"Would you like some wine? I'd like to tell you about Jenny before we do anything else," Lindsey kissed her

Stevie nodded, but first went to check on the kids

They were both fast asleep, Evie's head pointing toward the end of the bed.

"Oh Evie..." Stevie giggled and swivelled her child around so her head was back on the pillow

"She reminds me so much of you," Lindsey said from the doorway, two glasses of wine in his hand

"Beautiful, and sweet, and a messy sleeper. Anything but stupid."

"I would die for her" she suddenly said seriously, stoking Evie's hair

"I would too," he approached the bed

"Yeah well we need to discuss that too"

"Come on," he led her into the living room and handed her a glass of wine

Taking a sip of it, she folded her legs underneath herself as she sat on the couch

Lindsey sat next to her and wrapped his arm around her, kissing the top of her head, "Where should we start."

"Where ever you want to" she told him

"Jenny," he told her, watching Stevie's fingers tighten on her wine glass

"I met her in the homeless shelter when I was looking for you, she was a volunteer." Stevie thought it was ironic that he fell in love with someone whilst looking for his love

"I bought her a coffee later to say thank you for helping me, we really hit it off. I don't want to make you uncomfortable with detail so I'll explain it this way, I walked her home, a few weeks later she told me that she was pregnant and nine months later David was born."

"Were you in love with her?" Stevie asked, running finger round the rim of the glass

"Yes, to a certain extent, but it was nothing compare to how I love you."

"Linds, it's alright if it was, you don't have to play it down"

"You couldn't help but not love her, she was so kind to everyone. I watched her take her coat off in the pouring rain and give it to a homeless person, she was five months pregnant!"

"She sounded really special...I can see why if she was still here you wouldn't want me" she smiled weakly

"She knew that you would always come first and it doesn't come down to not wanting you, it's loyalty."

"I understand Lindsey, but I just don't understand how you can want me so much right now, but if she was still here you wouldn't...I'm just struggling to grasp it"

"I would want you, I just wouldn't cheat on her."

"I don't think I'll ever understand but I'll try"

"I asked her to marry me when she told me that she was pregnant."

"I...I wish she was still here for you..."

"I do too, she would have adored David...she never got to properly meet him," his eyes began to mist

"I'm sorry..." Stevie said softly "If she was here you wouldn't be in pain" she added

Lindsey broke down into sobs, "They couldn't stop the bleeding! When they told me she was dying I took David from the nursery and brought him to her! I helped her hold him while she fed him. She was so weak she couldn't open her eyes or speak but she was crying! David and I sat with her all night until she passed," Lindsey cried, he obviously hadn't grieved or cried over Jenny yet.

Stevie was crying to, she realised now how much Jenny had meant to him

"I'm so sorry you had to go through that! I can't imagine the pain you would of felt" she held his hand tightly

"I'm terrified that David hates me because I don't know how to care for him! I feel like a failure to him! The doctor said that there could be some problems because he isn't getting ant breast milk and I can't afford the proper formula that gives him the same nutrients!"

"Of course he doesn't hate you, I've seen how he looks at you Linds! So what milk are you feeding him?" She asked

"The cheap formula for weaning folders from the bottle. I had to quit work to take care of him."

"Linds you can't feed him that, he's way to young" she was a little worried

"I know! I don't know what to do! And on top of that he has a hard time suckling sometimes and I don't know how to help him," Lindsey was hysterical

Stevie held his head in her hands and placed her forehead to his, she couldn't believe she was about to suggest this but he was in a bad state

"Linds?"

"Hmm?"

"Do you...I...do you want me to try?" She asked beyond nervous

"Try to what?" He wiped his tears away and sniffled

"To feed him...with healthy milk...?"

"I can't ask you to do that," he shook his head

"Lindsey he needs nutrients"

"I would be forever grateful," Lindsey kissed her

"I'll try when he wakes up alright?" She kissed him back

"Thank you," He said against her lips, asking for entrance, she gladly granted it, and let him caress her tounge with his own

"I love you," Lindsey kissed across her cheek and down her neck

"God, I love you too!"She held his neck

Lindsey slid his hand up her shirt and rested it on her rib cage, just below her breast. She placed her hand on top of his and gave him another kiss.

"How long do you think it will be until Evie wakes up?" He asked against her neck

"She was out for the count when I checked on her, why?"

"I don't want her to walk in on my hand up her mommy's shirt," he smiled

Stevie laughed "I think she'll be asleep for a bit yet don't worry"

"Perfect," he bit his lip and undid his belt and zipper, pulling himself out

"And just what are you doing Mr Buckingham?" Stevie said through her eyelashes

"Hopefully you," he bit his lip, stroking himself

"Your very sure of yourself aren't you?" Lindsey watched as Stevie slowly dragged her skirt upwards, squeezing her own thighs. He licked his lips, nodding as he watched her closely

"Linds...you seem to be sweating a little" she made patterns on her upper thigh

"I should do something about that," he removed his shirt

"What? Don't think I'm a big enough girl to sort myself out?" She teased, he nodded, his mouth hanging open as he twitched. Stevie's hand disappeared underneath her skirt and Lindsey's mouth dried up completely

"Oh God, Steph," Lindsey gasped

"What..?" She asked smirking

"You're going to make me blow," he panted

"Me?" She pointed to herself "Why, Lindsey I'm not doing anything" she arched her back

His hips bucked, "I'm not gonna last, baby."

"Make it last" she gasped and he let go of himself and got onto the floor, now in front of her, Lindsey spread her thighs wide, attaching his mouth to her without warning

"FUCK..." Stevie suddenly squealed and grabbed his hair

His tongue flicked fiercely at her clit as he inserted two fingers

Lindsey almost came as he heard the noises that were coming out of Stevie's mouth

He continued to use his fingers, "You like that?" He smiled, Stevie nodded and grabbed onto the arm of the couch

Lindsey removed his fingers for a second and leaned up and pushed them past her lips into her mouth

She moaned when she tasted herself on them, Lindsey burying his head between her thighs again

"Linds....don't stop baby!" Her hips jerked up to meet his mouth. Lindsey used his fingers again, vibrating them against her sensitive spot. Stevie grabbed onto Lindsey's wrist

"Lindsey...please..." she whimpered

"I got you, baby," his palm now slapping against her

Stevie bit down onto the cushion on the couch as her legs tightened around his head and her entire body spasmed. Lindsey removed his fingers as her orgasm came, spraying onto his chest and the floor, "Oh my god!" He groaned

Stevie began to cry at the shear intensness of her orgasm, her lower body still not stationary

Lindsey patted her sensitive area and kissed her clit, "I've never made you come that hard before," he smirked

"I know...that's never happened before...I'm so sorry..." she said crying, ashamed thinking he must be so embarrassed

"What are you sorry for? That was so hot." he bit his lip then kissed

"It went everywhere...you must be embarrassed" she covered her face

"For what, baby? It was so fucking sexy," he sucked on her neck

"Seriously?" She asked him finally peaking out from her hands

"Fuck yes. I almost came just watching," he said into her neck, Stevie finally smiled and pulled him on top of her

"You ready?" He bit his lip

She nodded her head and he thrust into her

"I'll never get over the feel of you..." he told her, Stevie gasped, burying her head in his neck, she could tell that he was trying to be gentle with her but he wanted much more

"Lindsey...I'm fine, just please fuck me, and do it hard!" She panted

He picked her up in his arm and laid her on the floor, sitting back on his knees and thrusted quickly, barely pulling out

"Oh god Lindsey, that's it! Do me harder, I know you want to...!" She held onto his hands that were attached to her sides

Lindsey rolled her over so she was on all fours and held her shoulders as he nailed her from behind. Stevie dropped her head forward in between her arms, she hadn't felt this way for so long

"F-fuck," Lindsey grunted, cupping her breasts in his hands

Stevie leaned back so she was sitting on his knees, wrapping her arm backwards around his neck

Lindsey reached down and rubbed her clit, feeling her immediately tighten, "God you're so tight."

She moaned loudly at his words, she loved it when he talked like that during sex

"Get on top," he ordered, laying back against the floor

Turning herself around she moved her hips up and down hard, circling after every few

"You feel so good!" Lindsey said taking her hips, he held her still by her hips as he thrusted quickly below.

"Baby...I'm going to come..." Stevie said falling forward and placing her hands on the floor beside Lindsey's head

"Do it baby," he continued to thrust, Stevie came on demand, squeezing his member with her insides as she climaxed.

"Oh God! Fuck!" He groaned, helping her ride it out, flipping. them over he lifted her knee up so he could finish too, thrusting hard into her. Completely forgetting about not wanting another baby, Lindsey came inside of her.

"Stephhhh" he grunted into her neck breathing hard. "I have you," she held him against her chest, running her hand across the back of his head

Suddenly clear headed he covered his eyes and moved off her

"Shit!"

"What, baby?" She sat up, reaching for him

"I fucking came inside you!" He said angry at himself

"Baby, it's okay. We'll be alright," she rubbed his shoulders

"But what if we aren't? God I'm so stupid!"

"No you are not! We both forgot," she tried to calm him, "Let's get dressed before Evie walks in."

"Oh you really forgot did you?" He said

"Lindsey!"

"What? You wanted a baby! This is just perfect for you!"

"Lindsey I didn't do this on purpose!"

"Whatever," he began to dress

"Linds..." she touched his arm

"I can't afford a baby. I'm broke, Steph," he admitted

"Broke?" She questioned

"No money. Jen's funeral, the new apartment, and the baby wiped me out."

"I had no idea..."

"I had to quit my job to take care of David."

"I'm sorry, but if I did get pregnant, I'd go and get a job, I promise"

"Will you stop talking about this damn baby, please!"

"Sorry...I'm going to check on Evie," she stood up and walked into the bedroom

Evie was still fast asleep and little snores were coming from David

Lindsey was in the kitchen pouring himself a glass of wine. Downing it quickly and pouring another, Stevie walking back in shortly after

"Kids are asleep," she said awkwardly

"Good" Lindsey replied

"I truly didn't mean for this to happen," she kissed his shoulder as she wrapped her arm around him, "Please don't let this ruin a beautiful thing."

Lindsey took another big slug of wine

"Hey, slow down" she joked

"I just want to forget all of my problems right now," Lindsey sighed

"Money, David, accidentally getting you pregnant, Jimmy, finding a bigger place," he was getting a migraine just thinking about it

She turned him around and took his hand, placing it on her flat stomach

"But we'd be alright, wouldn't we?"

"You don't understand, my bank account is in the negative, I can't pay the rent with money I don't have," Lindsey shook his head, taking his hand off of her stomach

"I told you I can help, I know we would be okay Lindsey, don't be so negative"

"You shouldn't have to work! Who would take care of the kids? What if you do get pregnant and you are miserable working?!"

"We get different shifts, and then one of us will always be at home with the kids. And I wouldn't be miserable working, because I'd know I had a beautiful baby inside me"

Lindsey wrapped his arms around her, "We're really doing this parenting thing?"

"I know we can..."

"I love you," He kissed her forehead, letting his lips linger there

"I love you too Lindsey" she closed her eyes and enjoyed the feel of his arms around her

They were interrupted by David's high pitched cry, "Someone's awake," Lindsey smiled, walking into the bedroom to get him

He put him on his chest and walked him into the living room, Evie following close behind rubbing her eyes

"I'm going to change his diaper, I'll be right back," Lindsey said

Evie asked for some juice, so Stevie found her some from the fridge and handed it to her daughter

"Thank you mommy"

A few minuets later Lindsey came back in

"Steph, David is hungry..." he said awkwardly

Stevie held her arms out and took David

"That's it, come to auntie Steph!"

"You're Mommy now," Lindsey told her

"What? But I thought you said..." she looked at him

"I think Jen would have wanted it this way."

Stevie smiled and nodded

"Mommy's going to feed you now!" Stevie sat on the couch and pulled her blouse up, holding David to her breast, within two minuets he had latched on

Lindsey sat down beside her and stroked David's head, "are you sure you don't mind this?"

"It feels a bit weird but he needs to eat" she told him

"I'll scrape up some money so you won't have to do this," Lindsey told her

"No honestly it's fine honey, I promise!"

"I don't want you to feel uncomfortable or obligated to do this."

"If he's going to be my son then I don't feel uncomfortable"

Lindsey kissed the side of her head and sat Evie in his lap, "Want Daddy to make you a grilled cheese?"

"Will you daddy?"

"Mmhmm"

"Yaaaay! I love grilled cheese!" She said excitedly

"Coming right up!" He kissed her head and went to the kitchen. Coming back after with the grilled cheese, he saw that Stevie had finished feeding David and he was now asleep on her chest

"I think he's bonded pretty well with you," Lindsey kissed her and handed Evie her grilled cheese

Sitting down next to her he looked at Stevie and noticed where her hand was placed

"We don't even know if you'll get pregnant," Lindsey said, picking her hand up and kissing it

Stevie hadn't even realised that she'd done it

"I know Linds"

"Don't get your hopes up," he told her

"I won't" she said quickly and looked away

"I was thinking about looking for a job tomorrow."

"Okay great, I need to go down to the house to pick up some stuff" Stevie told him

"I don't think you should go alone."

"He's away for the weekend, he's not there"

"Be careful," Lindsey kissed her head, yawning

"I will! You need to sleep!"

"You do too!"

"The kids have only just woken up" she said

"I'll stay up with them, you get some rest."

"No! You need it more than me!"

"I can sleep more!" Evie piped up

"Come on kiddo!" Lindsey chuckled and threw her over his shoulder

"Daddddddddy" she giggled, Lindsey went into the bedroom and put her in bed, scooting her over into the middle and then climbing in himself

Stevie came in and put David is is cot before getting into bed also

"My girls," he smiled, wrapping his arms around both of them

They all fell asleep as soon as their eyes were closed