~Los Angeles,

•07/16 {Wednesday, 9: 39 A.M}

~*~ Dorian ~*~

"I gave you some time, now I need you to explain to me what was going on in that bathroom." Lani stood in front of me with her arms folded across her chest. 

I rolled my eyes and decided to ignore her. I was already mad at this woman for interrupting me, so talking to her was out of the window. I knew I was only going to curse her out anyways. Plus, she had no right to require answers that weren't meant for her to hear. It was my life, I was grown and I owned her absolutely nothing, so she could walk away with her bullshit. 

"Move. I can't watch the TV." I wasn't really focused on the show, I just wanted her to leave me alone like she'd been doing since what happened, a week ago. She sighed in desperation and next thing I know the remote was snatched off my hand and the screen was then black; "Don't play with my nerves, it's a very bad idea." 

She frowned, "I'm not playing with your nerves."

"Yes you are and it's starting to really piss me off." I said through gritted teeth. I was trying my best to not raise my voice at her, but it was harder as she was still insisting for me to explain things that weren't her business. 

"Dorian..." She trailed off staring at me with worried eyes. 

"I came here to relax, please let me just do that."

"I will let you just do it after you'll have talked to me. This is serious, Dorian. You attempt s-"

That's when I lost it, "SHUT UP ! "  

I stood on my feet faster than expected and I pushed her, causing her falling on the floor. I was sick and tired of people. I simply wanted them to leave me alone. I wanted to be by myself and try to deal with my personal problems without everybody trying to be all in it. First, there was my PO, that was constantly threatening me to put me back in jail if I don't do this or that; then I have to go to these stupid therapy sessions, where they were forcing me to open up and I didn't want to do that; in addition I wasn't talking to my mother and I was not on good terms with RJ either. My mother counted a lot to me, I even killed a man -MY DAD- for her, but it didn't prevent her to betray me. And RJ was my cousin, my best friend, my brother from another set of parents, we did everything together and now we were acting like total strangers. A lot was going on, too much even and I was over it all. 

"Hey ! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING, MAN ?! " RJ came from his bedroom and punched me in my right eye. 

I fall as well and hold my eye still shaken from the choc, "Are you fucking stupid ?! I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU ! " I yelled getting even more upset as he was helping his girlfriend up. 

"You guys stop ! RJ, why did you punch him ? You didn't need to do that."

He looked at her like she was crazy, "Are you fucking serious right now ?! You're defending him ?! REALLY ?! "

I groaned in pain while trying to get back on my feet too; "Don't raise your fucking voice at her, she did nothing to you ! "

"Oh ! So now you're defending her too ?! After you just fucking pushed her ?! What the fuck is going on ?! Are y'all sleeping together behind my back ?! " He was getting in Lani's face as the anger was taking over him. What meant that he was going to lose it also. And only God knew what a mad Willkingston was capable of in this state. 

I got up and separated them, placing myself before my cousin to prevent him from hurting the love of his life. This guys was crazy/drug in love with her and he told me several times in the past that if he ever finds out about her cheating on him, he would kill both of them, so her and the other guy. 

"Calm down ! She's not cheating ! And I would never do that to you ! "

"Oh and how can I be so sure about that ?! HUH ?! I don't even know who you are anymore ! "

"I know we're not the best of friends lately, but I would NEVER do that to you ! You're my little brother, my family, my blood and I would NEVER in my life hurt you like that ! " I told him making a strong eye contact with him. My words were sincere and he could also see the truth in my eyes and even hear it in the tone of voice I was using. 

He stayed silent as his chest was going up and down less faster. He was calming down, "So...Y'all are not fucking ? "

"Can y'all stop saying that word for a few minutes ? Thank you ! " Lani said behind me shaking her head. 

"Of course no ! " I answered as I felt an uncomfortable sensation in my injured eye, "Ouch." I exclaimed covering it with my right hand. 

"Are you okay ? " Lani asked placing a hand on my shoulder. 

RJ sighed looking at me regretfully, "Sorry..." 

I fanned him off, "It's fine. I deserved it." I turned towards Laylani, "I'm sorry for pushing you like that. I didn't mean t- it's ju- I- I don't know what to really say, except sorry. I'm truly sorry." 

"It's alright. I'm fine." 

∫

∫

∫

"Hey." 

I opened my eyes and followed the sound of the voice. There she was standing observing me, "Since what happened earlier, you shouldn't be here."

"This is the first and last time you're pushing me, next time I'll cut your balls and force them through your throat." I heard her, "And RJ and I talked, everything is back to normal...well, almost."

I bit on my bottom lip as she sat on the edge of my bed, "You told him ? " I asked nervously while my heartbeat was speeding a bit. No lie, I was scared of RJ's reaction. What was he going to think of me ? 

She slowly shook her head left to right, "No. It's not my place to tell him. How are you though ? "

I shrugged sitting up, "I don't know..." 

"Are those therapy sessions even doing something ? I mean...You..." I saw a single tear falling on her right cheek and I immediately wiped it away. It was warming up my heart to see her so concerned about me. We didn't know each other for too long and she was already treating me like family, "I'm really worried about you, Dorian." 

"Don't be, I'll be fine."

"Promise me to never do this again, okay ? " She held her pinky out, "Promise me and keep that promise. Please, never harm yourself like that again." 

I looked at her for a couple of seconds and intervened my pinky with her, "I promise. It was the very first and last time." 

"You really sacred me." She exhaled heavily and in relief, "Are you going to tell RJ though ? You two need to have a serious talk." 

"I agree." We both startled as we finally noticed my cousin that was standing in the doorway, leaned on the door with his arms crossed.

"Please, don't fight." Lani stood up and left, giving my cousin and I some privacy. We stared at each other for five entire minutes before RJ decided to break the silence and so the thick tension as well. It's been a little bit more than one month since I got out of jail and since then it felt like RJ and I were beefing, and for stupid reasons. Like, we had nothing to be really angry about to start with, but we were mad at each other for awhile now and seemed like today was the day we were going to make amends. Hopefully, we'll be best friends again at the end of this conversation. 

"How is your eye ? " 

"I'm not dead, so I think I'm fine."

He nodded and sat on the desk chair, "So...? " He rubbed his hands together, then rubbed them on his lap and then scratched the back of his head. He was nervous, I was too, but we had to do this. It was now or never. 

"Uh..." I licked my bottom lip, "I'm sorry for the way I've been acting these past days. I'm truly grateful to have a cousin like you, someone I can trust and who will always be there for me no matter what. I was being an asshole, but despite my crazy behavior, you let me stay here and kept taking care of me. So thank you and I'm sorry for everything."

"Apologies accepted." He nodded his head with a little smile on the corner of his lips, "I want to apologize as well. I'm sorry for not have been more comprehensible with you and what you'd been through. I should have taken it easier. I shouldn't have forced you to open up and attacked you for being...how you are/became. You went through a lot and it's already not too easy to adjust to your new environnement and new life, and with me putting more pressure on you to do the right things the right way, now I understood that I have absolutely no right to do this. But, I just wanted you to have your shit together and pick everything where we left it. I thought it was going to be the same, like when we were in high school, but things obviously changed since seven years. We're adults now, you've been out of jail since not even two months, I have a girlfriend with whom the relationship is serious and we have so much more responsibilities than seven years ago. I guess we didn't know how to really deal with the whole situation, huh ? "

"Apologizes accepted. And yeah. Uh..." I frowned wondering how I was going to tell him what happened last week, "I have to tell you something and it's very serious." 

"Is it about what Lani and you were discussing ? " 

"Yes." I responded and turned my head, then slowly lifted my jacket's sleeve to show him my forearm that was now covered with a bandage.

He knitted one's brows, "What..." 

"Last week, when Lani and I came back from outside pretty late and we told you that we were at the movie theater and then ate something at Chipotle, it was a lie. She, uh..." I cleared my throat, "I broke the mirror in the bathroom and then shoved a piece of glass in my forearm, and she arrived when I was doing that and then she took me to the hospital. We told the doctor it was an accident, so they couldn't bother us with their bullshit."

He squinted his eyes at me, "Their bullshit ?! You're on some bullshit ! And my girlfriend too ! What the fuck ?! LAYLANI ! COME HERE ! "

I rolled my eyes, "Don't be dramatic. I won't do it again. I promise Lani." 

"Why are you yelling for ? " She came in confused. 

"You two are crazy if y'all thought I was just going to let-"

"Listen ! I told you because I wanted you to know and not because I wanted you to make a damn scene ! Sit your yellow ass down ! " 

"RJ, he promised me to never do it again and I believed him, you should too. It was a mistake." 

"A mistake ? A mistake ?! " He groaned wiping his face in frustration, "Okay." He took a deep breath, "I'm going to keep two close eyes on you. But honestly I think we should take your crazy ass to the mental-"

I had to cut him off, because he was getting on my nerves. Like Laylani said, it was a mistake and as I promised I will never do it again. I knew he was reacting like that because he cared for and was worried about me, but he had to also trust me; " I'm not crazy. I- " Thinking about Aria broke my heart a little bit more. 

"You what ? " He asked putting his hands on his hips. 

"I met that little girl at the hospital when I was working there, her name was Aria. She's Herica's aka Herica big booty from high school daughter-"

He raised his hand, "Wait ! " He sighed shaking his head, "You have a kid ? "

"No. I thought she was at first, but she's...well wasn't my child. Short story, she had leukemia and had a transplant last week and she died." Saying it, I couldn't help as I broke down in tears. I was holding this within me since last week. I hadn't talked about the tragedy since then, not even to Dr.Khimona when we had another session. I felt a little bit free by talking about this with RJ and Lani. 

Talking about Dr.Khimona, she didn't look neither act like herself last Thursday. Her eyes were empty, she hadn't makeup on and she wasn't wearing a suit as usual, but regular clothes. And her voice sounded grey, there was no life in it. She was acting like a zombie and it was frightening. I didn't question her, because I felt that whatever was going in her life was none of my business, and maybe she was just having a bad day. 

"Aww, Dorian. I'm so sorry." Lani said about to cry too. 

RJ sat next to me, "Uh...Do you want a hug ? "

"No, I'm fine." I said wiping my eyes. I didn't want them to see me this way, but I couldn't control myself this time. I had to let it go, "Can y'all leave me alone, please ? "

They both nodded, "Of course." They answered in unison before to make their way out. 

I groaned, "C'mon." I sniffed as more tears were coming, "Stop it. Now." I told myself hoping the water was going to dry as fast as it came out of my eyes. 

I had always hated crying. 

__________________________

Comment and/or vote =) 

•A/N: Hope you enjoyed the chapter. I have another one for you. Yes ! Two updates on one day 😜

THANKS FOR READING ! 💗

HAPPY HOLIDAYS ! 💞

CissyItsMe 💋✌🏾❤️