Dedicated to dangerouslove

"Two years" I blurted out as I encountered a box. It's been two years since he left me. This box of cassettes remind me of those false promises and fake happiness.

I never cleaned my storeroom since I kept this box there. I forgot about it, about him.

But today, as I see this box, I'm curious to play the cassettes and laugh at them.

I walk to my bed, carrying the box. On unpacking it, all the cassettes are untouched and unheard.
Sounds metaphorical, huh?

I grab my cassette player, and search for which one I should listen first.

So I pick the last cassette I recorded that time before putting this dumpshit into my storeroom.

It reads as "Cassette 3000". I even forgot what I said in that, curiosity gets the best of me so I put the cassette into the player and hit the play button.

"Ahh...um... Hello Silvert?" my voice quivers, sounds like I was pretty nervous then.

"I know this is an unwelcomed letter and so am I to you now." My voice chuckle through the player, "So this will be my last message to you."

"Dear Silvert, it's hard for me to express my views for you when I know your true face." My voices echoes into the room.

"Do you even have any idea of what I was going through when you told me you want to break up on your last cassette ?" Huh, bullshit!

"You don't! And guess what, I wasn't crying for you. I was a free bird, I recognised you, you made me believe that people like you don't deserve me."
I'm proud of the girl I'm listening to.

"Since the day you sent me your last cassette, I never wondered how were you or why did you end up like this, just nothing because the answer was so obvious to me"

"You were bored of me!" I gasp as my voice shouted through the player.

"Yeah you heard me right, even if you won't admit it, but it's true." My voice sighed "otherwise you wouldn't have proposed our colleague the next day. Am I right?"

"Wondering how did I know?"

"Are you at home? Come downstairs, I need a word with you." Damn it! Mom always pokes her nose at the wrong time.

"Coming mom!" I hit pause and moved to downstairs.

After I finish my dinner, I head straight to my room to complete my cassette.

I lay on my bed, and hit the play button.

"Wondering how did I know?" silence everywhere, "the answer is clear, our colleague was loyal to me."

"Ahh...just nevermind you know, even if you were not a good boyfriend who hurted me, never cared for me but you taught me a great lesson. So I owe this to you to let you know that you aren't a good human too."

"Once someone told me, if I'm not satisfied by seeing myself on the mirror, so even if three thousand mirrors are given to me, I'll never be satisfied!" My voice sounds so calm, I was really happy that he left me back then.

"So that goes for you as well. You got bored of me, so even if you get another queue of 3000 girls, you might eventually leave them as well." My voice laughs, I can hear the joy, the independence in her voice after she breathe the air of freedom.

"You know, sometimes I wonder why didn't we talk when we met each other everyday? I wonder why our way of communication was only through cassettes? I wonder....... nevermind!"

"I don't see the point of telling this to you, why a man like you would even listen to girl like me, isn't it?"

"But I really wonder why did you propose me at the first place? I mean if you had the plan not to talk with me in person, hurt me, make me jealous each day, make me cry to sleep, get bored of me, an—and the list is endless. Why did you do that Silvert?"

"Do you know how much strength, dedication, loyalty I had put into our relationship? You don't know anything because you piece of shit only cared about yourself. You selfish bastard!"

"Our relationship was of 2 years and half month. And here am I making a last cassette for you half a month later." Yes I do remember, I made this just 15 days later since my break up.

"You know I would like to make you understand that relationship never dies a natural death. It is  being murdered by ego, ignorance attitude, not able to control mind, etc." I nod in agreement with my voice, "so please if you ever make any girl fall in love, don't show her dreams that you can never fulfill!"

"I pity you, really I do. That you left me, a girl who's one in a million, you can never find another like me, may be better than me, or worse, but not like me."

"If you think I have pride, so let me clarify it. Yes I'm proud of myself for not giving up on myself when I left everyone for you, and you left me for another. I'm proud that I never cried because you left me. I'm proud that I'm successful, happy,  contented, and independent without you!"

"I don't need a man who plays around, just know I'm mad at you as hell, don't ever show your shitty face to me, but don't worry I'm not plotting revenge on you. It's just not my thing"

"Lastly, just be happy with whom you get. Sometimes girls like me don't need your money, we just need your attention and support."

"But I don't care what you do with your life. Someday you'll see me with someone more worthy than you, I'm very precious to keep. Not everyone deserves me, you taught me this." My voice sighed happily.

"And I'm glad that you left be, just don't mess with me again ever and fuck off!"

"Your (Precious) Ex, Tisha" my voice chuckle through the player.

I just stare at the ceiling, flashbacks flood through my mind, it's true that he left me when I had no one.

Everything that I recorded 2 years ago since he left me, is true still today.

I couldn't bring myself to send this cassette to him, even all these 3000 cassettes are left to be delivered to him. But I forgive him for what he did and so it's pointless to send these to him.

May be this box of 3000 cassettes are better to be kept in my storeroom.

And as I said in the cassette two years back, I  finally got someone who cares for me, someone worthy for me, I love him three thousand and I do not regret a single moment from my past life.

May be if they didn't occur, I wouldn't have get such a beautiful life where I really want to explore more and enjoy being the real self.

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Breaking up is not a solution, control your mind.
Be honest, loyal & faithful!
Relationship does depend on both partners.
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AUTHOR's NOTE (A/N)

This letter is completely non-fiction.
True story based on my real life, nevermind!
I do have someone now whom I cannot describe into words.
( ◜‿◝ )♡

My Ex and me never talked through cassettes but through Social media only.
So turning messages into cassette was a idea
of mine.

Idea of Cassettes
It's inspiration is from 13 reasons why.

Thank You.