I still remember the day I met you. The luckiest day of my life, my first day in our college you were there standing in the auditorium giving directions to new comers. I was fascinated by your actions. I stood there looking at you, rather looking at your mannerisms- your hands moving in air, fingers moving through your hair now and then, your intimidating voice, a pleasant smile dancing over your lips. Suddenly you walked towards me and I stood like a frozen statue. "Which department?" you asked. Your eyes locked with mine. Those sharp brown eyes of yours pierced through me. I was spellbound. I did nothing other than blinking. You smiled wide looking at me the most beautiful smile I have ever seen and my lips curved little unknowingly. You shook your head and saw me raising your right brow I looked at you in awe tilting my head. "Earth calling miss" you snapped your fingers in front of my face. I jerked in my place scattering my books over the ground yearning some laughter from the audience there. I might have looked like a terrified kitten to you. Gathering the books for me you pushed them into my hands. "Second floor first class" you said and I blinked. "Computer science department" saying so you left the place as one of the faculty called you. Later I came to know that you are the student leader of the college. The whole day went with you occupied in my mind.

I have not seen you for next two days because of you being in different department. I longed for a view of your face. Three days went it was a Friday I was moving out of our block a group of three four boys stopped me. Being a shy introvert girl I have not gained any friends so I was all alone. They started ragging me. I was shivering as they stood towering my petite figure. They asked me random questions I was answering them suddenly one of them pulled my bag hardly I fell down with the thud as I didn't see that coming. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as everyone laughed at me. Slowly I got up from the ground my knee and arms were bruised. Being a girl surrounded by boys who are stronger than me i was scared and had no guts to fight against them. They started passing dirty comments, i shivered. The same boy pulled the stole from my shoulder this time humiliating me my heart drummed against my ribs I was feeling dizzy black spots clouded my vision my right moved to my head unknowingly trying to hold my head finally I was giving up I was waiting for my body to touch the ground but I was pulled into a warm embrace I lifted my eyes slowly only to look into your sharp eyes. Your lips were moving you were talking something but I heard nothing. Second time in the same week I smiled, before surrendering to darkness.

I woke up with a start in a new environment, it was not my room I was scared my hands unknowingly clutched the sheets of the bed. Priya your cousin, my new roommate approached me with the glass of water. She narrated the whole story how I landed up in her room because of your request to hostel warden. No words to explain how I felt that day. I don't know what happened but from the next day the whole class looked me different every one came and talked to me voluntarily. Many were sorry about the Incident I looked at Priya confused she smiled giving me a assuring nod. You visited my class only to inquire about my health I was overwhelmed.

Priya's friends became my friends meeting her is second good thing happened to me all Thanks to you the first ever good thing happened. We started to hang out together I enjoyed her company unlike me she is bold, chirpy I loved being with her. Your cousin being my best friend we started to meet now and then your bickering's with her made my days. The way you cared for her, everyone around you amazed me. I started falling for you. I kept my feelings hidden afraid of losing your and Priya s friendship. I keep on stealing glances until one day you caught me red handed I was embarrassed to the core I stopped meeting you. You are everything I can ask for but i was nothing this feeling made me curl into my shell again. A Week went I locked myself in my room avoiding accompanying Priya not wanting to meet you. She too didn't compel me thinking I was busy with studies as exams were nearing.

It was the day of final exam of my first semester I and Priya were allotted in same examination hall I was so busy writing my exam. Suddenly I was disturbed by your voice I lifted my head from the paper you were talking to the invigilator pointing to me and Priya, you were tensed I easily got that from your behavior, you kept brushing sweats off your forehead. Invigilator called Priya you pulled her with you and moved out of the hall. I kept looking at the door after a minute Priya came inside straight to me. I know something bad have happened but I never thought that it will be death of my mom the only soul I can claim as mine in this world.

You and Priya left your exams in the middle and came with me to my place stood by my side comforting me, helping me to gather myself. After a week we came back to college you started spending more time with me. You will drag me out in spite of all my protest. The whole vacation went with three of us roaming all over the city. We talked about everything under the sky. You and Priya became my new family.

You came into my life as a blessing...like a cool breeze in the dessert...Like a drops of rain in the parched earth... you stood by me during my hard times, understood me without me saying a word, showed me a different aspect of life, encouraged me to live my life.

Finally gaining little confidence, I started living the life but my destiny had different plans for me. As they say Life has a cruel sense of humor, giving you things that you never dreamed of and taking them from you when you are so used to it that even thinking of living without them is a curse. It clipped my wings before I even stared flying...you left me in the middle of no where. "I am doing this for your good" were the last words you spoke. I still wonder what goodness left in my life after you leave. My whole world shattered hearing those words from your mouth. My body become numb...everything around me came to halt... All I could see was your eyes.....That was the first and last time I saw you, your eyes, the ones which always pulled me towards you was filled with tears. You were trying hard to control them from rolling down. Even though we have not exchanged those precious three words. The tears on your eyes told me the untold words, your love for me...i am happy for that. You walked without looking back at me taking my newly found reason to live with you. Even Priya left the college with you. I was left alone again but no one dared to misbehave or insult me I know the reason was You. I surrounded myself with books, my thoughts fully focused on studies nothing other than that. Spent days and nights in libraries taking notes and preparing for exams. There were days I forget to eat, there were days I dint see the sun locking myself inside the room. I finished my course with gold medal. Joined a reputed company in good designation.

Five years have passed now, without you. Many things have changed. I am not the old, lonely scared kitten you know. I have made lot of friends I even go for outing and shopping with them, just like you wanted. Every new person I meet at my work say i am the bubbliest girl they ever met making me think of you, how happy you would be if you hear that.

I know you always wanted me to be strong, bold, independent I have become all of that but one, Now I am bold enough to fight against the creeps I encounter in metro I even kicked a pervert who tried groping me, exactly how you taught I know you will be proud of me. Strong enough to hide all the tears, pain and put up a smiling face But I am still dependent on you to be happy, to smile truly, to laugh wholeheartedly. Loneliness occupies me once I am surrounded by nothing but brick walls. I sit alone and think about the poor jokes you once cracked they made me laugh to tears then and now. I am dependent on you, your memories, every night I sleep thinking of the dark brown eyes of yours it gives peace to my soul. I may be bubbliest girl to my colleagues, witty girl to my friends, Strong bold girl to the society only I know i am a broken, incomplete puzzle who long ago lost the piece which completes it. I live like a walking corpse, a body without soul, a thing which inhales and exhales air.

I don't know whether you remember me or not. I don't know whether iam worthy enough to be remembered by you. But I don't remember anything other than you, the days we spent together which the sole reason iam still breathing.

Many things may have changed in these many years but Iam still standing in the same place where you left me, hoping for you to come back with open arms, wide smile and shining eyes. Your absence broke me into million pieces yet each and every piece still beats for you. My mind knows that you have abandoned me leaving me deserted, but this broken heart of mine still trusts you and your decision, it is still chanting your name calling you to tend them like you did way back then. I don't know whether you could read this or not, iam satisfied that I have penned down the last words I wished you should know. I love you, I loved you, will always love you.

Yours lovingly,

Me.

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