TW: Mentions of suicide

Areum was just laying on her bed. Thinking. She had put her (longer) curly hair into a ponytail because she was really thinking. Didn't want anything to distract her.

What was she thinking about? Life. Life as a member BTS. Life before becoming a member of BTS. Life if she wasn't a member of BTS.

They changed her. She was at a bad point of life when she met them. She had plans, plans to put an end to her life, to her destiny. They taught her to fight for her. Even when no one knew about all the bad things, they were there ready to help. When they heard all the horrible things, they were still there ready to help.

She doesn't know what she would have done if she wasn't in BTS. Each time they'd ask her what she would do outside of the group, she never knew what to answer. She couldn't and can't imagine herself without them. If she had to be honest, if BTS didn't exist, she wouldn't be alive.

Not to be dramatic, but that she would have killed herself a long time ago. They helped her become sane. They understood her even without understanding. They were there during her darkest moments. They were there during her most painful moments.

They were always there. She was grateful for that.

Who would have thought that 7 boys would have saved her life? Who would have thought that together they would have saved thousands and thousands of people with their music?

Not her.

She smiled tearfully at the thought. She got up and went downstairs.

She found them just chilling talking doing their own things.

She just stood there, admiring her heroes. They sacrificed a lot for this group, for Army. BTS had become like Anpanman. They sacrificed theirselves to make others happy. Seeing others happy made them happy.

"Re, why are you crying?" Jeongguk had noticed her presence and saw her crying. His words made everyone turn around to look at her.

"Before y'all ask. I'm okay. These are tears of Joy." She laughed with a few tears falling. "I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for everything."

"Are you...drunk?" Sometimes when Areum is drunk she gets all emotional and all. So, yoongi had to question her soberness.

"I'm not drunk, hyung." She chuckled. "I'm just grateful to have y'all in my life. You guys made it better."

"How so?" She looked at Taehyung and smiled.

"In many ways. You guys made me fight for myself. Taught me not to give up. Y'all helped me and many others. When I was down and had no way to go except my past not so safe habits, you guys were there to show me the right way. You guys never put me down because I was back to my old ways, you guys supported me through the process. You guys made me a better person and I am so so grateful to have you guys."

By then tears rolled down her cheeks and not only hers. Her words were able to make them emotional.

Hoseok being the first as soon as she finished talking he went and hugged her. Soon enough, the others join them and they had a group hug.

"I'm so lucky to have you guys."

"We as well."

She sniffed. "Thank you. I love you guys."

"I love y'all." "You guys are the best." "Couldn't see myself without y'all." "I'm thankful for you all." "We did it, together." "Bro, I'm wet."

Everyone paused at Jeongguk's words and looked him weird.

"What?" He looked at them confused.

"What do you mean by I'm wet?" Seokjin side eyed him.

"Some tears got in me and I'm crying myself." He tried explaining looking very much innocent.

"Bro." With that they all bursted out of laughter.

When the laughter died down, Areum started thinking a bit. Everything she had thought about came back to that moment and gave her inspiration for a new song.

'Anpanman'

"I have to go." She vaguely informed and started heading for the Mini studio they had in their house.

"What do you mean you have to go?" Jimin asked looking her go.

She turned around still going. She smiled biting her lips. "I have to write a song."

A/n:

WAITING FOR YOU ANPANMAN

WAITING FOR YOU ANPANMAN

YUP YUP

okay bye

2023 edited A/n:

While this is a very old chapter, It it probably one of my favorites. I really didn't have to change anything.

This chapter is very real to me since it's how I feel. BTS literally saved my life. If I'm still alive I'd say it's because of them. "They understood her even without understanding." They don't know me and I don't personally know them but it feels like they understood me,  saved me through their lyrics and music.

I honestly wouldn't be alive if I hadn't found btsm I don't think I found BTS, I think they found. At the time where I needed them the most they were there and I am forever grateful to them.

If I ever get the chance to actually meet them, I would thank them for everything.

I love this chapter. Hope y'all love it too.

Thank you.

Daniel <3