Frank: I know that we can't be together but I don't want to lose you completely. I want to be friends. We can't see each other in person, I know that. Our connection is just too strong when we're together. But can we at least facetime or something? You're my only tie to the lifestyle you're in. We're in. I am looking for another dom but I have questions and I need your help.

I set my phone down, sighing softly. I went to find Jamia in her room, which she moved into the other day. She was sitting at her desk drawing and I smiled.

"What are you up to?" I asked.

She smiled, holding up the little drawing of a panda she was doing.

"Not bad, if I do say so myself," I said.

She smiled. "How you holding up, Frankie?"

I sighed. "A little better. I miss him but he doesn't want to be part of this life."

Jamia smiled, holding my hand. My phone rang in the other room and my heart leapt out of my chest when I saw it was Gerard facetiming me. I sat on the bed, answering it on my laptop.

"I promise I'm not trying to get with you anymore," I said. "I know you don't want to be part of the business. I just need your help."

Gerard sighed, running a hand down his face.

"Yeah, okay," he said. "But I think it's best that all our conversations should be kept over the phone. We shouldn't be together in person."

I nodded and he sighed.

"So, what did you need help with?" He asked.

"How do I find another dom?" I asked.

"Well, there's this app, I'll send the link to you," he said. "It's like Grindr but more for doms and subs."

My phone buzzed with the link and I downloaded the app, starting to make a profile.

"Fill out your information and be honest," he said. "Lying on hook up apps is one of the worst things to do because you will meet that person in person very soon."

I filled out the information and added some photos to it.

"Okay, what do I do now?" I asked.

My phone buzzed with a message from another user.

"Oh holy shit, I already got a message from someone," I said.

"Not surprised, you're stunning," he said.

"His name is Andy Biersack," I said.

"What'd he say?" He asked.

"'Hey, Baby, would you like to meet up with me tonight?'" I read.

"Well, there you go, meet up with him," Gerard said.

"But what do I do?" I asked. "How do I act?"

"Just be yourself, Bunny," he said.

My heart pinged at the sound of my nickname rolling off his tongue. I looked at my phone and texted the man back that I would meet with him tonight.

"I don't know how to act with someone else," I said.

"You're a submissive, Frankie, you do what he tells you to do, act how he tells you to act," he said.

I nodded, sighing as Andy sent me a time and location.

"I'm scared," I admitted.

"It's gonna be okay, Frankie," Gerard said but he sounded a little sad. "So, how did the appointment go?"

"I'm having twins," I said.

"No shit," Gerard said. "Oh, I'm happy for you. I bet Jamia is ecstatic."

"She is, she has always wanted a child and she's having two," I said.

Gerard nodded, still not really smiling.

"One other question before we hang up," I said and he nodded. "I was wanting to buy a toy for myself, where would I go to buy that?"

"My favorite shop is the one on Orchard Rd," he said. "You should go there."

I nodded, biting my lip.

"I'll talk to you later," he said.

"Bye," I replied.

We hung up and I showered and fixed up the red in my hair before going to Jamia's room to hang out. After dinner I grabbed my keys and left. I've gotten more freedom now that I've proven to my dad that I was a man. Usually had a guard but not always.

I walked up the steps to a little condo and rang the doorbell. The door opened and I looked at the tall man in front of me. He had short black hair and striking blue eyes. He smirked, looking me up and down.

"You must be little Frankie," he said.

I nodded. "You're Andy?"

"The one and only," he said. "But you can call me master from this point on."

I swallowed as he hooked a finger in the collar of my shirt and pulled me inside. He led me down to the basement to a dark room. He turned on some dim lights and I saw a bed in the center of the room, the walls covered in toys.

I felt a small pit of fear in my gut as I looked up at Andy. He went to the mini bar and poured us both a drink. We sat down on the couch, drinking whiskey. Andy smirked and shook his head.

"Pets sit on the floor," he said.

I looked at him before sliding down to sit on the floor.

"What's your safe word?" He asked.

"Bunny," I said.

Andy hummed as I looked around nervously. So many toys, some of them looked intimidating. I downed my drink pretty quickly, trying to get some liquid courage.

"Slow down there, pet," he said.

He ran his fingers through my hair moving me over to sit between his spread legs. I set my glass down on the coffee table and looked up to him.

"You're so pretty," he whispered, caressing my cheek

He unzipped his pants and pulled them down, stroking himself slowly. Andy tangled his hand in my hair and brought me close. I took him into my mouth slowly. I was a little nervous, I had given Gerard blowjobs before but I wasn't necessarily the best at it. It didn't help when Andy started going a little bit rougher. He face fucked me as I gagged, my eyes watering. I didn't really mind it, though. It kind of turned me on in all honestly.

Andy pushed me off him and picked me up. He pushed me down against the bed, taking off his shirt. He crawled in between my legs pinning my wrists down against the mattress. Andy smirked down at me.

"You're so small, I can't wait to ruin you," he said.

I couldn't help but think of Gerard. I wanted him to be saying that to me, not some random guy I met a few hours ago over the internet.

"Bunny," I said.

Andy frowned in confusion, sitting back.

"Wait, what's wrong?" He asked. "We haven't even started yet."

"I'm sorry," I whispered, my eyes filling with tears. "This was just a rebound and I apologize for that but I don't think I'm ready to just completely move on yet. I can't do this."

"Oh," he mumbled.

I looked away, trying not to cry.

"Look, look, it's okay," he said. "Just...good luck, okay?"

I nodded and he walked me out. I went to my car and drove to the sex shop that Gerard had recommended to me. I bought a couple of things before heading home. I ran inside, storing all my purchases under my bed.

I video called Gerard and he frowned when he saw me.

"Thought you were meeting up with that guy," she said.

"Yeah, I didn't end up doing it," I said. "I don't think I really want another dom right now. I think I just wanted to give up my control for a little bit. But I don't think I'm ready to move on. I did get some toys from the shop you talked about, though."

Gerard raised his eyebrows and I pulled out the bag.

"Well, I hope you have some fun tonight then," he said.

Was he pushing me off the call?

"Oh, um, okay," I said.

"I'm sorry, I've gotta go to work," he said. "I'll call you another time."

"Yeah, bye," I said.

I hung up, a little disappointed. I was hoping to maybe show him the toys and then maybe he could watch me use them. But we couldn't. We were just friends.

I got up and locked the door. I looked up a video on my laptop. It was of some gay BDSM video. I've started watching more videos like these as of late. How do I dominate myself? I got undressed and fingered myself slowly. It wasn't as good as when Gerard had done it but it was good enough to stretch me out.

I grabbed the nude dildo out of my bag, covering it with lube. I grabbed the soft rope next, trying to tie my hands together. It didn't really work out well so I grabbed the velcro cuffs I bought instead. I put the cuffs on both of my wrists in front of me.

I positioned the dildo under me before slowly sinking down onto it, my jaw dropping. I gasped as I bottomed out, clutching onto the blanket. I watched on the video as the dom pushed his sub around before starting to fuck him. The burning inside was eating me up. I closed my eyes as I listened to the video, pretending that what the dom was saying was Gerard saying it to me. Pretending I was riding him instead.

"You're such a little slut," he said.

I gasped, rocking my hips as the toy pressed against my prostate.

"You're my little fucking whore," he said.

"Yes, sir," I whimpered. "Your whore, your bunny."

I came sooner than expected, taking a deep breath. I pulled off the toy and turned off the video, my head still spinning. I've never bottomed before so this was a new experience that I actually really liked.

I went over to stand in front of my full length mirror. I turned a little, looking at my ass. It was still slightly bruised from Gerard. I wish the bruises wouldn't go away, I loved the way he had marked me up. I wanted him to do it again. I wanted him to make me his.