16. no right

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A day passed and I rarely talked to Matt since. I knew he was voiding me and sadly, so was I. The past day has  been nothing but hell. Vanessa was in the hospital due to a poisoning that happened at a benefit, no leads again.

"Hows Vanessa?" I asked Maya as she walks in my loft. "Any sign of Wesley?"

"Vanessa is stable but shes awake. Fisk is with her now. No sign of Wesley either." Maya leans forward on my table. I frowned since something was bothering her.

"What?" Maya stands up and walks to me.

"Kazi and I are going away. We wont be able to see each other for a while. Work." She puts her hand on my shoulder. "You take care of yourself." Kazi walks in to get Maya.

"Im guessing she told you." I nodded. Kazi steps in front of me, Maya now suspicious. I looked away from him and he took the hint. "Its just for a while. Hope you find what you're looking for about your dad." My phone buzzed, Fisk. They found Wesley.

"Lets go, they found Wesley." We left my place and Matt walks up the stairs, the two men stood there and Maya yanks Kazi out of Matts way and left. My heart started to beat faster than usual. For a second we just stood there until I walked out and met with Fisk. The bodyguards surrendered the building and let me through. Leland and Fisk stood there. I stared at Wesley who was now dead.

"Look what they did Devon." Fisk tells me without looking at me.

"Do we know what happened?"

"He got a call last night at the hospital. Don't know who it was. He asked for the keys to the SUV and my gun." Said one bodyguard.

"You let him leave? Alone?" Fisk slowly turns to look at the man.

"He ordered me to stay. He wanted as many men on you as possible." Fisk grabs the man and headbutts him. He kept hitting the man over and iver until his face was all bloody and messed up. For the first time, i saw him get ugly, dangerous. I stood there in shock. Wilson repeated that Wesley was his friend.

"Maybe this isnt the best time to be beating your men to death. He he did what he was told. I think they call that loyalty or something." I got Fisk to let the man go and they took him away to get him cleaned up. He started to mutter things, looking around. Fisk walks to get a chair and pulls it next to Wesley.

"The attack at the benefit and this? What is happening?" I asked. "Someone is not happy."

"Nobus accounts...are they still active?"

"Yeah, but nothings been touched since he went up in smoke."

"And Gao?" The little old lady? The one that walks with a cane?

"You think this was her? No, my moneys on the Japanese. Maybe they found out about your little bonfire with their boss." Leland continues. "Maybe the man in the mask did this."

"He doesn't kill anyone, thats not his mark." I told him.

"What you two buddies now? Telling secrets? Lovers?" I just rolled my eyes.

"You both can go now." Fisks stops me. "Devon, see who did this to Vanessa and Wesley. Kill them if you must."

"Of course." I stared at Leland who was sweating when Fisk said to kill whoever did this. He looks away from me and walks away, faster as I am behind him. As he gets in his car, i closed the door before he gets in. "Looks like you seen a ghost."

"Its just cold, you know how New York is, I bet Russia was like this too." He starts rambling. "You know, your father hated the cold. He says it messes up his aim. His fingers freeze." I didn't say a thing, making him more anxious. "Have to go on, bye." He yanks the door open and leaves. All I have to say is, my money is on Leland, he knows.

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I went home, gathering information about Leland. Wheres he been, i tracked him. My phone pings and I noticed that Fisk asked to find the man in the mask for more money, even though he asked me to do. I was now furious. I shut my laptop and called him.

"I told you I had the man in the mask. I do it my way!" I shouted in the phone.

"I said to kill him, you left him alive."

"You hired me to do the job. I have my ways. Are you doubting me now?" He scuffed over the phone. "The man in the mask didn't kill Wesley, its not his way. You let me handle this."

"You kill him or you can join the others on the hunt." He hangs up the phone. I tossed the small object across the room and swore in Russian. I closed my eyes and let myself calm down. Someone was knocking and banging at my door. I slowly stood up, grabbing my knife.

"Devon, its Matt." I sighed and hid the knife in the couch as I went to get the door. He walks in, slowly and I followed him to my living room. We both stood there, wondering who was going to speak first. He was going to speak but he was heading back to the door.

"Matt." I spoke out. "Is this what we are now? Strangers? People who cant stand each other?" He stops.

"I know this guy...we were close once." He turns around and starts walking back to me. "He told me if I, uh, id have to push the people that I care about away...if i wanted to be effective at what i do." My face fell. I know the feeling

"Seems like you listened." I coughed.

"I thought I didn't. This guy, he has a way of uh... getting in your head, you know." Dreykov. Thats all I could've thought of when he spoke about it. "And heres the thing...i had a really shitty night. The kind where you think you've seen the bottom of humanity, and the pit just keeps getting deeper you know?" I had a lump in my throat. I knew the pain all too well. "I... I cant..." Matt starts to break down. "I cant do this alone. I cant... I cant take another step." He started to sob. I didn't even think, i just went to hug him. Matts face fell on my shoulder and I stroked his hair.

"You're not alone. You never were. I know, I know how you feel." I teared up. He hugs me back and now, what has been 17 years, my first hug. It felt welcoming, warm, safe. Like I can trust someone again. Matt hugs me tighter.

"I never meant to push you away. I want you to stay. I just cant lose you." I pulled away from the hug and I grabbed his cheeks, wiping the tears away. "If I lose you, I would lose everything."

"Im not going anywhere okay? Im staying here, with you." I nodded my head, assuring him. "Wherever you go, I go."

"You are the one Devon. I pushed you away because I like you, everything about you. I want all of it, all the flaws, the imperfections, everything." He kept saying, meaning every word. He kisses me deeply, holding my face close to his. Matt made me feel good, made me feel there was actually something to live for. Hes the reason I now want to be good. And if something happens to him, I will hurt them. Hes my savor, my missing half.

"Im yours." I whispered out as we pulled in for another hug.