Song: NF - If You Want Love.

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My breathing was still uneven from the reality of the situation. That I was adopted back into a world that I have been helplessly avoiding since escaping it.

After the big fight between the 'Terror Twins', whom are named Sunstreaker and Sideswipe. Everything seemed to have calmed down.

Aneska and Nathan had returned home with their guardians by now and I was still sitting in the exact same position as before, but now in deep thought. Unsure on what to do and how to act to all of this.

William and Epps looked at me with worried gazes, Obviously seeing my distress. I had heard them ask Ratchet if he could check on me.

Ratchet had replied with; 'Hazel is recovering from shock Will. Give her time'.

Ratchet had said that 2 hours ago. Why was I so shocked?

-Because I just discovered that i am once again chucked in a war with sentinel beings that had destroyed my home, my family, my friends and my life.

Then I find out that there are two sides. The autobots being the good and the decepticons being the bad.

So the Decepticons had killed the people I loved.

My eyes slowly narrow in anger. I could of done something. I could of stopped what happen that day. I could of saved my family if I just stayed home. I could of-

But that was the problem, I could of. I can't change the past, but I can change the future.

I scrunched my eyes shut at how selfish I am being. I wasn't the only person that has lost people they have loved because of the Mission City War. A lot of people had the same fate as I did, other's didn't even have a chance to live another day.

Heck, the Autobot's lost their planet from war and are now stuck on this planet still fighting a damn war, while being told what to do and when to do it.

I suddenly heard a familiar grunt and straight away I knew it was Ironhide. His heavy metal footsteps went to my direction. I held back a startled scream when I was scooped up in big metal hands.

"H-Hey!" I choked out in shock and looked up at Ironhide, where he simply looked down at me with an serious expression om his robotic face.

"You're thinking to hard human" Ironhide scolded me with a stern gaze and I glared up at him

"I have a name robot" I hiss in return, not happy with such treatment. I was more angry at the fact he had me believing he was human himself.

This made him slightly growl. I huffed at him and looked away in annoyance. At that, I heard him grunt once more before giving in.

"Fine. Hazel." Ironhide rolled his electric optics at me in his own annoyance.

I crossed my arms around my small body in my own defeat, looking away I muttered. "Fine. Ironhide"

We gained stares by fellow Autobots and William, they watched the scene unfold while Epps left to go home as it was getting late.

Ironhide noticed my insecurity when I realized all the attention on us two, it made me try and hide behind his large fingers from embarrassment.

Ironhide did some type of mechanical sigh and walked down a random hall at that. This made my head pop up and look around in curiosity, before having enough courage I spoke up.

"Where are we going?" I question instantly while looking up and meeting his eyes once more, he quickly broke eye contact with me and responded. "Somewhere to clear your thoughts"

I nodded and looked forward, not being bothered to protest because It was a true statement. I do need to clear out my thoughts. Ironhide was right, -which I hate admitting-, I was over-thinking things and it was making me over-whelmed.

We exited out what seemed to be a backdoor, revealing a large field. It was obvious the soldiers trained out here because of the running tracks and shooting ranges.

My brown eyes observed the scenery in front of us. The dark green winter grass was freshly cut and the night air was nice, but cold. This helped relax my tense frame.

Before I had realized it. Ironhide had sat down in the grass, his legs crossed and his full attention on me. I slowly, but awkwardly, faced him with a faint smile of appreciation that wasn't familiar on my lips.

I had rarely smiled in the past 2 years, I hadn't really had much to smile about now that I looked at it.

Being stuck in a depressed slump at an Adoption centre; where you know nobody really wants you and with nothing to look forward to in the future...

Well it's bound to happen and the simple act of kindness Ironhide just did for me...well it made my day.

The tension seemed gone and everything felt relaxing and warm, even with the cool breeze hitting my skin.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" I say to Ironhide about the nature of Earth, trying to start an conversation so It wouldn't be awkward.

"Yes, your planet is truly astonishing" Ironhide admitted lightly without a second thought to it. His left servo that didn't hold me ran through the short grass.

"How was... uhmm" I trail off the sentence instantly when it hit how sensitive the topic would be. I didn't want to be pushy in a what would be a hurtful topic.

"Cybertron?" Ironhide continued for me and paused. Deep in thought on how to answer such question.

Ironhide looked away before continuing, his optics seemed to dance along the scenery before settling with the night sky. A small vent left him. "Cybertron was quite... similar to Planet Earth when it came to society standards."

"Just imagine everything was made out of Metal. Buildings were larger and taller of course... Everything was much bigger on Cybertron than Planet Earth. Cybertron would be twice the size of your planet" Ironhide explained with much pride. The mech was very proud of his planet and cultures.

I nodded while taking in the information, before I looked at the mech so he knew I wasn't joking. "I wish I could of seen Cybertron before the war...It sounds beautiful."

Ironhide looked down with me. his expression un-readable. Optics adjusting while staring, calculating a response.

"Yes, Cybertron was a very beautiful Planet." Ironhide stated with a tone of sorrow, before changing the topic instantly.

"What was troubling you back there?" I looked away quickly at that. Feeling quite ashamed and scared on how to answer such question.

"I was thinking about the past" I managed out in a strained voice.

Ironhide nodded already knowing what topic I was on. It was amazing on how he read me so well when even I can't understand myself. How he understood so easily.

I continued after knowing I could speak without stuttering. "I could of done something different that day and maybe...just maybe... my family would still be alive." I spoke solemnly with a frown on my lips.

"The past is the past Hazel. Do not let it drag you down when you know within yourself, that you can not change it" Ironhide told me seriously, his glowing blue optics looked down at me.

"Don't make the same mistakes as I have. All it will cause is anger and hurt. Anger will never achieve anything." Ironhide wagged his index digit at me in a scolding matter.

"I-I know that, but-"

Ironhide cut me off. "There is no but's. Stop letting your mind get the best of you and whom you can be." Ironhides expression showed that he was in no mood for excuses.

"Ironhide- Look. I'm just scared okay?" I whispered out while fiddling with my fingers anxiously.

"Why?" Ironhide instantly demanded. Wanting a response, his gaze so strong that I had to look away. Too scared and ashamed to respond. "Speak to me, I am your Guardian now. I am always here for you."

"I am scared of being close to them." Ironhide remained quiet, knowing by 'them' I meant the Lennox family. The mech patiently waited for me to continue.

"I am scared they will be ripped away from me in a blink of an eye. Just like my famly." I explained myself. Trying to get the mech to understand, because no one ever did-

At that moment I realised he understood from the very beginning, because he too, had been in the position many times. Too many times.

"Is this the reason why; You keep to yourself?" Ironhide raised an optic ridge in my direction.

I swallowed down the lump that raised in my throat. Thinking on how to respond without sounding like a total loser. "I thought...maybe if I kept to myself, I won't be a burden to anyone ever again. I won't drag them down with my issues...but now I am just really lonely 'Hide."

Ironhide lifted his servo up that carried me. I stumbled slightly at the unexpected action, but was more surprised that we were now face to face.

My eyes slightly widened when he did a strained smirk with soft optics that spoke volumes of unspoken emotion.

"You will never be alone again, I will always be there for you. No matter what the problem is..." Ironhide stated very seriously making tears instantly well up in my eyes. I quickly wiped them away before I made a mess of myself.

"Seriously?" I doubted the mech infront of me, used to people saying such things just to leave in the end.

"Hazel I am your Guardian now...and I will always be your Guardian til the end of time."