For years,
In the friend zone,
While I'm alone,
My heart acts like a light switch,
When you come near,
But turns off,
Because I fear,
So I move away,
As protection,
Of my heart,
Even from the much needed affection,
My soul is ripping,
Like paper,
And not much later,
It will be in shreds
Useless; meant for the dead,
Heart shattering,
Like glass,
And not much later,
It will be in pieces,
Never to be well again,
Like a phoenix,
I am foolish,
How would love be given back,
To invisible me?
There is no guarantee,
For that,
That is a fact,
Might as well give up on the love,
That circles me like a dove,
My thoughts and emotions are mixed up,
Should I give up?
I smile on the outside,
But die on the inside,
I can't be strong or brave,
The feeling of not being loved,
Will lead me to my grave.
I want you to save,
But instead,
You don't,
Day after day,
I feel the same,
It is a shame,
That love's denial,
Would bring me such pain,
And I am silently crying,
As I am inwardly dying.