Shontelle - T-shirt

(I like this song's chorus the most as I feel it shows she feels when she wears Brock's merchandise)

I had been sitting at the table filled with empty plates and unlit candles . I hadn't read the letter yet , I don't know why but I decided against it. All I could think about was Brock and the fact that I had hurt him .

I was wearing a Suplex City T-shirt that he never wore as he always wore the ones with the cut off sleeves. My luggage was here but I felt closer to him wearing his merch.

I wished that I could have taken the past few hours back, I had been so hard on him about my parents when his only intention was to make me happy.

He had his parents do everything for us, for me.. and I had thrown everything in his face and most likely made him regret it.

I placed the little black box in front of me and slowly opened it to reveal what was meant to be my engagement ring.

It was breathtaking and I couldn't stop staring at it.

Its what I wanted, I wanted him but I had ruined it. I didn't even know if he would still want me when he got back.

I had been over thinking everything ever since I found out I had accidently called him my husband , but yet when he shouted out that he was going to propose I wasn't shocked as in scared of the thought of it .

I was shocked that he wanted it, Brock wanted to marry me...

I heard the banging of the front door and soon heard his jacket landing on the couch downstairs.

I realized he most likely went into his room , it took everything in me not to go down to him but he needed time and I didn't know where he had gone for the past two hours since he left.

I decided to reheat the meat loaf I believed his mom had made, so that if he came up soon it would still be warm.
I planned on going to bed after reheating it even though it was only 7pm.

As the timer went off I heard heavy footsteps on the staircase and I pretended not to notice as I took it out of the oven and placed it on a rack so it could cool.

"I told my mom it was your favourite that's why she made that"

I heard his low voice fill the kitchen and I turned to find him leaning on the railing on the top step in only a pair of blue boxers and I realized he had showered.

"But its not..." I whispered avoiding his gaze as a brief glance had showed me his eyes held a hint of redness.

He sighed and walked into the kitchen.

"I know its Mac 'n Cheese .. but I hadn't had meat loaf in a while" he shrugged as he stood in front of me.

I had never told him before but I had always ordered it when we were in hotels or on his plane so I guess it was obvious.

He moved away from me and sat down at the table.

"I'm sorry for telling your parents. Even though I was fucking pissed I had no right to break your trust that you had in me to share it all with me. I mean I just told them about him doing it that's all I didn't go into any fucking detail and..."

"Why on earth are you apologizing when.."

"I'm apologizing because I fucking rushed all of it I just love you so... I just shouldn't have fucking proposed..."

My heart sank as I knew he regretted it and it was all my fault.
He picked up the ring box," I saw your face when I told you, you called me your husband.. I know that you say you love me but just because you think you do doesn't mean you see this fut..."

"Where's..." his eyes fell onto my hand which was placed on the counter. As he had opened the box to find it empty.

"Why are you wearing it?" He stood up and walked to me again.

"Because I.. well I want to marry you Brock but if you think its.." I was cut off as he held my face and kissed me deeply.

I held onto his hands and leaned up into the kiss.

"You have to take it off.." He whispered into my lips.

"What?" I was confused as I had just agreed and now he was telling me too..

"My parents will fucking kill me if this didn't go the way it had been planned" he shook his head as he sighed and I smiled.

I found it cute that this Beast cared so much about his parents. They seemed like kind-hearted people that you couldn't help but get along with..

The opposite of mine and the fact that they were so happy for this even though he had divorced last year. All they wanted was for him to be happy and I guess I played a part in that.

I took off the ring and walked past him and placed it into the box, even though I had only placed it on my finger about five minutes before he came I felt lost without it on already.

"Where did you go?"

I asked him as he had filled both our plates with his mom's home cooked meal.

The black box was sitting at the edge of the table and I didn't know when I was supposed to have it in my possession.

I had never been one for surprises as most of my surprises were bad as they were Eric pitching up when he wasn't meant to and messing up my life..

" Nowhere.." I raised my eyebrow as we ate which didn't feel awkward at all even after everything that had happened since we got back to his home.

" I walked around the property .. Cleared some of the last snow left in the driveway. I just needed to cool down.." He sat back and looked into my eyes.

"I hated that you left.." I whispered as I broke eye contact and looked down at my food as I ate.

"I would rather leave than destroy everything down there . This is my home.. Our home ..not some fucking hotel or locker.. You don't deserve to have your home being trashed because we have a argument"

I was surprised at his response not just by everything he said but by the fact that he called it our home. I remembered the little collage hanging on the wall and glanced at it briefly.

I simply nodded as I wasn't sure how to respond and that's when I saw him glancing at the letter on the counter which I had forgotten about.

" Did you read it?"

"No.."

He looked at me for a bit as if trying to see whether I was telling the truth or not.

Finally he figured I was and stood up.

"Its meant for you.. So er read it.. "

He shrugged and I took it from his hand and looked at him and he seemed a bit anxious and I didn't get why he would be regarding a letter from Paige .

" I don't need to read this now we can.."

I just wanted him to propose like he intended to so I could be HIS officially well not officially yet but..

"McKenzie please don't be difficult.."

His voice was low as he scratched his beard a bit.

I wanted to argue further as what was happening between us was much more important than a letter from my best friend to him but he seemed determined for me to read it and after everything that happened I didn't want to upset my Beast again.

I slowly opened the letter as his blue eyes were on me.

A/N:

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