Feather After // Chapter 36 // We're Over

Aria's POV 

"Aria!" I heard someone scream in the back ground. Then I realized what I had done. Out of anger and sudden urge to take revenge of what ever was happening in the few days, I poured a freaking can of orange juice on him.

"Aria Rhett! Principal's room right now!" I heard someone shout in the background. What the hell had I done?

I suddenly saw a woman in her late thirty's emerging out of the so-called crowd that had gathered around Ignatius and me, when I poured the juice on him.

"Didn't your parents teach you some respect or some manners?" She growled at me as if she could set fire on me by just staring at me. "Come here!" She grabbed my hand and tried to pull me towards the cafeteria door.

"Leave my hand," I said, the anger was coming back. I closed my eyes and tried to take deep breaths. It's okay, I tried to remind myself. She did not let go of my hand and instead pulled me harder towards the door.

"Please leave my hand," I said again, as calmly as I could. I opened my eyes and looked in hers. She stared back with so much hatred that I would have given in any other normal circumstances.

"Leave my fucking hand!" I screamed on top of my lungs and pulled my hands towards myself. Too shocked to say anything she let go and stared at me. The whole cafeteria was silent. They couldn't believe what was happening and to be honest I couldn't believe what I was doing either. It was like my past was coming back again, and the worst part was I couldn't control it even if I wanted to.

Suddenly everything was out of my hand. The things I had promised I would never do were happening all over again and even when I could stop it I couldn't.

"Listen to-" she tried to say but then I butted in. I was angry and I couldn't control what I was saying.

"No, you listen to me bitch, on one who talks shit about my family whether it's you or anybody else in the world will get away with it. And if you wouldn't have touched me, I would have quietly gone to the principal's room. Just because you implement rules on people and do whatever you feel like doesn't mean that anyone and everyone will take your bullshit. So cut the crap and move out of my way," I moved towards her until I was touching her, "touch me again, and you'll be sorry," and after that, I left the cafeteria. While I walked out of the cafeteria everyone looked at me as if I was a psycho-chick but then they couldn't just touch me like that.

I rubbed my wrist which was red and swollen and tried my best to get them off my hand, and it was practically not possible. I went outside the school and started walking towards the stadium of the school. I wanted to go somewhere where no one could find me.

I walked towards the end of the big roof and huffed. What the hell had I done? It was so unlike me, I mean I never multiplied by a thousand time would have thought and believed I would do that.

I tried to stay calm while now I thought what I would do. I tried to take a long and deep breath but none of that was helping. What had I done? Now, everyone was scared of me and I'm pretty sure they wanted to stay away from me. I mean, if I would have seen anyone doing that I wouldn't have been exactly friendly with them.

"What the fuck did you do?" I heard someone say. I was pretty sure who that voice belonged to, none other than the great, the most self-centered, egoistic, ill-logical, crazy, the person who sent mix signals to people and would put radioactive element to shame, shameless, the 'I'm a bad boy baby, stay away from me, unless you have your virginity to offer me', Ignatius.

"I'm not in a good mood now, so just leave. I can't take you 'I care for you' shit right now," I rolled my eyes, and continued thinking of solutions and any other thing that would make the situation less difficult.

"What has happened to you suddenly? You were never like this!" He exclaimed, I mean I could totally sense the zero, nada concern he had for me. He was enjoying seeing me like that.

He wanted me to squirm and feel uncomfortable like I did whenever I was around him. But nothing was going to happen then. I was so scared. I had practically asked some teacher to fuck off, in front of the whole eleventh grade.

"I'll tell you what doesn't get me angry, I'll lose my shit! you want me to be honest so listen to me, I'm sick of your look how thick and big my dick is, I don't really cruse but I'll very politely put it, your majesty kindly give me the delight of fucking off," I grabbed him by his shirt and pushed him away. He stumbled. He was shocked and so was I. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to, it's just that-"

"Are you bi-polar or do you have multi-personality disorder?" He looked at me and put his hand on his chest.

"See, I'm telling you. Do not push me. I'm not myself right now please just leave," I turned around and looked at the blue stretched sky in front of me. Aria, please calm down. I tried to mumble all the great things I knew about but I couldn't.

What I had done was bad, and for the first time in my life, I didn't know what to do. I tried to remain calm and composed and thought of what I could do to make the situation worse than it already was.

"Aria," I took a deep breath and turned around. As soon as I turned around I collided with Ignatius and I stumbled back because of the inelastic collision. Before I could fall back and hit the ground, Ignatius caught me. His arms went around my waist and he pulled me to his chest.

"Listen to me now, calm down please try not to be that angry. I know it's not your fault. I own up for my mistake."

I pulled away from him. As much as my heart melted when he said that but I couldn't let him come to my mind right now. He was twisted and I couldn't let his twisted behavior ruin whatever I was left with.

"Ignatius, listen to me, bro. I'm getting married in a month. There is nothing you can do now. I don't get what you are trying to do and at this point in my life I don't-"

"List-"

I cut him off when I was speaking he had to shut up. I was pouring my heart out and he didn't want to listen. "See, first you kiss me and then you kiss Misty, I can't take that. You're her boyfriend and no matter what was there between me and you and you and her, I refuse to be that third person. I refuse to be that person who comes in between two people and once I get married, I'll be married. And no matter what my fiancé does, I'll not go behind his back for a person who can't handle his own dick. Stop poking it around here and there and for once own up."

He looked and me and I looked at him. He opened his mouth and closed it again. He opened his mouth again and closed it again. I looked at him again and said, "I'm not saying you're a bad person, you are good too. But whatever was between me and you is finished, whatever it was. Thank you for whatever you have done for me. But this can't and will not go on forever," I put my hand on his shoulder and tried my best to hold on to my tears.

It hurt, but I knew I had to get my priority straight. I mean yeah, I knew somewhere it was my fault too, but this had to be over. I couldn't go with the same thing again and again. He didn't know what his feelings were and at this point in time in my life, I couldn't wait for him to look and wait for everything. I did not have the time.

I wiped my tears as I walked down the stairs. I felt like I had just ripped my heart. Whatever it was between him and me, I was going to miss it. I was going to miss, the smiles passed between the two of us, the un-cleared tension that would steal my sleep every other night. I would miss everything. I would miss looking at him the same way. There were a lot of things I would miss because I knew for the first time, my home was gone. Even if my house had roofs with holes, I would miss knowing that I had no one to make my heart flutter anymore.

I held on my breath to stop myself from crying more than I already was. I realized that the lunchtime was over. I knew people were looking for me. So I knew what to do. I had to do and tell our principal that I was sorry.

I walked down the hall and when I reached the principal's office. The secretary did not stop me from going inside so I guessed she already knew what had happened. I took a deep breath and knocked on the wooden door. It was a metal plate hung there which had the word principal engraved on it.

"Come in," I heard her call and I pushed the door and walked inside. When she saw me come inside, she removed her spectacles and looked me.

"I'm here to apologize for ma'am. I did something I mean pretty bad today and I know apologizing wouldn't make it less bad than it already is but I want you to know that I'm truly sorry and I would take every and any punishment you would give me," I said and looked at her.

"Well, Aria-"

"I'm so sorry ma'am, I did not mean any harm."

She gave me the look which meant that I had to shut up and I looked at her. She smiled at me and then put her spectacles on, again. I tried to look at the surrounding again to calm myself down. The wall behind her was covered in framed certificates that the school had won. There were trophies lined from one side of the room to the other.

"I did not expect that from you Aria. I'm new here," she said and bowed my head in shame. What I had done was pretty wrong and I knew I was very guilty about it,

"I want you to understand that you'll have to pay the consequence for abusing a teacher but there is something that I want you to know and which is that she put her hand on you and that is not allowed in our school. So I as the principal of Maple High I'll just give you some punishment, that is nothing big, I hope you don't involve your parents because we haven't called them in, till now we could if you want to. I hope you never do this again," she looked at me and I nodded.

Thank-god no parents.

"And for what has happened in the cafeteria I would want you to forget what happened and to make it very clear for anyone who attempts this kind of behavior, you'll have to-"

"Mom, this is my fault too," Ignatius burst through the door.