(a/n so sorry for not updating in so long)

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October 17th, 1997

"Was that wrong of me to do?" I asked hugging my pillow to my chest. Blue was sitting on the ground going through my vinyls, Ari was flipping through my sketchbook and Nicole was sitting across from me on my bed.

"Yes." Nicole tilted her head to the side giving me a disapproving look.

"Well I'm sorry, ok? What else was I supposed to do?" I asked clutching my pillow closer to my chest.

"Cancel with Jackson obviously." Nicole slapped my leg and I winced. "Now Brendon probably can't work his shift. He works three jobs Ryan, three. Just so he can pay for his kid. And you won't babysit for him because you have a date. That's selfish." Nicole crossed her arms over her chest and raised an eyebrow.

"I really like him ok? Would you go babysit for some kid instead of going on a date?" I threw my arms up and Nicole rolled her eyes.

"I guess what's done is done but I don't support you." Nicole said scrunching up her nose.

"You don't have to, but please don't stay mad at me."

"I won't."

"Can we listen to this?" Blue asked holding up 'Nevermind' by Nirvana.

"Sure." I shrugged and Ari opened my CD player. She hit play and I laid my head back on my wall.

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My mom dropped my off at the doctors office on her way to the grocery store. I waddled up to the door at 9:38 at night. And the sun had already set and it was kinda sketchy.

"I'm here for Doctor Wood." I said and the lady with long red nails passed me some paperwork. I quickly filled it out and handed it back to her.

"He'll be out in about twenty minutes."

Sweet.

"Ok, thank you." I sat down on one of the little kid stools.

•

"George Ross?" My head shot up and I saw Doctor Wood standing there with a huge smile across his face.

I stood up and followed him back into his room. He gestured for me to sit on the table so I did so.

"Hey Ryan."

"Hey."

"So we have news on your leg." Doctor Wood said flicking my knee. I winced but tried my best to hide it.

All I could wait for was getting my boot off and starting cheer again. My team missed me, and I missed my team.

"Yeah?" I bit my lip and started peeling the nail polish off of my nails.

"So bad news is that we need to keep you in the boot for another few weeks, one at least. It seems your leg has not fully healed and there could be some permanent damage if we don't treat it properly. And then I want you to go to physical therapy a few times before starting cheer again."

I didn't mean to start crying.

But I did.

And then I couldn't stop.

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A/N
Hey everyone
I'm really sorry I haven't updated in so long ig I've just been busy
And I've had a lot of tests recently and one was worth 20% of my grade and I'm worried that I failed that so yay ughhhh
Idk nothing super interesting has happened ig I have a dance coming up so ig that's exciting
TRENCH IS HETE AND UTS GREAT
still haven't heard all of it and I'm seein them in like just over a month heckkkk
Pet cheetah like yes slay my life
Ew I've never said that lmao
•Song Suggestion•: Alien Boy by Oliver Tree
I really hope y'all can forgive me for being gone so long I'll try and update everyday again
•Fun Fact•: tell me how this book is so far lmao bc that's a FACT
Anyways

~enjoy killjoys~