Chapter dedications to LarryingStylesTommo ♥️
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It was midnight when Louis finally decided to get out of bed. Harry had not made a move to come out of Leilani's room, for dinner or even for a glass of water.

Louis walks up to the little girl's bedroom and stands outside, facing the closed door, staring at the baby blue painted door with little lilac hearts. He holds the doorknob and takes a deep breath before pushing it open very slowly. He peeks his head in and internally coos to see Harry on the bed with with Leilani's five feet tall teddy bear. The teddy is facing Harry's back and the boy had made it's arm to drape over his body as he cuddles into the stuffed toy. Louis' heart breaks realising that Harry had tried to make the stuffed bear his big spoon.

He sighs and walks towards the bed before very slowly and carefully separating the stuffed animal from Harry's body. He lets the bear sit beside the bed before he gets in beside the sleeping boy. He wraps his arm around Harry's waist and sighs deeply. He wanted to talk to the boy, but he can't right now because he is sleeping.

"What do you think you're doing?" Comes a calm whisper.

Or maybe he's awake.

"Um.. I-I ... I wanted to talk to you..." Louis whispers back.

"Well I don't want to, so you can leave now." Harry whispers, but doesn't makes a move to remove Louis' arm from around his waist.

"At least hear me out... please?" Louis requests and the other boy sighs, but nods. "Well.. I really don't have an excuse for why I said all that.. I don't really know. But I didn't mean it.. any of it. Maybe I was just upset and I know I had no right to take it out on you, but.. I did.. and I'm so sorry. I don't really know how to apologise.. I grew up in an environment where being wrong wasn't actually wrong and no one gave a shit if you apologise or not... So I never faced a situation where I needed to seriously apologise which just made quite of a stranger to that term... Okay, now I'm going off topic. Well what I want to say is that.. that I'm sorry. I was upset about everything and you were the only person who came around at that moment." He sighs and nuzzles into Harry's shoulder. "I didn't mean it, Harry, I really didn't. I was just sad and hurt that And- Gemma walked out on me like that and.. I'm scared, Haz, I'm so fucking scared of what happens when your parents come here. I can't afford to lose Lee and I can't afford to lose you again." He cries on his boyfriend's shoulder.

He waits for Harry to say something, but he's only met with silence.

"Did you- did you seriously sleep on me?!" Louis asks in disbelief, but he hears a soft 'no' from the boy. "Oh, I thought my apology was that boring.." he says and Harry sighs.

"I'm so tired of this, Louis." He whispers softly. "I'm so tired of this thing that we do.. where you do some shit, I get hurt, you apologise and I forgive you."

"You don't have to forgive me this time.. just-.. just don't leave me. Stay here with me.. help me see my mistakes and repent on them. Help me learn, Haz. If there's anyone who can change me for better, it's you. You just know how to make me realise my mistakes and grow out of them. But if you leave.. I don't know what I'll become after losing you yet again." He cries. "Please don't leave me.. please, Hazza." His hold on Harry tightens as the boy lets him do it.

The taller boy smiles softly into the pillow at the words. Of course he wouldn't leave Louis just because he said some shit because he knows that's how the man is, full of mistakes and imperfections, yet somehow perfect to Harry. How can he give up on his perfect man just like that? Although, he knows Louis didn't mean it and that he was just upset, his words obviously had hurt Harry at that moment. But how can he stay mad after all the words Louis just said, while he clung to him like a baby? However, he really wants to teach Louis a lesson this time, he can't get away with everything by just saying 'sorry' and being cute.

So instead of confronting or comforting the man, Harry pretends to ignore everything Louis just said as he whispers out his next words quite coldly.

"I'll think about it. Now go to sleep, I'm quite tired right now."

He feels Louis lift his head up from his shoulder. He only hears heavy breathings for a moment before Louis' whisper breaks in the silence.

"Bu- but you won't leave, right? Please, please say you won't leave. Please?" His voice comes so weak and vulnerable that all Harry wants to do is turn around and hold Louis to his chest. But he can't because one, he's pretending to be mad and two, he's the little spoon.

"I said, I'll think about it. Now sleep and let me too." He says and Louis goes silent again for a while before whispering a weak 'okay' and resting his face in the crook of Harry's neck. Within a few minutes, Harry could tell the older man was asleep judging by the soft snores.

Harry closes his eyes and thinks back to when he was talking to Anne on the phone. When he said he wanted to come back, his mother was very concerned, but when he told her the situation here with his 'roommate', Anne totally agreed with what Harry wanted.

Harry looks down at the tattooed arm around his waist and sighs. It's a right decision, he thinks.

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It's 3:30 am and Harry is unable to sleep for some reason. He groans and tries to get out of Louis' hold, who tightens his arms around the boy. Harry sighs and holds Louis' arm before pushing it away.

"No, don't leave me please! Don't- don't please." Louis panics in his sleep and Harry coos at him before caressing his arm soothingly.

"Shh, I'm not leaving. Just going to the washroom, Lou. Shh, calm down." He whispers to the sleeping man and it works. Louis relaxes and his breathing gets under control.

"Coming back?" Louis mumbles.

"In a minute." Harry promises and kisses Louis' earlobe before pushing a pillow towards his hand. The shorter lad instantly pulls the pillow to his chest and Harry chuckles as he gets up to use the washroom.

When he comes back, Louis has moved forward in his sleep and is now sprawled on Harry's side. Harry shakes his head with a small smile before getting into bed, but behind Louis this time. Instead of lying down, he sat up with his back against the headboard.

After a while, he is bored out of his mind. He hates such insomniac nights, but he can't help when it happens. He sighs and looks down at Louis who is still cuddling the pillow, soft snores escaping from between his parted lips. Harry stares at the man for a moment before subconsciously running his fingers through Louis'hair. He smiles when the shorter man lets out a sound, something between a moan and a purr.

Harry bites his lip as he stares at the phone on the night stand before taking his hand out of Louis'hair and grabbing the phone. He opens his contacts and selects the 'send a message' option. After a few minutes of typing he clicks 'send' and sets the phone aside. He checks the time and groans realising that only an hour has passed and he's still not sleepy. He sighs and decide to use the situation to his advantage. He leans down and kisses the corner of Louis' parted lips before slipping out of the bed.

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Louis' phone rings at around 6:15, making Louis groan. He forces his eyes open and the first thing he does is panic. He gasps to find himself spooning a pillow instead of his green eyed boy.

"Harry?" He calls out loudly, ingnoring the phone that's still ringing. "Harry?" He calls out more louder and panics even more when he's met with absolute silence. He gets out of bed and fast walks towards the bathroom door, but when he opens it, he's met with silence and cold breeze. He runs back in the room before pushing past the bedroom door and calling out Harry's name again. He checks his bedroom, the living room, the kitchen and even the balcony, but  tears pricks his eyes when he doesn't find the boy anywhere in the house.

He jumps when the house phone rings before he goes to answer it. He picks it up with shaky hands and an elderly voice rings in his ear.

"William?" The voice asks.

"Yeah, William here." He answers in a hoarse voice.

"Bill, Officer Higgins here." The voice on the other line says.

"Oh, Paul, what's up?" Louis asks his co-worker.

"There's an accident, Bill, and there's this boy... you've got to get here as soon as possible. I'll text you the address." He says before the line goes dead.

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