⚠️ Warning mention of suicide attempt and trauma⚠️

Evelyn's POV

I knew the guy was trying to flirt and trust me, don't get me wrong I think it's sweet. Although I just found out I'm tied to someone and not by choice either. As I got to the room I shut and locked the door and windows before setting my stuff down and sitting on the edge of the bed. I let the tears fall as I sobbed softly to myself as I thought over all the events that happened in my life. I thought about Paul and what it would be like if he had a choice would he have even picked me. 

"Gosh this is so stupid, of course if he had a choice he would never have picked me, I mean come on there is so much wrong with me, I mean seriously and come on how stupid could I be to think things would have gotten better when I moved back to Forks" I said as if I were talking to someone

I paused and looked at my phone before shutting it off completely, the thing I planned on doing next was harsh. 

"I don't want this, and I know it would hurt him and everyone else, but I just can't handle it" I said and went to the bathroom

I looked at myself in the mirror as tears fell down my cheeks and I grabbed a bottle of water and my pills. The ones that put me to sleep and the ones that helped with anxiety, I took a deep breath and sigh. 

"Just a sip of water and the pills and I should go easily right, no painful death, just a sleepy one, yeah okay" I said and took a swig of water then threw the pills into my mouth just as the hotel door burst open

Paul rushed is as I was swallowing the pills causing me to cry even more as I slid to the floor. He rushed over to me and grabbed hold of me in his arms. 

"Come on Eve spit them up please" he begged

"I can't do it, I can't do it anymore" I cried 

He went to stick his fingers into my throat but i shook my head causing him to growl. 

"I'm calling 911" he said as I began to feel the effects of the sleep medication

"No stay with me Evelyn, you don't get to die yet, not until we have kids, get married and grow old together" he said shaking me

"911 whats your emergency" I heard faintly as I began to fade

"Yeah I found my girlfirend in the bathroom with an empty pill bottle" he said then he paused looking at me as I began to close my eyes once more

"i don't know the whole damn bottle" he said 

I began to fade and I heard yelling and he shook my but my eyes just got heavier and heavier as the clock ticked. I soon felt like I was floating and I saw bright blurry lights, heard sirens and felt someone holding my hand before everything went dark.