Gummy's POV

I sit in my room for the last night, I've decided that even though Namjoon's funeral was today. I need to start my new and normal life as soon as possible. There's no time to wait, and I know that Namjoon will be there with me every step of the way.

After Sehun has given me the envelope,he said that he'd give me the number of my grandmother. Apparently, she's still alive. Not much of a surprise to me, I get my strength from my mother's side of the family. Though I have no strength at this moment.

I'm sort of nervous about becoming normal, getting a job with people who don't have multiple skills that can kill a person. I won't be able to use any of my martial art skills, but I do believe that my computer skills will come in handy.

I stare down at the envelope, snapping out the all the thoughts of being normal. My fingers running over the pen lines of my name. Tears filling my eyes, I can't even see my name on the front of the envelope anymore. "You can do this, I know you can," I tell myself. I slowly start to gently open the envelope, not wanting to rip the paper. I pull the paper out, turns out to be two papers. I press the papers against my nose, it smells like him.

I take a deep breath and unfold the papers, bracing myself to read it.

-

Jiyeon,

If you're reading this letter right now, it's because I was killed during this mission and Sehun has given you this letter I wrote to you. 'When the hell did you write this letter' you may be asking yourself at this moment.

I wrote this letter while you were sleeping, two nights after I asked you to marry me and we made love. In the safe house located in Korea, in our room, as you slept soundly in the bed we once shared just for that night.

Shit, this sucks so bad to even think that I didn't make it. I thought I was bad ass enough. As long as you're still alive, that's all I care about.

As I sit here tonight thinking about the possibility that I'm dead, boggles my mind.

I will never forget you Jiyeon, never. You will always be my ride or die, even if our ride has come to an end.

I know that I've been a dick about everything on this mission, but you're the only person who has kept me sane. You kept me on check and put up with me.

I will forever be grateful for you, I know we've been together for years.. but I want you to be strong. Be strong for me, I want you to do what you know is best. And in the future I want you to find a man who will love you better than I ever did. A man who could keep you safe.

Fuck, I told myself I wouldn't cry.

In my last days before my life's end, I'm happy I got to spend it with you. I will never forget your warmth, kiss, touch, voice, and smell. You're my always, and it's okay if our always wasn't meant to last forever.

It's a shame that we could never have a family together or even a normal life. I wish I could give the world to you, and have all the problems and nasty people go away.

Stay safe, I don't want you to live less than you should. Please, live a normal life for me and don't stay in the company forever. I know Sehun will understand.

You're a strong woman, I know you are. And you will do great things with your life. Like the great things, you've done for me. You made a cold heart warm again, a straight face smile, a rough guy soft and an unlovable man lovable. My dimple is only for you.

Don't cry over me all the time, don't waste your life on me. I want you to be happy, honestly, move on as quickly as you could. Don't stay stuck on me, if an opportunity ever comes along. Take it, make me proud baby. I know you will.

With love,
Your Joonie
Kim Namjoon

-

My body shakes as I finish his letter, I'm unable to stop crying now. I can feel the texture of the paper where his tears fell and dried up. I refold the paper and bring it to my chest as I lay back on the bed a cry until my eyes go dry and I can no longer produce tears.

My heart aches in pain from the large chunk that is missing. "Namjoon." I whimper as I shut my eyes and try to imagine him holding me and loving me. I turn on my side and pull myself into the fetal position. I then read his letter over in my head, remembering all he said about me living a normal life.

I then think about the baby growing inside me, our baby. I hold my body and slowly nod, "Okay." I whisper. I spend the night crying myself to sleep, dreaming that Namjoon was still with me.

**
Jackson's POV

As I stand and look at myself in the body mirror I catch a glimpse of my coat that sends a shiver down my spine. CL walks out of the bathroom as she has changed into comfortable clothes. "You still seem tense." She whispers as she walks over to me.

"Because... I-I'm scared." She looks at me. "Why are you scared, Jackson?" She asks. I point to my coat and she walks over to it, sticking her hand into the pocket of it and she takes out an envelope with my name on it.

"What's this?" She asks. I grit my teeth together as I sit on the bed. "It's uh... from Namjoon." She looks at me startled. "Sehun gave it to me before we left headquarters. I was just as shocked as you are now." She joins me on the bed and hands it to me.

My hands shake as I hold it in my hand, all I can do is look at it. It grows silent for a long time and neither of us say a word. It's too quiet for comfort until a few minutes pass and CL finally says something. And it's like I'm able to breathe.

"Baby, you read it whenever you're ready. Don't rush into it." CL tells me, I slowly nod. She runs her hands up and down my back gently, trying not to hurt the lash scars. She sets her forehead on my temple and kisses my cheek. I feel choked up, a huge ball of emotion is stuck in my throat. Seeing my name on the envelope makes my eyes water like crazy.

I take a deep breath and look at her, "Can you read it for me?" I ask her. She sits up, "Are you sure?" She asks. "Yes," I say. She slowly nods and I hand it to her. She gently opens the envelope, before taking out the two papers inside the envelope. She takes a deep breath before she starts to read the letter aloud to me.

-

Jackson,

It's hard for me to write this letter not knowing if you're alive or not. I haven't been able to accept that there's a possibility that you're dead. I really can't imagine WPP without you.

It's been so hard for me to keep a straight face and pretend that I'm not worried about you. But I really can't think of future missions without you. You have been the closest thing to a brother that I've ever had.

I put up with your shit and you put up with mine. I can't imagine another person being my back-up than you. So I just pray that you're actually alive and you survived all the fucked up shit that Chuan did to you.

Sadly, if you're reading this right now, it means that I'm dead. But, the good thing is that you're alive.

This is the second letter I'm writing today, I've written one for Jiyeon.. and I thought that I should write one for you too.

Shit, Jackson... I really can't imagine you being dead. I can't even imagine myself being dead, but I guess I'm being too cocky.

Jackson, I've proposed to Jiyeon. If I'm completely honest, I'm scared. Thinking of the possibility that I won't make it. Promise me one thing, if I don't make it.. please don't let her stay in the company, she'll get herself killed on purpose.

I need her to live a normal life, I need her to live the life that I wanted to live with her. She's the love of my life.

Speaking of love. If you're reading this, you better not mess up with CL. I've said it once and I'll say it again, she'll beat your ass.

Live on brother, and promise me that you'll live on as the Boogeyman. You're my look alike anyway, with your copycat hair. Haha, I'll miss you bugging the shit out of me and punching you.

It was a pleasure working with you, Jackson Wang, I hope you live a long life. You're a hell of a guy. Thanks for watching my back.

Your partner,
The Boogeyman
Kim Namjoon

-

She holds me close as I cry, "It's okay." She whimpers as she cries as well. "Fuck man, why? Why Namjoon? This isn't fair." I cry. I wrap my arms around her, the tips of my fingers press against her back tightly. I feel the scabs of my wounds tearing as I hold onto her too tight, I grit my teeth as I start to feel pain in my fingers.

I turn away from her throw my fists into the mattress, the blood from my wounds starts to seep through the bandages around my fingers. "Jackson." CL cries as she holds me until I stop punching the mattress. I don't know why I'm acting this way, I was once a human and now I'm a rabid animal.

I collapse on the bed and grip the sheets, I grit my teeth as I purposely cause my fingers to bleed. "Jackson!! Stop it!" CL yells as she pulls me off the blanket and holds me, my face on her shoulder. I close my eyes and hold her gently, "P-Please don't l-leave me." I whimper as I hug her, I'm scared that she'd be taken from me.

My words seem to make her cry more, "I won't." She kisses my head and smoothens my hair. "I love you," I whisper as I look up at her. My eyes looking all over her face, her skin is pale. She has bags under her eyes and her eyes look swollen. "I love you." She responds to me. My eyebrows knit, I've been acting crazy.

"I'm sorry," I whisper, she shakes her head. "We all grieve in different ways." She tells me. I then sit up so that I'm at my true height, she looks at me. I caress her face gently and use my thumbs to wipe her tears away. I pull her towards me and I set my forehead against hers.

She sets her hands on my wrists and our eyes meet. She runs her hands into mine before intertwining our and she tilts her head to mine as she connects our lips. I instantly shut my eyes as I'm completely indulged in her taste.

We only take it slow, with gentle pulls, not going any farther nor faster.

**
Lalisa's POV

"I know it's a big decision, but I don't know whether I should make it or not," I tell him. He stares at me. "Look, if you don't want to do it, it has already been said that there will be men who will happily take the position. There's really nothing to worry about."

"And from what I've heard, Du Bongju is doing all he can to make everyone like him. He's been counting on your response since Chuan Juntasa died." I cringe at the name that once scared my people. I never thought I would have to hear it again. It makes me want to throw up and die, though I don't know why I feel like that. He's dead and can't hurt my people anymore.

I wish this would have happened before my mother died. I wish that he would have been killed a long time ago. I slowly look at him, "Sehun didn't exactly say that I could be part of the company, right?" He uses his tongue to give his lips moisture. "He might give you the position right away, remember? Gummy quit."

I slowly nod in response, then I think a lot about what I want in life. Do I want to be a robot for the rest of my life? Not knowing if I'll be alive tomorrow, depending on the circumstances of the mission? But, I'll have a family.

"BamBam.," I whisper. "Yes?" He asks. I stare into his dark brown eyes. Can I?

**
Authors POV
• Next day •
- Head Quarters

All five of them walk down the hall towards the elevator, all with a decision in their head.

Surprisingly enough, Sehun was already waiting for them outside his office. As if he already knew that they had arrived. He was a mysterious man with mysterious ways.

He waited until they all walked up to him before he invited them all into his office.

"Big day?" He asks as the door closes and he walks up to his desk. "Yes," Gummy says excitingly. "Please, do tell." Sehun smiles. Seeing Namjoon's girl smile, made him feel happy that he could be the one to cheer her up. "You said that my grandmother is still alive, and I made my decision that I want to live with her. Where ever she is, I want my baby to be raised the right way."

Sehun nods, "I had a feeling." He hands her a slip of paper. "You can call her, all this would be cleansing for her.. knowing that you're still alive." Gummy seemed to tear up to the sight of her new beginning. One call and she'd be a normal human. She gently took the paper from his fingers and pressed it to her chest, "Thank you." She whispered.

"Jackson, my boy. What'll it be since I seem to be the Wizard of Oz today." Sehun says. Jackson looks at CL, then back at his boss. "I know I'm in no position to start missions again, but I was hoping that I'd be able to go on vacation." Sehun slightly nods and rubs his chin. "That can be arranged, with CL I'm assuming." Jackson quickly nods.

"Okay, will do. But I'm begging you Jackson, please don't be reckless. Wrap that thing before you do anything, I don't need more good workers leaving." Sehun says, "I'll make sure." Jackson says.

Everyone's attention then directs to Lalisa, the biggest decision that would be made today. It's like everyone was on the top of their toes, waiting for her to say something.

She lets out a slow breath, it was a bit shaky.

"Sehun, I've come to make my decision." She starts, he nods. "I'd like to take the open position." She adds. "For Gummy?" He asks. "For Mafia Leader." She surprises everyone with her response. "L-Lalisa, you understand that this is a big responsibility?" It even has the boss shaken up. "I know that, but I can't risk another man taking that spot and being just like Chaun Juntasa. I want my people to feel safe and happy again."

"I want to rule like I was supposed to like my grandfather wanted me to. I refuse to let another man take my spot." Everyone is silent. "But I don't think I can do this alone, so BamBam is coming with me." BamBam nods in agreement, they had made the decision together last night.

Everyone is even more shocked, "We want to go home." BamBam says softly. "Have you talked to-", "We were hoping that you'd give us the contact information so we can do it ourselves," Lalisa says. Finally, a smile grows on Sehun's face. "You're gonna make a hell of a Leader, kid." He tells her, making her smile. "Thank you." She bows to him.

He quickly pulls up Du Bongju's number and hands it over to Lalisa. "It was certainly a pleasure having all of you here, I know Namjoon would have been happy about your decisions. God bless you." Sehun finishes the session in his office, giving everyone a handshake before everyone leaves the office.

**
Lalisa's POV

I can't hold back my tears as I hug Gummy goodbye. "I'm going to miss you so much." I cry as I hold her tight. "Nooo, don't cry. Now I'm crying." She sniffles as she holds me back. "I'm going to miss you, big sister," I tell her. We hug for only a bit before she pulls away. "Are you excited to be normal?" I ask her.

She lets out a nervous chuckle, "Aaah, I'm scared I'll be bad at it." I chuckle, "No you won't... Was your grandma happy to hear from you?" I ask her. She quickly nods, "We both started crying." I smile, I'm so happy for her. "We'll have to see each other again. I really don't want to lose a good friend like you."

"Of course, I'll have to come and visit you in Thailand." She smiles at me. "The both of you." She points at BamBam. Gummy says her goodbyes to CL and Jackson, she cries even more. Before she gets in the escort car and she is taken to her grandmother's house a couple cities down.

"I'm so happy for her." I hear CL. I nod in agreement. "I'm so happy for you!!" She exclaims as she hugs me tight. "You'll come visit me right?" I ask her. "Of course! We'll all have to come and visit you." She stands up straight and wiggles her eyebrows and BamBam and I. "The both of you." She teases. She then leans into my ear, "Please make babies."

I gasp and smack her shoulder, "CL!!" I whine as I hold my face as it gets really hot. She chuckles and Jackson then pulls me into a hug, I hug him tightly. "Thank you for everything Jackson, please be careful out there," I tell him. "Oh yeah, don't worry. I'm the new Boogeyman." He tells me, I smile.

"Everyone better be scared," I tell him. "They already are." I smile wider and look at the two together. "I hope you two have a great future together, and if you guys do think of being together... don't stay in the company too long." They nod. "Where are you both off to today? Starting off your vacation?"

They look at each other with huge smiles, "Hawaii, but we got to go get a new wardrobe since all our clothes are black." I chuckle, "Yeah, you guys deserve it." I nod. Jackson then becomes serious, "Now you be careful taking that spot." I nod.

"I will, don't worry," I reassure him. He points at BamBam, "You take care of her." He nods quickly. He then gives us that Jackson smile, "Take care you two." He then grabs ahold of CL's hand and they enter another escort car and drive off. I let out a breath, and hold my chest.

"It feels like I've lost so many pieces of me," I confess. "I know," he holds my hand. We watch the escort car pull up to us. "But at least I still have you," I tell him. He smiles and opens the car door for me. I get into the car and he follows me in, we are then greeted by a voice.

"Lalisa Manoban."

I hold my chest and a screen pulls out on the side of the car. "Du Bongju," I say. "It has come to my attention that you have some great news for me." He says. His hair is grey, his face has no hair on it but the bushy eyebrows above his twinkling eyes. "I will be taking my rightful spot, for my grandfather," I tell him, he smiles.

"That brings me much joy to hear, I was hoping that you would take the spot of your grandfather.", "You knew him?" I ask him. He slowly nods. "Yes, of course. He was one of the best leaders, he wanted you to be the best as well." I smile wide and look at BamBam.

"And who's this?" He asks. "My partner," I tell him. A bigger smile spreads across the man's face, "Youngblood is what we definitely need in the community. I know that Thailand will be relieved to know that they can breathe again." He tells me. I nod, "Yes, they will.", Welcome, Lalisa."

I feel joy run through my body. "Thank you so much." The call then ends and I lean against BamBam. "Oh my gosh, that gave me so much adrenaline," I confess to him. He smiles, I then stare at him. "Are you excited to be a leader with me?" I ask him. He nods, "I'm more than excited."

"We're going to be one hell of a pair, aren't we?" I ask. "Hell yeah, we are."

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