❝No matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.❞

– Faraaz Kazi

It's been 2 years.

2 years since I last saw him.

2 years since I last spoke to him.

2 years since I've been as happy as I was with him.

3 years since I've wrote letters to him.

I miss him so much.

Today was the day we first met in sophomore year of high school, and now we're in our senior year of college.

"Ella Porter." Ms. Bell called out.

"Here." I said timidly.

"Aiden Parker." Ms. Bell called out.

"Here." Aiden replied.

He sat right behind me.

I turned around and started talking to him.

I was immediately attracted to him.

While talking to him, I realized that we were going to be amazing friends, and nothing would tear us apart.

At least that's what I had thought then.

James Parker was Aiden Parker's older brother.

Ever since Aiden and I stopped talking, I stopped associating with his brother.

It was just a coincidence that James and I went to the same college.

Aiden never really talked about his brother; his family was a touchy subject for him.

And I understood that, not everyone is an open book like me.

"I'm here because I needed to get a dress from your closet." Val said.

"VAL! HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU TO NOT SNEAK IN LIKE THAT!?" I yelled out, scared out of my mind.

"I don't know. I wasn't counting." Val said with a smirk.

"Ugh just go get whatever dress you want. I still don't see why you like my dresses better than your's. You're the one who chose my dresses." I said annoyed.

"I'm not so sure either." Val said while laughing.

I met Valerie Sparks at the beginning of our sophomore year of college.

She met me when I was at my lowest because that was when Aiden and I stopped talking.

She's an amazing girl. She gets along with everyone and knows how to live her life.

I don't think I'd be here without her.

I've only known her for 2 years, but it felt like forever.

Our friendship was beautiful.

"Hey El, can you zip me up?" Val called out.

"Yea sure. I'll be right there." I said while getting off the bed.

"You sure you don't want to come?" Val asked.

"Yea I'm positive." I said with a small smile.

"Okay. Well I'm going to go now." Val said.

"Okay, Have fun, and don't drink too much. And -"

"Last, but not least. Don't get attached to Parker." Val and I said together.

"I still don't understand what you have against Parker." Val said while walking out of my house.

"Maybe one day, I'll let you know." I replied.

I closed the door and went back upstairs. I took out my box of memories. The only memories that were important to me right now were the ones that contained Aiden.

For the past two years on this day, I've been looking through the memories Aiden and I had made. I don't look at the memories any other day. This is the only day I let myself cry about the things I let go. I make sure to not go through much, so that I have something to look at the next year; however, this year was going to be the last year because I only have one packet left to see in my box of memories.

I wasn't not sure what was in the packet until I opened it.

It was the letters.

The letters I wrote to Aiden.

They expressed the words I would never tell Aiden.

I wasn't so sure whether I was ready to read them again, so I decided to only a couple at a time. This time I'll let myself feel all emotions again so that I can read these letters. By reading these letters, I'll feel close to Aiden, even though, he was so far away from me. I needed to read these letters.