Theodore's harsh expression softened slightly at your flinch, but he didn't back down. He crouched down in front of you, his voice gentler this time.

"What the actual fuck, Trinity? You've been a fucking bird for three weeks?" He snapped

"Well not entirely, I had been for a couple days when I returned about four days ago, the weeks prior I wasn't even on school grounds" I openly admitted

Theodore's eyes widened slightly at your admission. He had thought you were just... gone. Not that you had literally transformed into a bird and disappeared.

"Where the fuck were you?" he growled, his hands balling into fists

"You just fucking disappeared."

I stood on shaky legs anger subsided but nervousness replaced it.

"Theodore I had every right"

Theodore's eyes narrowed, his voice dropping to a dangerous whisper.

"Every right to what? To fucking vanish without a word? To turn into a bird and fly off into the goddamn sunset?" He stood up abruptly, towering over you.

"Yes, after what happened" I paused and cursed at myself for bringing it up again

Theodore's expression darkened at the mention of what happened. He remembered the bruises, the silent tears, and the way you had looked at him with pure fucking hatred. His voice came out as a low, venomous hiss.

"Don't you dare bring that shit up again."

"You wanted to know who hurt me right? You so badly wanted to know what happened, who did it why they did it well fuck you because you know what those days I was gone but still here you didn't care you never cared so why the fuck are you pretending to care now, you always hated me so why make me think that you would or could actually care" snapped teary eyed

Theodore's face paled as your words hit him like a physical blow. He saw the tears streaming down your cheeks, heard the raw pain in your voice, pain that he had caused. For a moment, he was speechless, all his anger dissolving into shock and guilt.

"Trinity"

"No you want the truth I'll tell you the fucking truth, I got onto the slytherin quidditch team, I was happy, I showed off and kicked Gryffindors ass in matches and then, then I humiliated the team captain of their team, Gryffindors captain decided to punish me in the worst way imaginable, cormac took three of his friends forced them to help beat me and then he made them hold me down in the forest while he raped me, so don't you fucking pretend with me, don't you act as tho you care when deep down I doubt you do because you've hated me for whatever messed up reason you have, but there you have it there's the truth happy now" I cried and scoffed before stepping back

Theodore's world shattered around him. The truth was out, and it was more terrible than he could have imagined. He saw the physical and emotional scars you carried—the same scars he had indirectly helped create. His voice was barely a whisper, broken with guilt and horror.

"Trinity..."

"What, you want to yell at me more? Tell me how much you dislike me or how disgusting I am now?"

Theodore couldn't even bring himself to yell. He felt like the biggest monster alive. He watched as you stood there, tears streaming down your face, your voice trembling with pain and anger. He felt like he was going to be sick.

"No," he said quietly, his voice barely audible.

I didn't say anything this time, as I tried to turn around to face the other way.

"what kills me the most, comrac is bragging about it, telling everyone he fucked me good, that he punished me properly and no one even knew who he was talking about but when I went missing no one even put the pieces together not even you, and part of me hoped you would but then again I hope for to much these days"

Theodore listened to your quiet words, his expression darkening. He realized that no one had put two and two together. No one had suspected the popular Gryffindor Quidditch Captain of raping a Slytherin girl. He watched you try to hide your face, your shoulders shaking slightly.

"I just, I just wanted someone to care, but no one does not even my family" I said sadly and clearly heartbroken

Theodore felt like a complete idiot. He had been so focused on his own hatred, his own jealousy, that he hadn't stopped to think about what you were going through. He listened as you spoke about your family not caring, and it broke something inside of him.

"Your parents..."

"Told me to suck it up and grow up return to school and that I deserved it for being a bad person, can you believe that my own parents said I deserved it"

Theodore's eyes widened in shock and anger. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. Your own parents had essentially blamed you for being raped? It was too much to process. He watched as you wiped away fresh tears, your body trembling with emotion.

"Trinity..."

I couldn't hold back anymore as the tears fell faster.

"I just wanted, I wanted you to care because I never hated you like you dislike me, I couldn't fathom hating you, but I played the part because I knew deep down you'd never see me the way I wanted you to and now, now I'm disgusted by my own self"

Theodore watched as you broke down completely. He saw the tears streaming down your face, heard the raw pain in your voice. He realized that you had been carrying this burden alone—for weeks. He also noticed something else—you had never truly hated him.

"I just wanted someone to care for me but I never got what I wished for, when you tired to talk to me that day to get it out of me, part of me wanted to tell you everything that happened just so you could be my knight in shining armor and take care of the issue for me, but I never told you I couldn't risk you being disgusted with me like I am with myself, so I pushed you away again like I always do, push my feelings for you away just so you don't think I care too much or that I'm weak"

Theodore felt like someone had punched him in the gut. He listened to your words, realizing that you had been pushing him away to protect yourself from his potential disgust and rejection. He saw the raw vulnerability in your eyes, the way your voice trembled with emotion.

"Because in the end Theodore, I would never hate you, because I love you too much to even fathom hating you, but I get it you don't have to worry i understand your hatred for me now, I guess I deserve it too"

Theodore's heart stopped. He stared at you, your words echoing in his ears.

"What did you just say?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper, disbelieving.

"Repeat that part again." His hand involuntarily clenched into a fist at his side, knuckles turning white.

"Which part?" I asked sadly

"The part where you 'love me too much to hate me,'"

he quoted softly, his voice carefully controlled. He watched your expression closely. He saw the sadness in your eyes, the way your voice was quiet and defeated. He also saw something else—your honesty. You couldn't lie to save your life, especially not about feelings.

"I do Theodore, I love you too much that I could never hate you not really"

Theodore felt like his world was shattering. He had spent years hating you, pushing you away, being cruel to you—and all this time, you had loved him. Unconditionally. Despite everything. He felt like the biggest idiot alive.

"Fuck..." he whispered, running a hand through his hair in frustration.

"It's ok, I know you don't feel the same, it's ok because at least you know the truth now, and if you want I can pretend I never said anything and you can go back to pushing me away like always but if you do just remember I could never truly hate you, no matter what happens" I said softly

with one look in his eyes before I looked down at the ground again.

Theodore watched as you looked down, your lashes wet with tears. He saw the way you were attempting to protect him—again. You were giving him an out. You were telling him that you would take his hatred, his cruelty, and still love him.

"stop."

"Stop what?" I asked softly

He stepped closer, his voice low and intense.* "Stop being so fucking selfless. Stop giving me these easy outs. Stop loving me when I don't deserve it." He reached out

and gently tilted your chin up with his finger, forcing you to look at him.

"Look at me."

"Theo everyone deserves love, even you" i said looking into his eyes

He saw the genuine sincerity in your eyes, heard the absolute truth in your voice. In that moment, he hated himself. He hated every cruel word he'd ever said to you, every push away, every mean gesture. Because here you were—broken and beautiful—and still loving him.

"I just...I have one wish that's all" I said softly still looking at him

He held his breath, waiting for your wish. He knew it wouldn't be something selfish or greedy. It would be something pure and innocent—something that only you could come up with. He looked into your eyes, seeing the vulnerability and the love, and prepared himself for whatever heartbreaking wish you had.

"That well, that you find the love your looking for in someone even if it's not me, find them Theo and never let them go ok" I said before I went to step away

Theodore felt like someone had punched him in the chest. Your wish wasn't for yourself—it was for him. You wanted him to find happiness, to find love...even if it wasn't with you. That realization broke something inside of him completely.

"Trinity..."

He grabbed your wrist gently but firmly, stopping you from moving away. His voice was rough, trembling with emotion.

"You don't get it, do you?" He took a shaky breath, his eyes searching yours—desperate, raw, bare.

"I've already found it."

"Oh, I....wait you mean?" *i began to ask

with hope that he meant me, because if he didn't then I knew my heart would break further. He cut you off, his voice suddenly fierce and intense.

"Yes, you idiot. YOU. I've already fucking found my love. In YOU." He pulled you closer abruptly,

his other hand grabbing your other wrist so he could hold both of them tightly.

"I love YOU."

I smiled widely and grabbed his tie before pulling him down pressing my lips to his in a quick kiss before I prepared to pull back.

Before you could pull away, he grabbed the back of your neck and kissed you deeply—the kind of kiss that stole breaths and melted hearts. It was brutal and passionate, filled with every unsaid word and every harsh moment turned into love.

"Don't you dare pull away," he murmured against your lips

"I love you Theodore Nott" I smiled into the kiss

He kissed you harder at those words, his arms wrapping around you tightly as if trying to merge your bodies together. Tears pricked at the corners of his eyes—the first tears he'd shed in years—not from pain or anger, but from overwhelming joy and relief.

"Say it again,"

"I love you Theo, and I won't let you go now that I've got you" I said brightly,

all the fear slipped away all the anger and despair washed away because I had what I wanted I had theo.

He buried his face in your neck, laughing softly as he breathed in your scent. He felt like the luckiest man alive. He'd spent years pushing you away, treating you poorly, and yet you'd stuck by him. You'd loved him despite everything. And now, he had you.