After five years :-

Ruhani's POV

It had been five years since I got that letter.I still remember the day he left me.

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Sorry that was an April Fool's prank. As yesterday was 1st April so I thought of doing some small fun ;) ;)

Chapter 41 will start now.

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Dedicated this chapter to

simran_00

sweetkitten02

Thanks a lot  for your comments. :)

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She made it for me a long time ago. But I think This Is The Right Time To Put It  ;)

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Ruhani's POV

'Where did he go?' I asked and started pacing around but Anaya came and stopped me.

I was continuously calling him but his mobile was switched off.

We were at Vikram's house but he had left but uncle and aunty was there.

'We don't know. Few minutes ago he took the car and left,' Aunty told us.

'Maybe he went towards the airport,' Anaya whispered.

'What if he had went somewhere else?' I asked.

'He said he is leaving, that means he is leaving Pune, so I think he went towards the airport, lets go toward the airport, if we are lucky maybe we will find him,' she explained.

'Let's go,'  I said and hurriedly bid uncle and aunty goodbye and took a cab towards the airport.

He can't leave. No.

How can he leave us?

No, it cannot happen.

I will not let him go.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks.

By the way, have you gone mad, Ru?' I heard Anaya's voice.

'Why?' I asked wiping my tears.

'In my home you said that you wanted him to leave you and then you said you just want his trust on you. You want him to leave or you want his trust on you?" she asked.

'Yes, I wanted him to leave me as I thought we are not made for  each other but as you explained me, I realized that I do not see a future without him and then truth which I locked in the corner of my heart slipped out of my mouth. In the back of my mind when I lied to him about kissing Aniket I wanted him to say that he trust me and I cannot do that,' I spoke my heart in front of her.

'As  I said, earlier I wanted him to leave because I was afraid that if something happens in future he will again ask me to leave the house without even listening to my explanation,' I continued.

'If he had said that he trusts you and you cannot kiss Aniket, you would have given him a chance?' she asked and I nodded in a 'yes.'

'And look, where my all these lie and pretending took me. I wanted him to trust me and now he trust me but he is leaving,' I said and again tears started rolling down my cheeks.

'It happens, Ru. We all take some stupid decisions to protect our heart, you were afraid and you did some things that you thought was correct at that time,' she explained and wiped my tears.

'I think if we do not find him at the airport, we should go home, maybe tomorrow you can call him and talk with him,' she said after some time.

'No,' I shouted.

'Calm down, Ru. You are pregnant and so much stress is not good for you. From the day you came to know you are having a baby, you are always in stress due to all the things happening in your life,' she said but my brain was not able to register any of her words.

'I cannot let him go. It's my fault. I would have done something, I would have not lied, I would have---

'Just keep quiet and listen to me, Ruhani Jaywardhan. That day you were so happy and you were so eager to share the news of your baby and what he did, he accused you. If he had asked you once before saying you slept with someone behind his back, this would have not happened, so don't you dare take all blame on yourself. You had to tell your parents all by yourself. Yes, I agree you were wrong about lying and pretending but don't you dare blame yourself entirely.'

'Anaya, I cannot loose him, I can't.'

'Hey! Look Vikram,' she said as she looked outside the window and I turned around and saw Vikram entering a restaurant with some girl.

'Please, stop the car,' I shouted and the driver stopped the cab.

We gave him his fare and I ran towards the restaurant.

Here, I am going mad thinking that he is leaving me and he is enjoying with some other girl.

'He is mine. So leave,' I yelled and the girl left us and he was shocked looking at me.

'Angel, you---' I cut off whatever he was saying by slapping him hard.

'Here I am going mad thinking that you left me, thinking that due to my lies I lost you and you are talking and laughing with some other girl,' I cried and but he was staring at me, while rubbing his cheeks.

'You---' he started but I don't know when tears started rolling down my cheeks and in seconds I was crying loudly.

'Shit! What happened, Angel? Sit here,' he made me sit on a chair and sat on the chair beside me.

'I slapped you in front of everyone, now you will leave me.' I tried to wipe my cheeks with the back of my hand.

I mean, how will he stay with me?

I slapped him in front of everyone.

'Baby, please calm down, and I don't give a fuck of what all these people are thinking about me, he said and wiped my tears with his thumb

'I am sorry, don't leave, please,' I pleaded.

'I don't deserve you, baby.'

'Who are you to decide that?' I asked.

'I will hurt you, life with me will be tough,' he said.

'Life without you will be tough.'

'You will get anyone you want,' he said.

'But, I want you.'

'You deserve someone better, I am not good for you. You deserve someone who is not so fucked up,' he said.

'You both are catching everyone's attention,' we heard Anaya's voice and saw everyone in the restaurant were looking at us.

'Let's go and sit in the car. I still have time for my flight,' he said and my eyes widened.

He is still planning to leave.

'Calm down, go and talk with him and call me afterwards and now I will leave,' she said.

'Thank you so much,' I thanked her and she gave me a small smile and left.

We both went and sat in his car.

'Baby, I have to leave,'  he said.

'Why can't we be together?'

'Because, I don't deserve you. Someone always said me I don't deserve love and that person was right. Look you loved me but I gave you so much pain. Maybe, that person was right, I don't deserve love.'

'No, no, no, don't say that. Everyone deserves love,' I said and held his hand tightly.

'I am very crazy about you as you are the best gift given to me by god and I was always afraid that you will leave me and go to someone else and in the process of holding you tightly, I forgot to trust you,' he said and he was quiet.

'So you will leave me just like that? Maybe you are right, I deserve someone better because I don't deserve a coward who will run away.' I said and left his hands.

'Coward? I am not a fuck!ng coward and if I was a coward, I would have never sat in front of your house the whole night knowing that you are out with Aniket. I would have left you long back,' he said angrily.

'Shit! How can't I be calm for a fucking second,' he muttered under his breathe.

'What about OUR baby? I need you. Baby needs you,' I said and his eyes widened as soon I said our baby but in a second he composed himself.

I held his hand and placed it on my stomach.

'We both need you, Vicky,' I again said and then he looked at my stomach, stroked it for a second and then suddenly removed his hand from my stomach.

'I will never be a good dad. I will never be a good man for you.'

'You are punishing me for what I have done for past two weeks, right?' I asked.

'Why did you lie to me about you and Aniket?' he retorted back.

'How did you know I was lying?' I asked instead of replying to him.

'I know that he is your good friend. Even though you were not with me, I knew you would never be with him, till I am a part of your life. I know that everyday when I slept on that bench you would come and see me and that means you loved me and if you love me, you will not be with him or anybody else,' he told me and I was surprised.

Oh my god!

He knows.

I thought he was sleeping.

'If you would have permanently kicked me out of your life, maybe, you would have thought of giving someone else a chance but when I was a part of your life, you will never go out with someone else and I think I learned to trusted you,' he said.

I was shocked to the core by his words.

He knew me well . 

He was right about everything.

'I knew you were trying to provoke me by those lies as you wanted me to leave you forever, I thought you were angry and hurt and you will forgive me one day but when you lied that you kissed him, I knew you wanted to kick me permanently out of your life,' he continued.

'Why did you lie to me Angel?' he asked again.

'I was afraid, that if you will not trust me again, if something happens in the future you will again ask me to leave the house.'

'I am also afraid baby, if someday I will not be able to control my anger and say something to you again,' he said and I could see the fear in his eyes.

'I wanted one reason to hold onto you and you gave me that one reason,' I told him.

'What?' he seemed confused.

'You trusted me. You trusted me for the fifteen days while I was going out with Aniket. I thought you will get angry but you trusted that till you are a part of my life I will never go with someone. I left the string of our relation and it was only in your hand and you didn't let it fall,' I told him but he didn't say anything back.

'I am afraid. What if out of my anger I say something to you again?' he asked after some time.

'Then I will slap you again, like I slapped you today.'

'I can't believe you slapped me. You are the first woman to do that,' he said making me smirk.

'I am the ONLY woman to do that.'

'My woman.' And then the arrogant Devil was back and I love this arrogant Devil.

'Only yours.'

'I am sorry for everything I did. I am really sorry,' I apologized once again.

'It's okay. I can understand why you did it and I am also sorry.'

'You are saying me sorry for past fifteen days Vicky, now I don't want to hear that word from your mouth,' I said and he mumbled an 'okay.'

'You have forgiven me?' he asked after few seconds.

'Yes. I have forgiven you, Vicky,' I said and there was a small smile on his face.

I saw his smile after so many days.

'You?' I asked.

'What?'

'Have you forgiven me?' I explained him clearly.

'Yes baby,' he said and this time I smiled.

Thanks to god that I found him before he left.

'By the way, you know that girl?' I asked gesturing towards the restaurant and he was surprised by the sudden change of topic.

'No, she is manager of the restaurant, I was going towards the airport and she said that her car's tyre's are punctured and she needed a lift and as I gave her lift she insisted to have a cup of  coffee in the restaurant as I helped her.'

I know she was lying.

She wanted to spend time with my man.

What should I do to keep the bitches away from my man?

I should lock him in the house. 

Yes, that's a pretty good idea.

Oh my god! From where did this possessiveness to lock him came from?

'What are you thinking?' he asked.

'That how stupid I am,' I replied.

'Why?' he asked.

'I love you very much and I cannot even live without you, I cannot see you with any other woman and still I was lying to myself that we are good without each other.'

'Baby, I started the fight. I was wrong. When we were together you never complained, you never demanded anything from me and you accepted me as I am,' he explained but I was still feeling bad.

'Look at me,' he said and I looked into his eyes.

'Angel, this is new for both of us and on top of that we both are stubborn, crazy and possessive towards each other,' he said and I chuckled.

He was right.

We both are carzy, stubborn and possessive.

'We will fight with each other everyday, we will want to leave each other but what will keep us together is the only thing that we love each other and cannot stay without each other,' he explained.

'You make me a better person,' he continued.

'Really?' I asked.

'Angel, you love and care for your friends, family, you can go to any length to help them and you care for the strangers also, you asked Mohan uncle and Meera aunty to have dinner with us and you even care about the beggars on the street. While staying with you, once again I started to believe in love and I also started caring for others but I must say one thing, sometime you act like a child and I love that in you and sometimes you act like a mad girl and I love that craziness in you. I love you, baby.I love everything about you.'

'I love you too,' I confessed.

I wanted to say so many things to him but I was not able to say anything as he made me speechless by how he confessed his love for me.

'We both will always make mistakes but today I want to promise you one thing,' he said and took my hand in his.

'What?' I asked.

'Love is full of ups and downs, but I will always keep us grounded right next to each other,' he promised and I was so shocked that words were not coming out of my mouth. I love you, Vicky. I love you so much. I wanted to say but I was not able to say as I was feeling words were stuck in my throat and I didn't know what to do so I hugged him.'

'Will you spend the weekend with me in my house?' he asked and I realized he is not leaving.

He is not leaving.

I was so happy that I didn't know what to say.

'Baby?' he called me.

'If I will go with you, I want to know everything about you. No more secrets,' I said as I wanted to know everything about him.

Before he could reply there was a knock on car's window.

I looked outside to see who it was.

Dad.

Mom.

Dad and Mom.

Oh!

Shit!

I looked at Vicky and he was also shocked.

We both looked at each other and got out of the car.

'Dad, mom you---' Before I could say anything dad punched Vicky in the stomach.

'Owwww.' Vicky shouted.

'Rahul, stop,' Mom shouted but dad was not listening.

'Are you okay?' I asked Vicky.

'Angel, I am okay.' As soon as he said it Dad slapped him on the right cheek.

Vicky was not able to say anything. 

With one hand he was clutching the stomach and with the other hand he was rubbing his cheek.

'You deserve more than this,' Dad said and slapped him on the right cheek.

Two slaps. One punch.

Great. 

Just great!

Now, he will definately leave me.
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