jem

6:22 AM

i fell asleep on you again im so sorry

ill see you at today's game?

gc ng mga walang papa

8:11 AM

gwenny

nakapagpalam na ko kay mother gothel 🥵

ill see u tonight girls!!!!

ang hindi naka-costume, panget

ANG MAGMAMATCHING COSTUME, PATAY

Ronnie

@Yvanna 💀

Yvanna

what hahahahahah

good morning din to you guys 🙄😬

gwenny

ano na balak ni vargas ma

Ronnie

Lowkey nga, diba?

gwenny

oo nga pero ano muna kayo 🤩

Yvanna

masaya

gwenny

may new favorite fruit si yvs

Ronnie

Ano?

gwenny

anovacosayo

Yvanna

HAH. FUNNY.

Ronnie

New favorite na kinakain din.

gwenny

ano

Ronnie

Yung mga salita niyang "people can like him all they want. that's not my job."

gwenny

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

God's gift nga daw ang pagmumukha 🤩

Yvanna

I HATE YOU GUYS

may first kiss na ko ha!!!! @gwenny

gwenny

ma mas maiinggit pa ko pag sinabi mong may papa ka

pero tbf he's a gentleman ah

and bukod sa happier, mas naalagaan na ni yvs sarili niya

Ronnie

Ah, yeah.

Hindi na siya nagpupuyat until 4AM because hindi makatulog utak niya, and someone other than us is reminding her to eat and drink during her spirals.

gwenny

uti threat, be gone

Yvanna

i want to strangle him

Ronnie

Translation: I want to kiss him.

Yvanna

he's so annoying

gwenny

translation: he's so cute 😍😍😍😍

Yvanna

i cant stand him

Ronnie

Translation: I can't stop thinking about him.

Yvanna

I HATE HIM

AND YOU GUYS

ANG AGA AGA HA

gwenny

translation: BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM 😍😍😍😍

Yvanna

GOODBYE!!!!

Ronnie

AKA mag-aayos na siya for his game.

gwenny

ME NEXT PLS

jem

8:30 AM

Hey, you.

It's okay, that was the goal. :)

We're leaving na since the AWBT is playing first.

Ba't ang aga mo gumising?

i have a deadline

i think i procrastinated too much sa article mo

Shit. Is it my fault?

no. yes. kind of

remember how i said it's harder to write you now?

before, king eagle was enough of a frame. now I keep reaching for things i can't put in the article and it's slowing me down. and i can't unknow any of it. so i have to pull it back and start over

yeah, im blaming you

there's a difference between writing about someone and writing about someone you know. i wasn't prepared for that to be as different as it is.

Sorry, baby.

But the solution's simple, isn't it? Don't give them everything

You know the basketball player, too. You've been watching him all season.

i know, but it feels like everything i write feels incomplete because i know the "multitudes" or "layers" underneath it

Then let it be incomplete.

Keep some of me to yourself, ipagdamot mo rin ako.

i'm trying, but

🔒 @yvannugh

you've made words very difficult for me and i'm a writer. words are supposed to be easy to me, words are my friends. were. that's unforgivable actually. i have all these thoughts and notes and material and none of it wants to behave on the page because every sentence i write about you feels like it's giving something away.

🔒 @yvannugh

you are impossibly, impossibly singular, and you've imprisoned yourself in the crevices of my mind and i cannot write around you—i keep writing toward you, unconsciously, every sentence finds its way back to you without my permission

🔒 @yvannugh

around you, i laugh too soon, speak too fast, say things i don't mean to say out loud, every sentence a failed attempt at composure—my body has decided you are something to survive, softening where i mean to be sharp, stumbling where i mean to be sure. i sit down to write about basketball and end up somewhere else entirely with my heart split open

🔒 @yvannugh

my pen keeps finding you at the end of every thought. i hate it. i also don't.

jem

8:44 AM

But?

You there, Reporter Barbie? Use your words.

🔒 @yvannugh

i don't have them. being silenced by my own feelings is the most humiliating thing that's ever happened to me.

jem

8:45 AM

i'm trying but you're just very hard to contain in a word count.

Ah, how complex of me. :)

I'll let you focus first, but don't forget to eat.

And I'll see you later.

yes pooo ingat

You also, Reporter Barbie. :)