Alice tried to talk to me throughout art but finally Rosalie stopped her causing Alice to pout. I didn't care though I really wasn't in the mood for confrontation today. Nor was i in the mood for conversation at all. I work up to talking with people when I learn that their trustworthy. Which takes time longer then one day that's for sure. Longer then a week maybe longer months even but I wouldn't tell them that. Girls I trusted slightly more then men now days, but that didn't matter to me. Then again it was alexia's fault for what happened to me. If I hadn't listened to her words of encouragement I wouldn't have been in the situation I was. She's the one who pressed me to talk to him and then look what happens. Yes I blamed her because she knew, she knew what kind of sick freak him and his buddies were. So I had every damn right to hate the bitch for what she did.

Which is where my lack of trust comes for women. I do trust some like Bella for example and she's the only person I really talk to now days. Although I might have shut people out I did make some friends here and there. The ones that stuck by my side the entire time. Like Gabriella whom decided to move out here along side me. She convinced her parents to let her come along for a while. Her parents then eventually got jobs out here or in Seattle so she was more then happy to never leave my side. Although she wasn't here yet she wouldn't be for about another week. They had some final details to finish in packing and selling their house before she could come. So I had to wait for her to join me here at this stupid school. For what seemed like pale people not going to lie half of them were as pale as Bella. Me I had a slight tan to me but not too much like the kids on the reservation.

I liked the beach there I could go cliff jumping there when it was nicer outside. It was rare occurrence when it wasn't raining or cold in forks Washington. There were the sunny days here and there and that's when it was best to go out to the beach. Of course it was good to walk the beach every now and then without having to swim. I always felt naturally warmer then Bella she tended to run cold. And they told me I was cold hearted when things changed but look at how things are. Don't get me wrong I wanted to be happy, I wanted to smile and laugh. I just didn't have a reason to anymore and I didn't have someone or something to be happy for.