Kasper and I walked into the hotel room. Rik was sitting on the bed, but when he saw me, he jumped up and embraced me. 

"Je bent er weer!" (You're back again!) he called out, and kissed me.
My emotions got so overloaded I could barely move. "Rik," was the only word I could get over my lips.
"Rik, she's not herself," Kasper said. "She's been brainwashed or something."
It must have seemed like I didn't care about what he said there. I just tried to get myself back together. I wanted to hug Rik back, so badly, but I seemed to just be frozen in place. Thoughts and memories raced through my mind.
"What do you mean by that?" Rik asked, letting me go. I felt tears filling my eyes and I did a difficult step backwards. I needed to get some distance.
"All she wants right now is to go back to that fucker Carl," Kasper said.

Now I knew what to do.

"He's not a fucker!" I hissed.
Rik tried to say something, but I just raised the volume of my voice. "If you call him that again, I will punch your face so hard you don't remember the number of feet you have!"
I ignored Kasper opening his mouth to speak and screamed: "IS THAT UNDERSTOOD?!"
"Esther, if I call someone a fucker I've got a reason for it," Kasper said.
I made a "tha" sound and walked to the window.
"What do you think my reason is?"
"You have no right!" I shouted. "You don't even know what you're talking about!"
"He kidnapped you!" Kasper called out, raising his hands in frustration.
"Kas, can we speak alone?" Rik suddenly interrupted.

We both turned to him and fell silent. I realized that I had behaved like a child. Yet I refused to apologize. Nobody would call Master a fucker and be forgiven that easily. 

Kasper broke the silence, saying "Sure. Keep an eye on her, though. She might try to escape."
"We can put her in the bathroom," Rik suggested. "The window won't open and if we put a chair under the door knob, she can't get out."

They didn't know I wasn't even planning to escape. I didn't blame them. I didn't resist when Rik led me to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I didn't even try to open the window or the door. I just sat down on the edge of the bathtub and sighed.