Arjun's POV

I sat in silence rewinding the events of last night in my mind and I questioned myself if my past is responsible for what happened last night between me and Lily. I closed my eyes as rest my head on the headrest. Memories that I would rather forget start raising their ugly heads as I go back in time.

FLASHBACK

I entered the bar with Lily alongside our mutual friends. Tonight's plan was booze and hot dates. It had been a week since that night when I and Lily lost our virginities to each other. I had made it pretty clear that I won't be bemoaned for screwing other girls if we had to have an open relationship. Sounds fucked up but we were more of best friends than lovers and now fuck buddies. I had no relationship or marriage plans for at least ten to fifteen years and I came clean about that before Lily. I did not force her so how does that make me the bad guy?!

The minute I entered the bar, I found women salivating over me. I fucking love the effect I have on girls. Not everyone is blessed with such good looks and a personality that makes everyone else speechless. I let go of Lily's hand as I thought me holding her hand sends a signal that I am taken.

Lily frowned but she knew better than ruining my mood tonight. If I didn't get anyone to fuck then Lily can fuck me too. I don't mind but if I were to be honest I want a new girl. It's getting boring between Lily and me. I spotted a girl sitting near the bar with her martini half-finished. She was exotic looking and fucking hot. I made my move and she was drawn towards me too. I took her to the room which they have upstairs. This bar is in my father's name so I know everything about it. I didn't had to pay to use the room.

I took her to the room and pushed her on the bed. She looked eager and pupils dilated with lust. I fucked her brains out and left her to clean up. I zipped my fly and left the room. I closed the door so that she can have her time to gather her wits. I had pretty much worn her out. My face grimaced as I found Lily standing in front of me, teareyed. Fuck!

She dragged me outside to the back of the bar. I tried to free my hand from her grip without hurting her. If I applied force then she will split in two!

"Lily, what's wrong with you?!"

"You are seriously asking me what's wrong with me! What's wrong with you?! How could you cheat on me?!"

"Fuck! Lily, we are not in a relationship. I made myself clear that I can't be in any kind of relationship right now. I will not repeat myself again and again for you to get this though your head."

"And what about what happened between us?!" She asked with moist eyes.

I scoffed,"Lily, there is no us! I don't believe in love and I don't think so I have any reason to stay loyal to you when I made my stand clear. We are not in a relationship! Period!"

"Arjun, you used me!"

"ENOUGH! I fucking used you?! Seriously Lily Mathews, how can you even fucking say such a thing?! You wanted to fuck as much as I wanted to that time. I did not take you by force. Lily, I can have any woman in my bed and you know it so stop with the pouty looks you are giving me right now. You are my friend but I am not going to stop sewing my wild oats to please you."

I left her alone to cry her eyes out and I didn't look back in fact I got myself another girl to fuck me that night. I was an asshole and I had no qualms about it!

Two days after that night, we had ferocious sex when she came back to me and begged me to fuck her and I like a poignant ass fucked her hard forgetting that I had made a vow to not touch her. I was seriously a jerk to her and maybe because of that Lily is in this sorry state.

I feel responsible for her fragile mental state but then I make myself feel better by telling myself that I didn't make promises to her. Yes, that promise of marriage happened when we were kids and I forgot about it long back in fact the thought of marriage never occurred to me all these years. Even marrying Radhika was never my plan, I just got that sinister idea that time when I saw her helpless and vulnerable. Of course I won't deny that I felt drawn towards her from the time I saw her and after marriage, that magnetic attraction multiplied instead of diminishing and now she is an inseparable part of my life.

I have to give her credit for holding onto the weak threads of our marriage that I initially didn't respect at all because of what my mother suffered in name of marriage. However Radhika was tough as nail, never giving up, always lecturing me about marriage and though I don't have a heart for her to make her place in, but she made her indispensable place in my life. No other girl could have managed to do that, no one would have survived the hell I put her through still not breath a word to my family.

I wonder how she managed to do it, why didn't she give up?! She earned my respect and even now she and I both know that I am not an easy man to live with. I am a megalomaniac and she knows it very well so do I. I think I should go back and see if she is ready or did she go back to sleep. If she went back to sleep then she'll have it from me!

When I came back to my room, I was pleasantly surprised to find Radhika draping a sari. She was in her underskirt and her blouse with her sari sprawled on the floor. She looked funny as she seemed irritated by her hair that hindered her vision. I threaded towards her and I stood right behind her with my hand enclosed over her waistline. She has a tiny pouch but it's not noticeable unless you are keenly watching. She gasped in response and my god, I was flattered by the effect I had on her. I pushed her towards the wall gently and lifted her up," Wrap your legs around me." She did but she looked totally out of element.

"I could just take you against the wall baby" I husked in her right ear. Her haggard breathing indicated that she was getting affected by our close proximity.

I kissed the hickeys I had marked on her soft flesh tenderly. I kissed her all over her neck and pushed my face deep into her heaving blossom as I inhaled her scent. I unhooked her blouse and I stared at her breast held together by her lacy black bralette like a child stares at his candies. I took it off hurriedly and I kissed her nipple sloppily and took a big nib drawing her to scream throwing her head back. My tongue lapped on her peak erotically and I wish she would for once open her eyes and see her getting loved by me. Yes, loved because I never have sex with Radhika, I make love to her. My hands fondled her other breast as her hand had found its way in my hair as she caressed my hair ever so lovingly. I have never let any women touch my hair because my mom use to do it and getting it touched by some random tramp doesn't sit well with me but I like Radhika touching my hair, pulling on them ever so gently as my mouth does wonders to her beautiful body.

"I want to take you baby. Can I?!" I think for the first time since I have known her, I am actually asking her permission.

She nodded too shy to give a verbal approval. I untied her undershirt and it pooled on her feet and her panties followed the same lead. I unzipped my fly and my cock prodded like a beast unleashed. I want this fast and hard and I hope soaking inside the water had helped her soreness. I thurst hard inside her and to my shock, she screamed out in pain.

"Oh baby why didn't you tell me to stop?!"

"I wanted to please you, Arjun. I just thought that if I don't keep you happy then you will go to another woman and I can't share you." She says as tears brimmed in her eyes.

What?! I cannot even fuck another women with a borrowed dick. I was totally horrified by her answer. What have I done for this vote of distrust except for being faithful since we are together?

"What made you think like that?! Have I given you any reason to doubt me?!" I ask her angrily.

"No but eventually I thought that you will get bored of me like my dad got bored of my mom. I will cry and die if you..." She whispers cries.

This is strike three since last night. I want to hurt her so bad that she won't be able to lift a finger after I am done with her but I know I can't and I mustn't. She drives me crazy with her stupidness and naive behaviour but she keeps life interesting too. I wouldn't trade her off for anything in this world. She drives me mad but she makes me feel so alive and full of vigour that I am reminded time and again that I never lived before her and I won't if something ever happens to her. I might live but I will be a worst nightmare for all around me.

I see red as her words keep reverberating in my ears and I grab her by her shoulders," Radhika, this is strike three since last night and for the same mistake. You wouldn't wish to know what I would have done to you had you not been pregnant. This is my last warning, if and if by any chance I hear you talk about dying or leaving me then you'll will have it from me. I repeat you won't wish to know what I will do with you." I say in a lethal tone.

She shivers in my arms and I know she is scared to pieces which is good for her and for me. She won't repeat this again hopefully but of course this is Radhika we are talking about and the sole purpose of her life is not to listen to her husband and drive him mad. She is shaking like a leaf and I feel like giving in but I won't.

"You can't hurt me." She tells me in a choked voice.

"Why?!" I ask her. So much confidence in me, Baby you shouldn't forget who is standing before you.

"Because of the baby." She gives me a straight answer if only things were so simple in life.

If you continue with those stupid comparisons you draw between me and your fucking father, I might lose my mind and do something that I will regret!

"Just because I won't hurt you that doesn't mean I can't. I can give you a punishment but not the ones that will hurt you badly." I say calmly though the storm inside me has not calmed a bit.

"I am sorry." She says with her head bowed down in shame.

"Good now get ready for your punishment." I smirk.

"But I said sorry." She whined.

"So?! Sorry doesn't take back your words that will haunt me." I sneer.

"Okay." She mumbled.

"Give me a head." I give her a smug smile. Actually I am getting her to do something that I wanted her to do since a long time.

"What is a head?!" She asks me naively.

Why do I forget I am talking to my innocent Radhika and not some hooker?!

"It's another name for a blow job." I say simply and bam! She scrunches her nose in disgust,"Ewwww! I am not going to do that. I have never done that and you don't talk to me." She snaps at me.

"There were many things you didn't do before you met me and I am so glad about that but now you are my wife and you must submit to me."

"Ewww! I don't want to do it. How can you expect me to do it?!" She asked me in a shocked tone.

What is wrong in me expecting a blowjob from my wife?!

"Why?! You are my wife and weren't you the one who wanted to make me happy a while ago." I smirked.

"Yes but..."

"Just do it, Radhika and this will be your get away from your next infraction."

I push her down gently on her knees and she kneeled before me with her fist clenched. She was looking up at me with a lost expression on her pretty face. I took her hand and wrapped it around my hard cock which was saluting her beautiful bare form. I moved her hand up and down and with another hand, I brought her face closer to my dick. You have to teach so much to innocent girls but they are the ones who give you maximum pleasure.

She softly placed an ever so feather light kiss on my tip that left me greedy for more. Finally she took me in her sweet mouth and I almost ejaculated but I controlled myself. I want more so I will hold my release. Delayed orgasm gives you a different high. How I know this?! My experience has paid off. She took another inch in before she started sucking in a slow pace.

I caressed her hair and bend down to kiss her head giving her a go ahead signal," Common baby do it as if you love doing it."

I could feel her lips curving in a smile around my cock. She stared at me for a minute and diverted her gaze but she picked up pace with her sweet mouth. I was floored when she really started sucking me off furiously and I couldn't help but want more.

"Fuck Radhika you are amazing." I moaned throwing my head back.

My fingers weaved inside her hair from back as I held her head in place to control her movements. I pushed myself more into her mouth and the tip of my cock touched the back of her throat. My amazing wife has no gag reflexes.

"Radhika, I am going to cum so if you don't want me to fill your mouth then you must withdraw right now." I warn her as I feel I will burst any moment.

She still doesn't detach herself from my cock and next moment, I fill her mouth with my cum. Fuck! She is a quick learner. I already think she gives a good head for someone who has done it very first time.

She swallows all of my release and stands up on her feet, looking all shy and coy with a bashful face.

I hold her face and peck her forehead," You were amazing and I loved it. Thank you." I praise her.

"I hope I made you happy." Saying so, she hugs me tight as she hides her face in my chest.

Who would believe this girl just gave me a head?! She is still so girl-like despite being a fully grown woman but this is what sets her apart and makes her stand out. I cherish the innocence as much as I exploit it because it's all mine.

Later I left her alone in the room to clean herself and dress up as I chose to take bath in another room. I just can't keep my hands off her and at this rate, she won't be able to walk. Today I have invited some guest who I want to get on my side. The ones I have invited are my business associates and have nothing to do with my dark world.

Sitting through the pooja was a pain because I don't believe in all this but somewhere I do believe in God but my way of worshipping is different. I just pray whenever I want not because I have to in a certain way. Radhika was all smiles so I kept my feelings to myself. Wouldn't wish to spoil her mood, would I?!

I would time and again steal glances at her and admire how happy and beautiful she looked in that red sari. Her whole face was glowing like never before and I was surprised when Mariam said it's pregnancy glow but she looked different to me. I wondered if women change from inside too during their pregnancy?! There was a spark in her eyes and no one could miss the glow on her face. I wish your eyes are always lit up with joy like today and you are always this happy. I don't know if there is God up there but if he is there then I don't wish anything for myself, I wish for you, Radhika. I wish that you are always this happy.

To be continued.....