When your tears fall to the beat of your sobs. And when they dry, and all that's left is your chest heaving and your body shaking. When you can't fight the covers and you want to suffocate and take a breath at the same time. When you're still and your head rests in your hands. Your pillowcases are soaked and your mascara's gone. You want to strangle yourself with your earbud cords and jump off and cliff without falling. You never want to fall again.