McKenzie,

Before I say anything I'm not one for many words so don't be mad at me if it doesn't make sense and well Paige is writing it for me in case you were wondering.. I don't know.

Kenz..you are everything to me and when I say that I'm not saying it lightly or throwing it around..

I fucking love you with everything in me.

I know I have fucking screwed up a lot but you have forgiven me each fucking time and yeah to you it might've seemed like in the beginning of us being unofficially together that I didn't care but I did.

I always did.

The first time you told me you loved me.. I'm pretty sure I never told you this but.. I loved you then .. well way before then but I wanted you to be sure of how you felt and not be emotional as fuck and regret it later that was the reason I dismissed it then..

I made the biggest mistake of my life when I left you . It was the lowest point in my life and I have had low, but nothing I did took you off my mind and I hated it.

I thought that maybe if I left you then you would end up finding someone whose less of what I am. Which in my head would have been a good thing as he wouldn't have gone off on you, or scared you or destroyed everything in sight when he'd get upset or make you cry..

There are not many things that hurt me but seeing you hurt fucking tops that list and I don't know I figured I was the number one reason causing that hurt and after Eric I just took it upon myself to let you go and let you find something else.
I'll be honest I thought that would be John and even though I hated it I figured he was perfect for it but we know how that turned out..

But even though I hate being wrong.. I cant deny how happy I am I was wrong about that because I cant imagine my life without you in it.

Right now I'm staring at one of the pictures my brother took of us and you are my life McKenzie..

You have shared so much with me while I haven't shared anything, but you accept it you don't push me. Its not because I don't trust you I just hate looking back at my past.. McKenzie you never have to doubt my trust for you.. Even with all those fucking Boys I always trusted you its those fuckers I don't trust I just want you to remember that and well it actually doesn't even matter.

Because after everything we have been through I have finally realized that you are not interested in any of them and it took me awhile to realize that.

I know I'm just fucking rambling on and I'm hoping when you read this and I'm sitting opposite you enjoying the food you won't give me that confused look as this is supposed to be some sappy bullshit and well Paige just narrowed her eyes at me because I don't think that belongs in here but I don't give a fuck because I'm happy.

The handwriting was now different and I figured he must've gotten annoyed with Paige and wrote the rest himself.

Honestly right now I don't want either of us to focus on our past because well I might be sounding like your typical fucker in love but.. Well .. I love you and my future with you is all that I am focused on because in 20 or 30 years wrestling won't be around. I'm not sure where we will be in our careers or where we will be living but we will be together ...

I cared about you the moment we slept together the first time.

I remember I had to rush you to the hospital the next day due to your injury ..

I remember being so fucking concerned in the waiting area and honestly I wasn't sure why.. I mean I knew since the moment your idiot of a brother literally pushed you into my arms that there was just something about you..

And the thought of you being hurt tore me apart after just knowing you for a week and I am pretty sure I knew then I wanted you around..

I must sound fucking crazy but its true and I hated that I felt that way about some random diva and due to that I tried to fight it. I tried to make what we had going on less than what it was but I couldn't hide it.

I craved you everyday but you didn't see it while I thought I had made it obvious to you ..

I needed you, you are the only one that can tame this beast inside of me . The beast that makes everyone run for cover, everyone afraid.. except you.

After you left in that cab tonight I thought about everything.. thought about what you said about me.. basically thinking about what I want to do with my life and I realized something that I actually knew for a long time, that spending it with you is what I want.

I was so fucking pissed because of The Rumble.. I destroyed everything as I couldn't control it and when I saw you leaving I honestly thought you were leaving me and a life without you in it made no sense to me.

I have lost a lot, I have been through some shit but there is one thing I can't deny is my love for you whether you're Stacey or McKenzie... From a rich stuck up family or from a broke one I don't give a fuck because YOU are all that matters to me and I never want to lose you.

You asked me quite awhile back why I didn't despise you and I think I finally have the answer hopefully it is sort of what you needed..

I could never despise someone who I love with every fiber inside my body, the person who brings me back from whatever mindset I'm in just by being with me..

My world begins and ends with your beautiful fucking face and I am positive that will never change.

So this is the part where you're supposed to stop reading and look at me..

I read the last part through blurred vision even though I couldn't remember how long my tears had been falling due to his words. I had never expected the letter to be from him and especially for it to have said all of those things...

"Kenz..."

I heard the husky voice behind the sweet words and I looked up thinking he was on the spot I had left him but he wasn't and I heard him clear his throat. I set the letter down and turned to find him down on one knee next to me.

Even though I had , had the ring on a little over an half hour before.. I was still caught off guard by him next to me.

"McKenzie.. Will you.."

I knew he probably wasn't good at this part as I stared down at the Beast looking at me anxiously waiting even though I had agreed before he still seemed nervous as he hesitantly asked me the question I hadn't expected to hear from any man again.

A/N:

Oh my word lovelies!!!! I HOPE YOU GUYS LOVED THE LETTER I KNOW I KEPT YOU GUYS IN ANTICIPATION AND I HOPE IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT <3

We have about ± 10 chapters left of this story and although its heartbreaking to have it ending soon I'm just so happy to see how far it has come in such a short time.

I hope to make these last 10 or more chapters the best of all as I honestly love this story so much, it is a part of me and while I am not exactly sure how it will be ending I know I want to have you guys happy :)

So I'm hoping when the time comes you guys will be!!!!

I haven't done dedications in awhile but honestly each and every chapter is dedicated to everyone who takes the time to read the story, comment and vote as you guys give me motivation to continue :)

I love all of you guys and thank you for all your kind words over these past 90 chapters and for making me smile everyday.

HERE'S TO ±10 MORE CHAPTERS OF OUR BEAST AND HIS WOMAN !!!!!!

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