I was there at his grave......i felt like he was there but i can never see him again nor i can touch him.....

He was my first love who taught me  what really love is..... I still love him a lot and i don't think i can love someone else like the way I love him......

Of course i love my family a lot, my eomma, my daughter is my everything....jimin is special to me.......but my love, my seokjin is only one....my first love..... My unrequired first love.....i wish if only i could turn back time to those days when we were happy not knowing anything not facing any hardship.....with the people i love..... With the people who i call mine, With happiness and happiness only........

Every year i'm here only with guilt, regret and sadness, these are the only thing i feel, that's why i always walk home,  to ease my mind. I need to be myself when i'm with my daughter, but all these thoughts make it difficult for me to think straight.

I was going back home and I was walking on the side of the road and I did not realize when I started walking in the middle of the road. And i don't know what happened and i don't know when i was hit by a car, everything was a blur like nothing was there.

( a mini shot from 'FRI'ENDS' you know if you know)

All i know is that i'm free now, I feel sorry that i have to leave my baby girl, i had so many  Plans for my daughter but i can't do anything now .... I'm sorry  my daughter....my lovely jin-ah.... My eomma....jiminie.....junkook....and everyone but i'm happy to be with my love...... My seokjin...........at last

My breaths are started to slow down......it hurt a lot...... But it is so small in front of all the pain i was feeling  now. Slowly i took my last breath............

( don't hate me i'm trying to fix things)

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......................(＊￣︶￣＊)...........................

"Taetae..... "

"wake up baby you will be late for school "

I heard Eomma calling me...... I'm dead right!! maybe these are the best flashes of life before I depart from here, i tried to open my eyes.

I opened my eyes. I look around it was my room around the time i was in high school....everything looks real, everything is as same as before, just some things are different.

How is this possible i was dead, i had an accident . I slowly walked towards the mirror in my room. I can't believe my eyes, it was as i was staring at my younger self in the mirror, is it a dream or i'm in heaven and all this is a hallucination. The flashes can't be this real i touched the items in the dresser everything was real.

I pinched my self and it hurt...

" damn is this even real "

" yah.... KIM TAEHYUNG "

My breath was stuck, i can't breath listening to this melody voice which i can never forget even in my dream. His voice was like a melody to my ears even if he is shouting......

" YAH EARTH TO KIM TAEHYUNG ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING ME.....WHY ARE YOU STILL NOT READY DON'T TELL ME YOU PUNK FORGET ABOUT OUR PLAN "

There he was my first and only love seokjin looking so beautiful that i wasn't even able to bat an eye. I wish  if this is a dream i hope to never wake up again. He is still so beautiful pouting angrily and whining about something. I don't know what it is but i will give him everything he wants. I was just looking at him, when he smack my head.

" seokjin-ahh"

" YAH... DON'T SEOKJIN ME TELL ME WHY ARE STILL NOT READY "

I smiled and hugged him tightly

" taetae are you ok... Did you hit your head will sleeping "

" i missed you jinie....a lot... "

" yah this is how you talk to someone who is older then you. And we just met yesterday, and why are you changing the topic you really forget about our plans. You silly just get ready i won't be angry"

I just hugged him tightly to feel his presence.....

" hey love bird we don't have a whole day.... We need to leave fast, i don't want to be late today"

I looked around with my mouth wide open

"KIM NAMJOON "

I screamed i'm shocked he is alive but he was dead what the hell is going on

" HOW CAN YOU BE HERE? "
I asked fiercely. Then again I got a smack from jin

" yah what's gotten into you today....this is how you talk to your brother "

Brother what is jin saying

" and my dear lil bro this is also my room so i have to be here "

I looked around my room it had two beds, two wardrobe....everything thing was in set of two and most strange thing was a family portrait it was my family with namjoon.....and in that portrait we were happy.....and close

" are you angry with me tae.. That i didn't share my ice-cream with you, is this why you are acting like this......i would bought you a new one ok so get ready fast....me and jin would wait for you down stairs ok"

Jin gave me a glare and mouthed to be ready in 10 minutes....and they left

It is so confusing what's happening why are they together why is he saying we are family it is soo confusing... It seems like i'm going nuts, and i don't remember any things like this happening in past.  Around this time me, eomma and appa were living happily. Jinie was my neighbor we used to be so happy together, we shared same classes so we were always stick together.

Then I went to bathroom and all the tolitries were in sets of two. Is this same kind of multiverse where everything is opposite. I brushed my teeth and freshen up and refreshed my thoughts and after showering I come straight down and see the dining table where mother, father, Namjoon and Jin are sitting. They were having breakfast while having a heartfelt conversation.

Everything is same as the old days just  thing is added i. e. Namjoon and one extra pair of everything.
I sat down for breakfast when my father asked

" how is my winter bear ? "

That what my father called me, we were a small happy family.

" i'm good appa....i really miss you a lot... I'm so happy to see you "

I almost felt tears in my eyes

" taetae did you want something, you can just ask me don't need to butter me up "

Appa said laughing with everyone
this is what i want happiness and love

" appa i think he has done something that's why is buttering us up "

Me and jinie always referred each others parents as eomma appa

" don't tease my son let him eat, everyone just want lame reasons to tease my baby. Just focus on your breakfast "

I really miss my family together, our breakfast and talks

" eomma you always treat tae like a child that's why he is so carefree. And mess things around . "

I rolled my eyes but all these things seems familiar like i'm used to this, like those horrible things never happened like we were a family like this from the start.
And namjoon doesn't feel like stranger  he felt like my hyung, is this reality or was those were reality i can't differentiate, but this felt like home and happiness. I wish everything would be stay like this forever. I was so
in thoughts jinie's tender touch took me back to reality. He smiled sweetly and squeezes my hand softly, i give him my boxy smile which made hin blush. 
After breakfast we went to amusement park where jimin joined us according to jinie he his namjoon's crush, whom he is going to propose today and we will go our ways so we won't be a third wheel.

According to jinie my hyung's crush is his collegemate. And jimin is my best friend, just like before, he said hyung likes him a lot and i wish jimin feels the same so that namjoon won't be alone this time.
Me and jinie enjoyed our time together eating and enjoying rides together....it still felt like a dream but now i'm starting to accept it as my
reality.

The same evening we went back together and  shy minimoni joined us, they look happy and perfect together.

After some years..................

We were in college when i proposed to jinie and he said yes.......i was so happy and minimoni are still the power couple and even people admire their bond in college.

Soon hyung is going to join dad's company and jimin has applied for his dream job.  While me and jinie are collage students enjoying our life. We found our another best friends jungkook, yoongi and jhope. Yoongi amd jhope are in a relationship while jungkook is dating a girl from college. Our group of 7 is the best thing and we are inseparable......i'm thankful to god that he gave me another chance, where i'm so happy.

Once someone said to me that everything comes with a price and my beautiful daughter is the price i have paid for this happiness i wish she would be happy where ever she is. I love her a lot she was the ray of sunshine, i hope she would born as our child, the proof of my and jinie's lobe Story.

I'm so happy that things are good now, everyone is happy and things are good hope our happy family would always be together............

After some more years hyung and jimin got married and had a beautiful baby girl. Then after them when i was stable with my company and jinie's restaurant was going good we decided to get married. And we all lived happily me, my hubby jinie, my hyung,  my brother-in-law cum best friend,  my eomma, my appa,  my friends, and our small candy.............i'm thankful to god for everything......

The End

Thanks for reading my book, hope the alternative endings is of your liking.....
Thank you all and love  you a lot...... ❤