I haven't spoken to Seth in a few weeks and the only one who knows about what happened is poppy. My little house elf and closest friend is the only one who knows what really happened that day. But as I was getting ready for Hogwarts, packing all my stuff my mum came in with a serious expression on her face.

"Tell me what happened" she demanded

I knew by the tone she wasn't going to back down even if I cried about it and begged to not tell. So instead I decided to play dumb and innocent on the matter.

"What ever to do mean mum" I asked

"That night months ago you know what I am talking about dear" she said

She was now sitting on the edge of my bed with a sad expression on her face and that of worry.

"I can't" I said shaking my head trying to plead with her

"He did something to you, I know because I've experienced it before myself" she said

"And you let me deal alone" I snapped angrily

"It's what I wanted when it happened to me, I didn't get that chance and was forced to speak upon the matter so I figured you kept it close but I know the signs, and poppy she" she began

"Poppy came down covered in blood with a bucket of bloody water after saying she had scrubbed the sun room floor" she finished

"Mum" I cried and she pulled me into her arms as I sobbed

"I won't mention it I promise" she said

"He" I began

"Isn't allowed a foot near here any longer" she said

"Thank you" I said through sobs

"Shh my little angel" she said as she held me tightly

I didn't realize I needed this until now, I didn't realize I needed my mother's love so badly until now. Her comfort, her confidence, her patience and ability to calm me down was what I needed most and I didn't even know it. I didn't realize it and now that I have her I don't want to go to Hogwarts or leave her side at all. But I knew that I had to, deep down I knew she would want me to keep going in life like I have been the past few months.

"Don't deflect those who try to help you, be confident, be smart, be cunning and ambitious my dear because your Slytherin no matter what anyone or any hat says, your my daughter and always will be your fathers too, you have so much of the both of us and I hope you use it well in school, your father and I have a dear friend there you remember Severus right?" She asked

"Severus Snape?" I asked

"Yes him" she said

"The one who helped me in potions when you were in a meeting?" I asked

"Yes he's a professor at the school now, teaches potions too" she said

"So I know one professor at least, but I don't know anyone in my level" I said

"Pansy goes to Hogwarts so does Daphne" she said

"I haven't seen them in a couple years mum they probably don't remember me" I said

"They do, you see them at the parties dear remember" she said

"Who else do I have to worry about?" I asked

"The riddles brothers, Draco Malfoy, Theodore Nott, Lorenzo Berkshire should be there as well as Blaze zabini I believe and of course pansy and Daphne" she said

"Is Astoria there too, I don't much like her and rather avoid the snobby little girl" I said

"Understand that she's just trying to fit in too" she said

"But she's a little too much too handle mother" I said

"I know dear so was her mother back in school but she'll grow hopefully" she said

"I just don't want to get into that" I said

"Are you all packed then?" She asked changing the subject much to my surprise

"Yes just need to grab my" I began

"Wand" she said holding it up

I giggled softly and thanked her taking my wand from her hand and grabbed my things as well. My trunk was full of all the necessities such as clothes obviously. Shoes, accessories, hairbrushes, toothbrush, lotions and perfumes, and my other stuff had my school supplies inside. As for the third trunk that had my gowns and my more party type clothing then my regular school attire. I had four trunks of belongings which was according to mum not enough, but to me I had just enough. Well o had all the necessary things at least the thing I found necessary to bring along for the trip. Little trinkets along the way with a few pictures to hand or place on my bed side table. Mum said I was gifted a separate room so I wouldn't have dorm mates like everyone else usually does.

The reason being I would need to have a separate room to keep clam and hopefully not harm anyone. I tend to have nightmares now and my magic sparks in the night causing things to rattle. Mum told me that father and Dumbledore chatted about my circumstances and all that. Which Dumbledore happily provided a spare room that had think walls to silence it from others which makes it soundproof. The room also had an enchanted space to where I could easily slip through and it would take me to the room of requirements in case of emergency. That being in case I had an episode and needed to fast travel to the room for the safety of myself and others. I was one of few that knew about that room, the room was well hidden and only showed itself to those in need of it most.

And considering my situation I'm for example a person who needs it most in this case. Also I was told I had a separate bedroom that was attached to my room and I could lock my door easier than others whatever that meant.