*Riddhi Pov*

"I am really glad we finally got time to talk." Shiv said, smiling at me and I slowly nodded before staring at the trees.

"I thought too much to say, but don't know what to say right now." He added, giving a small chuckle and I bit my lip before turning to look at him.

"Look, I know what I did was..." he started to say taking a deep breath, but I shook my head stopping him and he frowned at me.

I took a deep breath and started to say, "Look, I know you realized what happened that day and even during many incidents before that was completely wrong on your part."

"I even know that you feel guilty for everything that happened and wish that all of it didn't happen." I added and he slowly nodded.

"Now, you are trying your best to rectify your mistakes you felt you did and even succeeding in rectifying them." I slowly said and he again nodded.

"I know you regret leaving me in the first place and wish to do everything in your hands to never hurt me. And I know you will even succeed in it." I said and he immediately nodded.

"And I know you will be very careful so that your actions will not hurt me as you finally understood everything what to be done." I added and sighed.

"But! There is a but, right?" he asked, breaking the silence and I nodded without looking away.

"Yes! There is but for sure and a major one." I replied and he held his breath.

"I don't want all that from you. I don't want anything from you. I don't think it is good for us to enter any relation at all." I stated and he sat stunned.

"Why?" he slowly asked.

"Why?" I repeated his question and gave a small laugh hearing that.

"I am trying to repent, Riddhi. I know I am not doing a good job, but I am really trying and know the value of you and our relation." He said holding my hand but I shook my head.

"I am sorry for leaving you alone and for the way I handled everything which is harsh and I accept it with my whole heart." He immediately added.

"I don't want to think about any of those anymore, Shiv. It was all in the past and I don't want them to enter into any of my thoughts." I said shaking my head.

"I am not getting it, Riddhi. You were fine with me and even normal all these months. Why are talking today like this?" he asked frowning.

"Yes! I was normal with you like I was with everyone in the class. I moved on from you, Shiv. And that is the truth which I am trying to say from the day you asked for us to get together, but you were not listening." I replied, moving away from him and rubbed my forehead not knowing how to explain to him.

"Are you saying that you forgive me for those things, but can't forget?" he asked and I turned to stare at him shaking my head in negative.

"Then what are you doing with them, Riddhi?" he asked frowning.

"I am doing nothing with them. Understood? Nothing!" I replied, frowning back at him.

"You asked me my decision and I gave you mine and that's it." I said, feeling irritated for the way he is nearly accusing me for not choosing him.

"What will you do now?" he asked frowning.

"I will enjoy my life and meet someone and will fall in love." I replied honestly.

"Don't you understand, Riddhi? We both can't do that. We are so attached to each other and it is naturally with the time of relation we had and we will never be completely happy with others." He said sitting back on the bench and rubbed his forehead.

"I have really moved on, Shiv." I said sighing.

"You are saying that to hurt me, right?" he suddenly asked.

"No! You know, I would have come back to you more than happily if all this happened at the beginning of our break-up like within two to three months but now I realized too many things. I realized how a relation should be between two people. We shouldn't be hiding things or our feelings in these relations." I explained.

"Then why don't we try and fix them? Our love was and is always true to each other. You don't think my love was not true, right?" he suddenly.

"No! I know that you really loved me, but I can't be with you because you cheated on me, Shiv." I said and he stared back at me with shock.

"What? I never cheated on you, Riddhi. Trust me on this! I never even kissed her while we were together." He said still shock covering his face.

"You cheated on me, Shiv. And that too many times. You cheated on me when you started ignoring the bad things being said about the person you seem to be loving, so that one month friendship will not be disturbed. You cheated on me ignoring my hurt and caring for someone else's. You cheated on me giving in to the popular things and looking down on my identity and wishes." I said and he just stared at me.

"I should have never got attracted to her." He suddenly said, making me frown.

"Do you think that is your actual mistake? It is not at all mistake, Shiv." I said and he again looked at me with shock.

"Yes! Getting attracted to someone is not a wrong thing and it can happen to anyone, even after being in a relationship. What is wrong with it is giving a small attraction more attention than the love you feel for someone. How much time will attraction last? Unless it involves more than attraction, then a very little time. Is it really worth to run behind and leave the feelings you feel truly and not just an attraction for someone else?" I asked before sitting beside him.

"I don't know whether you will understand or not, but I really can't see any future of us without me thinking about all these and leave them behind. This time if we get together then I will be nothing but settling just because we had a great relation for six years no matter what." I bluntly said and he closed his eyes flinching hearing my words.

"We should have sat down and tried to work on our relation after you informed me about your attraction to someone else and then when we still feel it won't work then we should have broken up mutually. No one breaks up with a long time girlfriend and leave for tour leaving some money on the kitchen counter. And no one must just let it go if their boyfriend breaks up with them sitting calmly in self hurt." I continued sighing and he closed his eyes even more tightly.

"I know you must be thinking I am torturing you, but all these things were important and no one could forget them. And you need to move on too." I said closing my eyes.

"I can never move on from you, Riddhi. Didn't you see what happened with Sailu? How could I be with another girl at all?" he asked making me frown at him and I opened my eyes.

"When did I talk about dating another girl, Shiv? I was talking about you moving on from me. Never think that moving on from someone means getting into another relation. We should be completely free from the feelings towards out past otherwise it will be cruel to the person with whom you are being still with feelings for another." I said shaking my head.

"There must be a small chance, Riddhi. Any single chance, even a little." He said, holding my hand but I took it away.

"That's all I have to say to you, Shiv. I know I talked a lot about all these things. What can I do? A harsh break-up became a wake up call making me think about many things. I have really moved on which I am not saying with any inner motive." I said standing up.

"So, that's it?" he asked standing up.

"Will you go and be with someone else?" he asked with a pained look.

"I can give you a suggestion which helped me, Shiv. The major thing which helped me was with a thought installed in my head that you are not mine anymore and will never be mine which really worked. So, you should start thinking that I am not yours and will never be yours because that is the truth. This will help you and don't jump into a relationship with anyone without being sure of your feelings." I said and took a step to leave while he just walked away, making me frown.

I sighed and turned back to leave from the place and search for my parents as we need to be at Café for the celebration we are having.

"Riddhi!" I heard his voice and felt a tap on my shoulder.

I turned to see Shiv standing with a frown on his face. He moved his hand forward, handing me my cap, which I seemed to have left on the bench.

"Didn't you feel anything?" he suddenly asked.

"What?" I asked him frowning.

"I have been staring at you for the past five minutes. Didn't you feel my look like always?" he asked and I understood his question.

"It stopped even two months before our third semester holidays." I replied honestly and he slowly nodded looking away.

"Can we be at least friends and meet?" he asked taking a deep breath.

"No! I don't want to be anything with you. I just want you to be my past and that's all and nothing more." I replied and he stared at me with even more shock.

"Are you leaving me completely alone? Because I really love you, Riddhi." he asked in a low tone.

"You left me alone for someone more amazing than me and I am leaving you to have a chance to be with someone more amazing than you. You will be fine in your world and I will be fine in mine." I said and turned before walking away already knowing well I talked too much.

"Riddhi! Where were you? We have been searching for you." Dad said when I reached the canteen.

I stared at him and Mom who gave a relief sigh looking at me. I know I promised myself that I will never lie or hide anything from them.

So I smiled at him and said, "It's Nothing, Dad!"

"Are you sure?" he asked frowning.

"It is really nothing, Dad." I replied back.

"Are you..." he again started asking, but Mom groaned.

"How many times does she have to say that it was nothing? Let's go before we get late to our own celebration." Mom said shaking her head.

"So, we need not talk to anyone regarding anything important?" he asked when we three started walking towards the main gate with me between them.

"No!" I replied, shaking my head and I turned my head only to see Aunty hugging Shiv while rubbing his back.

"What happened?" Mom and Dad asked when I turned normally.

"It's nothing, guys!" I replied, smiling at them and we three walked away with my friend and many important people joining us to reach the café for the celebration we planned for ourselves.

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