Tw: anxiety attack, self hatred, gaslighting

Small continuation of last chapter

He's still shaking an hour later, even after getting Cali to info dump and trying to get DC to eat. He can't stop thinking.

He's sobbing again, curled up on his bed clutching his phone, why couldn't he just get over it? He wants to ask his partners for help, see what they think, but he's scared, what if he's bothering them?

This was stupid anyway, DC needed to vent more, he should be helping DC and instead he was fucking crying. He sighs, pulling at his hair and opening his phone again, he doesn't want to get out of bed. He's scrolling through the chat mindlessly, not processing anything he reads. His mind is screaming at him to get up, do something, anything other than lie there and feel sorry for himself. He just had to be better.

Why couldn't he be better?