

To be continued...